In my dreams..

"I dont wanna runaway..but I can't take it..I' dont understand.. If I'm not made for you.. then why does my heart says that I am.. Is there anyway that I can stay in your arms.."

So lately, I've been trying to get you off my mind..

But did you ever listen..

No..

I don't know why..

Maybe you simply enjoy making my life miserable..

But its ok..

You keep me occupied too..

Like a little yo-yo..

you keep me hanging..

At the end of your finger..

Now if only I can say this to you..

But I can't ..

I have so much to tell you..

But I'm not sure if you're ready to hear it..

I can't say if I'm ready either..

But I know one thing..

If it's meant to be..

It will happen..

No matter how hard..

or how long it takes..

Till then..

In my dreams..

Is where you belong..

I wish I was little again

"I love you.. you love me.. we are happy family.. with a great big hug..and a kiss from me to you..won't you say you ..love..me..too"

Once again she scores!!!!...weeeeeeeeeeeee!! ...hehehe.. I finished my first ever assignment for semester!!.. but that's not it.. I finished it 2 days BEFORE the due date!!!.... weeeeeeeeee!! *dances around in her pyjamas!!* normally I'm up the whole night la before the due date la k.. hehe...wow!!.. I know..I'm so awesome right??!!.. and I know you agree with me!!.. even if you don't ..just pretend that I am..;p .. just for this once k.. I mean come on!!.. I deserve some credit too.. for taking your boredom away!!..hehe..=D

heheheh..forgive me.. a bit the too excited..

Anyway.. Just now in the evening.. my sis, mom and me.. was having this conversation.. about our childhood.. yes yes!!.. I was such an ANGEL!! .. =))) ..lol.. ok ok fine!!.. I admit I was a big bully.. but you can't blame me.. I barely knew the difference between "duku" and "mata kucing".. or tomato and apple... and the rain and sun..!!.. errr.. ok ..ignore the last part..I wasn't that dumb..lol..;) but yeah.. you get my point right?.. I was such a baby!!.. I mean not that I've grown up now.. I mean I am.. oh goshh.. what in the world am I talking??..

Sorry... the excitement is still there..;p ;p

So anyway.. there's this group in facebook that says.."I wish I was little again.. where the hardest choice, was picking a crayon.."

True isn't it??.. well I wish I was little again..

• Where I didnt bother if there was a chocolate stain on my teeth..
• Where its ok, if my skirt was just beneath my..*well you know what* ;p ;p
• Where I could still play "galah panjang" ..with the boys in my taman.. sigh.. we use to play that EVERY EVENING!! ..
• Where your clothes are neatly ironed and folded..and shoes cleaned and polished!!..=)
• Where the hardest of the hardest homework you had.. was to repeat the same sentence over and over again..in CURSIVE WRITING!! ..
• Where the worst pain you ever had..is scratching your knees on the road..
• Where the only tears you shed.. was when you mom didn't want to buy you the LYCHEE FLAVORED ICE-CREAM, for the lamest reason ever..which is you might fall sick!! lol.. I mean come on.. it's only one day..and one ice-cream..ish!!
• Where the only worry you had.. was not being able to watch that cute, lovely, chubby, adorably purple dinosaur called BARNEY!! ..sigh..
• Where all you wanted..and all you had to give.. is LOVE!! ..

Sigh.. if there was a one wish I had.. I wished I'd never grow up.. and deal with all these nonsense..

But since I've programmed myself to deal with positivity..from now on.. So I have to admit..being a grown up can be fun too..=)

Like..erm.. like..sigh unfortunately I can't think of any now..=(

Some other time maybe..lol..

Good night!!..

home alone

I'm feeling all so cute-ish suddenly!!..lol.. weird, only I tend to have these feelings.. maybe its because of the tiny *mosquito bites look-a-like* that appeared on my face.. they're all over!!.. I mean I can't get pimples ..all at one time right?? ..sigh.. I must be allergic.. but I didnt eat any weird stuff.. hmm..

Well anyway..I'm HOME ALONE!! ...my parents decided to go on a movie date!!.. and my sis is out..God knows where...leaving me with one miserable roti canai for dinner!! ...*sobs sobs* ... not to mention..the tones of assignment..which I still not in the mood to touch.. because I'm too worried about them..=(

And mom, was super-duper extra nice today!!..

Firstly, I accidentally pressed the "off" button instead of the "snooze" button..which cause me to oversleep..and not make tea.. After a word of sorry..with one eye open.. she said "its ok.." ..and broke the news.. she was going out for movie with dad.. and I was like.."ur going without me??!" ..=((( ..lol.. jk jk..

Secondly, despite me oversleeping.. I continued sleeping after that.. hehe..dont blame me!!.. it aint my fault that I had to get up EARLY for a class that had been cancelled!!..aarrgghh..My mom didnt say a word!!.. instead she told me "bye" ..when shes leaving..

and then she ask to confirm about tomorrows shopping!!.. I'm like.. "we're going shopping??!!" ..weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!! ... shopping for Punjabi suits.. for my cousins wedding on the june 19th!!.. I was all the more excited!!.. seriously I need more Punjabi suits..the ones I have is ages old!!..sighhh

weeeeeeeeeeee!!...

But mom is acting weird.. not that I prefer her to be the usual her.. but .. something is wrong somewhere..

ttyl

cheers!!

Complications

"If I should stay.. I would only be in your way.. So I'll go.. But I'll know.. I'll think of you.. every step of the way.."

Well, class was canceled.. Seriously.. I so feel like..well..err nevermind.. shit happens.. life goes on..hehe..

So since class was cancelled.. and UCSI's comp lab.. was giving us hell of a time.. Sukhbir, Nisha and me had a so called "heart-to-heart" conversation.. hehehe.. We were talking about life.. generally.. and yeah relationships include..:)

And Sukhbir asked me.."why is ur blog so emo sometimes??" ...LOL.. I was like.."it is??" .. I mean..it seems normal to me.. but I guess it is.. sigh.. IT's so is!!.. It's not that I didn't know it is.. Just that..when someone else says it..they it hits you right on the FACE!! ..you'll finally get back to ur sense..and have the.."I got to do something" kinda feeling..

So yeah.. NO MORE EMO post.. and this time its for real!!.. really!!..lol and the next thing I'll be posting some real emo lovey dovey stuffs rite??..

Sigh..

Maybe what Adrian said is true..

Maybe girls are complicated..

Maybe I am complicated..

Maybe you are too..

Maybe we both don't wanna except the fact that we are complicated..

So it complicates things more..

Maybe..it's time we accept these complications..

To make each second count..

Because it is in times of complications..

Where we need each other..

Maybe these complications are meant to happen..

Or maybe they're not..

And that's when we come back to reality..

Where the living is worth it.. and the dreaming is complicated..

Welcome back to reality, Juan Margrita..=)

P/s I'm not really that complicated..you know.. lol..I do have fun sometimes..hehe..=)

and please don't hate the word "complicated and complications" after this post..

Have a nice day!!

What a foolish little girl..

"For every answered prayers..for always being there..for love that hears us when we call..for arms that lift us when we fall.."

What a foolish little girl..

Wishing upon a star..

Hoping it'll shine up her world..

What a foolish little girl..

Filling the empty spaces

With butterflies from heaven..

What a foolish little girl..

Wiping away her tears..

With petals of roses..

What a foolish little girl..

Hoping she had wings..

To fly far far away..

What a foolish little girl..

Hiding behind her smiles..

Hoping it doesn't fade..

What a foolish little girl..

Clinging to every word..

Knowing it doesnt make sense..

What a foolish little girl..

Already has everything she wants..

But asks for more..

What a foolish little girl..

Striving to be someone..

But she already is..

What a foolish little girl..

Who has a reason..

For everything she writes..

"For days we cannot see.. For all that's yet to be.. The trials we may have to face.. When we'll be leaning on your grace.. "

Good nite and god bless

Birthday wishes

First and foremost.. I would like to thank Sudha..for the gorgeous blouse she got me!!..weeeeeeeeeeeee!!.. HUGSSSS!!

Secondly, this post is seriously UNNECESSARY..and lame cause I know it aint gonna happen..but still just for my satisfaction..that someday a secret santa clause..will fly in..with all my wishes!! hehehhe..but wait.. santa clause is during christmas time rite??..errrr..nevermind.. its exceptional in my case..;p ;p

So here are the gifts which I know I'm not gonna receive it..but maybe someday.. I'll get it by myself..=D or...Mr Santa can help!! ;p ;p

• A DSLR camera..*badly need it now for my photography class*..
• A NEW PHONE!! ..*my now SONY ERICSSON KILLING ME!!*
• A badminton racket!!..*something light and has a strong tension*..hehe
• A new sports shoe!!..* preferably a badminton one also*..=)
• A purse.. hehe.. *been using it since I was 16!!*
• A new bag..for college.. *not too girly, not too manly either*..hehe
• My own new laptop perhaps.. so that my sister dont have to give me her "killer" look every time I'm using hers..;p ;p
• The whole collection of JUDITH MCNAUGHT series!!..=D
• hmmm what else... one more last thing.. how shall I put this.. perhaps I want "someone special" lol.. but please don't give me a frog..and expect me to kiss it.. hoping it will magically transform into a prince..;p ;p .. I mean I don't mind kissing the frog.. but I should be old enough to realize these stuff doesn't really exist!! .. haizz.. wait did I just say I DONT MIND KISSING A FROG??..eeehhwwww.. that's so gross..

Oh nooooo...!! ...I'm sorry.. I'm not myself now..lol

Anyway.. I shall leave my wishes upon the stars.. =)

Good nitez..

To be different..

"There is no life.. No life without its hunger.. Each restless heart, beat so imperfectly.. but then you came..and I am filled with wonder.. Sometimes I think I glimpse eternity.."

I'm back!!..=D ..ok not that I was gone for so long.. I'm back means..I'M BACK!! hehe.. you know.. I'm just back la.. lol.. ok I'm guessing you still don't get it.. I am in the mood of explaining.. but you're gonna think that it doesn't make any sense as usual.. and its just gonna waste my time.. when I have something important here to talk about..=)

Yesterday in Journalism class, we were asked to write about "Me, myself and I" ..I always hated that line.. because it's so SELFISH!! ..I mean no offence.. but the world does not revolve around you alone k.. =)..Anyway..as usual I started crapping on my paper.. till everyone around me was like.."are you planning to stop??" ...or.."you can make a book" ..lol.. I'm sorry, once I start I find it extremely hard to stop.. without a good conclusion.. And in my conclusion I wrote this..

"Lastly, I think the word is lacking a lot of love.. Lets reach out to others and start making a difference.. "

Then today, the headline in the Sun newspaper was "Bloodshed at sea" where the Israelis attacked a Turkish ship which was carrying aid to Gaza, killing 15 poeple!! I was speechless of cause.. Firstly, because its ISRAEL also known as the 'holy' land!! ..Secondly, you don't wanna help its ok.. but why stop others who wants to do so?? ..sigh..

Anyway yesterday my dear friend adrian, gave me one of his poem for me to read.. and wow, that dude can write la k!!.. he speaks of the world.. which is why I am inspired to do so as well.. let's see..how it goes..=)

To be different..

Is to love your neighbour

As you love yourself..

To love your enemy..

With all your heart..

Though they hurt you..

over and over again..

To be different..

Is having the courage..

To stand up for what you believe..

To say "NO" ..

when the rest say "yes" ..

To love them..

Even if they disagree

With your stand..

To be different..

Is to control yourself..

Anger may rage within you..

Hatred may possesed you..

But it can be toned down..

It can be destroyed..

when it is sealed with love..

To be different..

Is to wear forgiveness like a crown..

Even if they hold a knive against your throat..

Even if the take away your family..

For when one forgives..

He is washing away the poison from within..

He is healing..

To be different..

Is to remember..

that each and everyone is unique..

Judgemental..is a word

Where the world is famous for..

But it is also like a sword..

Piercing through each heart..

With every word..

It is wise to look at one self..

Before tearing another into pieces..

To be different..

Is to break the chains of

"Me, myself and I" ..

To make space for others..

Strangers who hunger for companion..

Children who thirst for love..

For that is where..

The beauty of life is..

To be different..

Is to throw away..

The word "hate" ..

and replacing it with "love" ..

For without love..

This world is nothing..

It is not easy to be different.. thats why we have "blooshed at sea"..as our headline for today.. It's not easy.. but it is possible..=) ..where there's a will..there's a way..

Spread the love people!!..
May God bless you all!!

p/s ..I told you I'M BACK!!..=D