The nights..

Good morning..=)

Firstly I have no idea...y am I inspired to blog only when I'm in college.. when I'm back home..I feel hmm.. empty..=( ..didn't know UCSI had that much of impact on me..hehe

and its FRIDAY!!!!..weeeeeeeeeeeee!!!..F-R-I-D-A-Y!!!! ...and its gonna be a pretty interesting weekend..

before that..guess where am I gonna stay tonite?? hehe..If you're thinking in my same old room and bed...nope!!..I'm not..but wait.. were you thinking of that..??..lol ..anyway..ever heard of PALACE OF THE GOLDEN HORSES??!! ..heheheh.. yup yup.. I intend to be a princess..just for tonite!!..to be covered in the finest sheets ever.. to have the delicious food..in that cozy room..and of cause the bathroom!!..don't know why I love to check out bathrooms..heheh.. I mean, the tiles, the walls, the lighting, the mirror.. I find them very..erm.. very unique..lol and you find my very..weird rite??..hehehe..

Well anyway, my uncle, bernadette's dad is working in that hotel.. he's been askin us for ages to come and put up a night.. and hence we decided that it should be TONITE!! =D

And tomorow is another dramatic day.. we have to wrap about 500 roses..for mother's day.. which I'm so glad my mom loved her NEW SUNGLASSES we bought her for mother's day!!..heheheh..

then later in the evening..hmmmm..I won't be at home again.. I'll be putting up a night at Little Sister's of the Poor.. hehe..chill chill..don't get any wild imaginations.. I'm not ready to answer HIS call.. its just that the sisters are inviting all women aged 20-30..to spent the night there..with the elderly..so yeah.. I need to find out the reason why of all people..Alma and me..had the same instinct.. besides.. I need a night away from this world.. from family, friends, technology, fakeness!!

so guess you wont be hearing from me..for the next 3 days...
have a great weekend!

Problems..

"No one told me..I was going to find you.. Unexpected, what you did to my heart.. When I lost hope.. You were to remind me..this is the start.."

Sigh.. I've lost word to explain myself.. hmm perhaps another SUPERCALIFRAGILISTICEXPIALIDOCIOUS?? ..I don't know.. First something exciting happens.. then it is taken over by something troubling!!.. and it goes back all to square 1!!.. sigh.. its like I'm not allowed to enjoy that enjoyment even for a moment.. sigh.. but its ok.. for it is said.."Though sorrow may last for the night..but HIS joy comes with morning.."

Gee..I've been sighing a lot huh??..haizz.. Who can ever understand why such things happen at such time??.. They say everything happens for a reason.. but sometimes don't you just wished you knew what the reason is..?? like why does it have to be YOU..all the time!!.. like what in the world could you have done..that you deserve all this??!!.. lol..no I'm not emo-ing or whatsoever.. but sometimes these questions haunt me.. but then again it is good to question.. only by questioning, you will strive to find answers to clear your doubts..

I was checking my mail..and came across this one from Mellissa.. please take a while to read it..for it gave me answers..well not directly.. but this thought came to my mind.. what is my problem compared to the others problem..

I mean..someone might be fighting for their life this instance.. or perhaps lost someone dear to them.. or struggling financially to put some bread on the table.. or striving to breakthrough an addiction..or suffering from all kinds of abuses.. which if compared to mine.. is not even 10% of what they are going through.. and all I could think of is.. well..me..=( and how big my problem is..when its not even suppose to be a problem.. because I have my God on my side..to solve it for me..=)

Maybe this article will give you a bigger picture..

There was an atheist couple who had a child. The couple never told their daughter anything about the Lord. One night when the little girl was 5 years old, the parents fought with each other and the dad shot the Mom, right in front of the child. Then, the dad shot himself. The little girl watched it all. She then was sent to a foster home.

The foster mother was a Christian and took the child to church. On the first day of Sunday School, the foster mother told the teacher that the girl had never heard of Jesus, and to have patience with her. The teacher held up a picture of Jesus and said, 'Does anyone know who this is?' The little girl said, 'I do, that's the man who was holding me the night my parents died.'

See... what could possibly go wrong.. when you have HIM holding you..at your worst??!!

Before I leave..here's a few question to be contemplated..

Funny how simple it is for people to trash God and then wonder why the world's going to hell..

Funny how we believe what the newspapers say, but question what the Bible says..

Funny how everyone wants to go to heaven provided they do not have to believe, think, say, or do anything the Bible says..

Funny how someone can say 'I believe in God' but still follow Satan..

Funny how we can go to church for Christ on Sunday, but be an invisible Christian the rest of the week..

Funny how I can be more worried about what other people think of me than what God thinks of me..

It touched me!!..hope it did the same to you!!..=)

Good night and god bless!!

4 hours break

So here I am again.. all alone, stranded in the corner of the world.. awaiting for someone to save me from the eye of evil..

Hehehe.. chill chill..no such thing.. I'm in UCSI ICT.. surrounded by over 40+ students.. together with the annoying vibration of the printer and keyboard sounds..topped with little chit-chats..here and there..=)

Something interesting happen today.. I entered the so-called "ladies coach!!" in KTM ..hehe..which I didnt see the point of them seperating female and male..because I was surrounded by 3 really BUFFED guys!!.. and they're like twice my height k!!.. I felt like a mice in a paddy field..don't ask how or why..I just had that imagination..lol..so much for seperating the sexes la..

Ok that wasnt the interesting part..This is the insteresting part.. While I was strugling to put my self into one piece when we reach Serdang station, suddenly I heard someone say this.."PLEASE USE YOUR BLOODY COMMON SENSE!!" ..I was literally laughing out laud..but then forced to shut myself when I found out that I was the only one laughing.. which got me thinking.."where is your sense of humour people??!!" ..I mean come on!!.. I hate waking early in the morning..and getting squashed like a bug too..but sometimes entertainment like "bloody common sense!!" ..is badly needed to spice up the day!!..=)

and before that..we shall all thank Jon for deciding to come to UCSI..and also taking the public transport ..and hence finding me a friend to break the silence, for the next 3 years!!..weeeee!! hehehehe..and coincidently, jon was right next to the lady who was pissed off..according to him, these were her exact words.. "can you all get out of the effing train!! as it it we have minimal air here to breathe!!..please use your bloody common sense!!" ...I dropped my jaw when I heard that.. and then started laughing when another lady said this.."sometimes we need people like this.." ..lol.. and the next minute..they stopped pushing us inside!!.. and you know what is the worse part??..the poor pissed off lady was pregnant!!..sighhh.. my heart melted when I heard that.. I don't blame her..for her words.. I mean..if I myself, being the normal me was halfway nearing dead gasping for air in the overcrowded train..imagine how would she feel..with an additional weight in her stomach!!..

But I don't blame the passengers outside the train too.. I mean who knows what occasion they might have..proabably an interview for a new job..or scholarship.. and of cause work.. or a daymm 8am class in the morning..like me.. so yeah.. but I do agree..all of this would not have occured if..the train has not been cancelled...or delayed.. or if they had more coaches!!.. sigh..

Well anyway.. that was how I started my day with.. was on time though..for my 8am class!..=) next class at 2pm..meaning i have 4 hours break!!.. so hence the extra time and need to blog..

and guess what??..i started writing my own story.. hehe about 2 paragragh.. I stopped after that when I didnt know how my story line should be..as in should I let the girl die.. or live.. hmmm..lol.. i know i know.. that's the most important part.. but yeah..I'll work on it..

K..I crapped more than enough today.. I shall continue..when I feel like it..

Thanks for dropping by!!..have a nice day..=)

400th post

Guess what??..hehehe..this is my 400th post!!...weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!....*applause!!* ..hehee..

Sigh..but something is not right.. something is soooo wrong somewhere.. I dont know what.. but yeah.. I don't feel umm..relieved.. sigh..

What do you do??..when you have such feeling huh??..

Normally..I'll blog.. but I dont even know what is wrong..

Please don't bother me.. I wont be sleeping tonight..if I didnt crap!!..

Talking about sleeping.. I had the weirdest of the weirdest dream...

But I forgot half of it..heheh..

But I got up feeling weird.. =(

Well anyway..this post is just to inform that this is my 400TH post!!..in 1 1/4 years!!..

Nope..I'm not lifeless..

Stay tune till i reach my 500th post!!..hehe

10 mins before class

I have 10 minutes before my class starts..

but I have to say this before I face my worst nightmare.. You know..whats the best part of starting every new sem??..hehehe.. You get to "show off" to the juniors..hehe..lame i know.. but when I walked down the stairs.. you can actually see who's new and whos not!!.. it's written on their faces.. so excited!!..so unconfident!!..so erm..fearful.. some even came with their mom.. hehe.. gee..as much as protective my mom is..thank God she never followed me!! .. hehe..

and I wished every morning was like today.. well, I kinda got up early..knowing the timing of KTM and the bus.. I didnt wanna be late.. but guess what?..I was an hour early!!..shheessh.. everything was in fact ON TIME!!..the moment I reached the station..i didnt have to wait..and so was the UCSI bus!!.. wow.. but you see rite..whenever I'm early..its will come on time..and when I'm not..grrrr!!..

I think I shall leave now.. and face my NEW classmates..babi pinky not coming today.. sigh..

Lord, please dont let them think I'm weird... and let the class not be bored.. and please please dont let me embarrasse myself.. even if I did..please cover it for me k??!!..=) amen!!
Love ya!!..muaxxx

My endless love

Guilty!!..I'm extremely guilty for having BIG APPLE's doughnut and Aunty Annie's Pretzel.. all together at the same time!!..sigh..

Dear God, as much as I don't believe that I'm losing weight.. that doesnt mean that I wanna gain weight either.. so hear me..please!!..amen!!..=)

And I don't know why people always presume that I'm always EMOING in fb.. goodness gracious.. Its just that..that certain line or lyrics..happen to be on my mind.. and i guess there must be a reason..why it doesnt wanna leave my mind..so i write it down..as my status.. as simple as that!!.. that's the problem with us humans.. Our minds are actually made FOR simple things..but we love complicating them..by thinking and talking and complaining bout it.. and hence..we mess up our own life!!..sigh..

But anyway.. I know this song is really really OLD..and a lil bit tooo err..ok very very mushy..and lovey dovey.. but I think I'll add this song to my list.. ehehehe.. the list of songs to be played in my wedding..if I happen to get married..=)

hehe..dont bother me..I already have a list of songs to be played for my funeral..and of cause wedding..=)

ENDLESS LOVE (Diana Ross and Lionel Ritchie)

My love, there's only you in my life,
The only thing that's right.
My first love, you're every breath that I take,
You're every step I make.
And I, I want to share, all my love with you,
No one else will do.
And your eyes, they tell me how much you care.
Oh yes, you will always be, my endless love.

Two hearts, two hearts that beat as one.
Our lives have just begun.
Forever, I'll hold you close in my arms,
I can't resist your charm.
My love, I'll be a fool, for you I'm sure,
You know I don't mind.
Cause you, you mean the world to me.
Oh, I know I've found in you, my endless love.

And love, I'll be that fool, for you, I'm sure.
You know I don't mind.
And yes, you'll be the only one.
Cause no one can deny,
This love I have its fine.
I'll give it all to you,
My love, my love, my endless love.

hehe..so sweet huh??..sigh..

Its gonna be a long night tonite..
hope urs wont be as bad as mine though..=(

HIM!!...=D

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!

I dont know why..but I just feeling like "weeeee-inggg!!!" ..well you should too.. sometimes it's better to have that "I don't care" feeling.. though the whole world is against you.. though you might be facing the worst situation ever.. though you feel like you're all alone in this whole world.. well think again, there is someone out who is LONELY and all alone without you.. someone who longs to hear You every night.. someone who wants to make it better..if only you allow Him too..someone who dares to say "You are mine" ..=)

Well seriously, if I'm alive today.. and still able to sit here and key in whatever words that is coming out of mind..knowing that I can fall into the pit any moment.. knowing that a car can just hit me anytime I step the road..*I always have communication breakdown with cars..=(*.. knowing that I might break a leg or hurt my elbow every time I trip..*my body is very sensitive to clumsiness*..;p..knowing that my last semester result will be even worse than I could ever imagine..well, there is only one and only reason why I can still smile.. its because of HIM..=D

Have you heard of Him??...
I didn't like HIM at the beginning.. because if its not for HIM.. I could have slept longer every Sunday.. and didnt have to attend Sunday Classes..!!..=(
I didnt have to say the rosary every night.. *mom's rule!!* ..worst part..I cannot afford to miss any bead..or else she'll give me that deadly stare..sigh..

But as years passed by...
I found out..He aint that bad.. not bad at all..
He protects me..even without me asking Him to do so..
He stood by me.. every time my eyes leaked and I couldn't stop crying..
He listens.. sometimes that's what a girl needs the most.. someone to listen..and not say anything.. she feels so much better after letting it all out..=)
He jokes around..hehe.. yes!!..He really does!!..especially with me.. that's why you see me around every time there's a blunder!!..lol
And the best part.. after every failure, every mistake, every sorrow.. He leaves a miracle beneath it.. where something GREAT is bound to happen..=)

Amazing isn't it??..to know that there is someone who loves you so much..even if you keep on hurting Him..over and over.. to have someone love you..at your worst..to have someone to heal your wounds and wipe your tears..=)

It's not to late to get to know Him..you know.. In fact He is available at this very moment.. He knocks at your door.. the choice is in Your hands.. to allow Him to enter or not.. trust me..you wouldn't loose anything..but instead gain a lot more!!..don't wait till the last moment..for He has a lot in store for you!!..=D

Oh yeah..and most importantly He asked me to say this to You..

"Do not be afraid..I am with you..
I have called you each by name..
Come and follow me..
I will bring you home..
I love you and you are mine.."

God bless you!!