Sometimes you wish.

Because sometimes, there aint no words that describes how you feel. ;(

Sometimes, you don't know why do the things you do..
Sometimes you don't know why you feel the things you feel..
Sometimes, you just can't seem to let go..
Sometimes, you wonder, why is it always me..
Sometimes, you wish someone actually cared..
Sometimes, you wish you weren't so fragile..
Sometimes, you wish you would have listened.
Sometimes, you wish you actually talked about it..
Sometimes, you wish they never took advantage of you.
Sometimes. you wish you weren't so foolish.
Sometimes, you wish God actually listened.
Sometimes, you wish your faith never faded.
Sometimes, you wish you were stronger..
Sometimes, you wish to be someone else..
Sometimes, you wish it is easier..

Sometimes, you wish for so many things..

And sometimes, you got to have faith that God knows best! ;)

The mechanic ;)

Hey ;) Yes it's been a while. ;)

So how do you do? Fine? No fine? Life's hard, or I don't give a damm about it? ..;p lol oh well, I;m alright.. just incase you were wondering.;) But I have been thinking about death lately. Yes the same death, where you no more breathe, where you are taken somewhere, God knows where. And here's the thing. It aint me who is dying. ;((

And that's the thing that scares me the most. sigh. What would your world be like, if someone close to you is taken too fast and that you wouldn't have the chance to see them again. To hold them and hear their laughter. To even think of it, brought me to tears. sigh.

Oh well, its just me and my imagination. My brain works in a way, that no one gets it. Its like you open a car, and there are bits and pieces of everything. Now unless you're a mechanic, or someone who knows a car in and out, then you would be like, "oh ceehh, small thing only! It can be fixed!!" ..;) 

Weird, I haven't really found any suitable mechanic who knows exactly what is wrong with me and is willing to fix it. Its either, they know what's wrong and that's why they leave. Or it could be they don't know what's wrong but is still trying their best..but they're getting no where. Or a mechanic who knows what's wrong but they're busy with other cars. The one true mechanic, is the one that never gives up, no matter how much nonsense you give him.

Lol, wow. did I just compare myself with a car and mechanic? Why can't I just stick with homo sapiens. err.. hehe I know why. Course its too easy. ;)

The thing about life. If its too easy, you'd be bored. But because its hard, you get to go on a roller coaster ride. You don't know whats happening next, or who you're gonna meet! ..I mean, like why watch a movie if you know what's gonna happen or how its gonna end, rite?

And these sentences give me the courage to get through the rides. ;)

What if Your blessings come through raindrops?
What if Your healing comes through tears?
What if a thousand sleepless night are what it takes to know you're near?
What if trials on this life are your mercies in disguise?


Hmm..
 Lord, it just occurred to me.
Could it be possible that you're my mechanic? ;))
I mean. it fits You.. perfectly. hmm.

Your will be done.

Ok what is this feeling? Like seriously, its like something just sucked up everything and left you.. "blueekk!" ..sigh.. and I have this sudden need for cold chocolate. And yes chocolate indulgence. Probably its the one that can ease this uneasy-ness with in.

And and and.. ;((( I tengah emo again. lol.. but its not anything.. its just that. sigh..

Dear Lord,
I do not know what plans you have for me..
But I surrender these feeling unto Your hands..
If its meant to be..then so be it..
At least for once, I would know what its like..
To love and be loved..
If its not..then so be it too..
Just give me strength and the will to let go
.
You do know, I dislike it when you do this to me.
I assure you, I'm strong enough.
Much stronger than I can ever imagine too..
And You, should know that already. ;(
Its just..the thought of going through it..
Again and again..
Aint that nice.
But then again,
Your will be done, not mine.


Amen!! ..


Ok now I feel much better! ..
I shall go rape the refrigerator for some chocolates! ;)

Changes.

Goodness gracious!!! ..its freeezziinngg in class C401 in UCSI! ..like literally! ..;(((  it's like you're trapped in a fridge with no food! ..   ;(( And all you can do is await the angel of the death to welcome your presence soon! ..sighhh

Like seriously, why do they have to make it soooo freaking cold! ..sigh. Thank God I brought my scarf. Or else I might loose a finger or my nose will just drop off any moment. ;(

anyway, I have about 40 minutes left. What shall we talk about? Something intelligent or should I bore you with my not-so-interesting life? ..;p

Hmm.. So yesterday was sad day. The committee got re-elected. All new faces, some old. I didn't feel anything till I was writing the names of all our old committee on the board. I'm so used to it, since I'm the secretary and know each one their spelling by heart! But it hit me like a "bang!". I was like, what if I can't get long with the new ones, what if they think I'm weird.. I mean I am weird, but the old committee didn't treat me different. Or what if I decide to jump off the building? LOL. ..ok that just came out. But I guess, at the end of it, if your heart is at the right place, if you are doing it for God, then nothing can possibly go wrong.

It didnt stop there. After that, glynn removed the old committee from being admins in FB. I felt it there again. It was like this kinda weird feeling, like something is so wrong somewhere. And you're afraid. Just so afraid. Probably because all this time, I've been the one that need help. Now that I have to help the rest, and you know sorta be like the senior, I don't know if I'm capable of that. ;(

And last night, while sending Helena away, I swear it was one of the best nights ever. I've never felt such joy, such friendship, such love, such laughter..and I know it aint replaceable. It was the perfect ending giving to a rainy day. Then it hit me. You cannot always get what you want. Sometimes you have to give way, for something else. For something that will surely make you a better and stronger a person. Because if such things never happened, you will always remain where you are from the beginning. Stagnant. Not moving forward. We need changes. Whether we like it or not, we need changes. And that is what makes life so interesting! .;)

Oh well, like Fred said, all good things must come to an end. But then it aint over. Like Glynn said, its beginning of friends. Hopefully forever.

Ok done emo-ing ;) lets talk about something interesting.

Err, my lecturer just walked in. ;)

Have I told you about him? I think's he's great. Not because he elected me as the class rep. But really, his style might be a bit boring and unorganized, but I think anyone who can make me laugh, is great. hmm, but then again, I laugh for everything. err. but he's great la..;)

Ok better stop, he started coughing already..;p

Erm, I have something else to say. But guess will have to save it later. Or maybe I won't even say it. Because sometimes there aint  no words that can truly reflect on what your inner being wants to say.

But then again,

Its better to say to much, than never to say what you need to say again.


Yes, I know. I way waaayy complicated for anyone to comprehend. ;(

You don't need a guy. ;)

Gosh.. this is so weird. Blogger.com changed their whole layout and I'm so extremely blurr on where in the world should I go to create a new post. Yes after clicking every possible link and button on the screen I finally ended up here! ..Alleluaia! ;)

 Speaking of changes.. You know, they always say, "People change."..Honestly, I don't think so. I think the situation changes. Hence, people change to adapt to it. But in truth, they are who they were deep down. Erm. Ok I think I'm already crapping. Will stop now.

 Anyway...I attended my first Saturday class today. I was lucky enough to get the car, hopefully every Saturday God will have mercy on me and let me use the car ;) And goodness gracious. IMA is ..like. sigh.. is probably the most difficult subject I'm ever going to do. Yes a lot more harder than MLE. Then again, I will be learning a lot too. ;D ..lol.. yes, you are actually, for once in your life time, witnessing Juan's eagerness is learning..;p hehhe.. but honestly, this is soo cool! ..We get to learn about video editing, audio editing, creating websites without codes, posting it to the network! ..and a lot more of other cool stuffs! ..How awesome is that?! ..;))))) And by the end of this year..woot woot.. I'd probably be no-more technology illiterate. ;)

 Ok, enough of studies. But not bad, I manage a paragraph without sulking..;p

 Anyway, I finally made myself say that I do not need a guy to complete my life. ;) Yes, I couldn't believe it either. So did my sister and Jacynta...these people know me in and out. Lol..I realize that there is never a point in my life where my mind and heart was totally free. Never a point where I was not in the chains of a guy. Never a point where I was happy cause I didn't have anyone permanent by my side. There is always someone. Though I was single in person, but not single inside. Everytime I meet Sam, I'll start off with, "Samm.. there's this guy.." ..lol. I don't know how many stories she's heard. Sigh. I can't help it. I fall easily. Very easily.

 So last night, while chatting with a friend of mine, I realize, goodness gracious.. how dumb I was before? ..I mean, I may appear dumber, but seriously, You know what it means to be a woman? To be a woman to walk down the road, with your head held high, wrapped in confidence, armed with courage, sealed with independence, showered with tenderness, glowing with sincerity, clothed with a smile, masked with your one true self and no matter what the world says, you keep that gorgeous smile and keep on moving forward. And God, your beautiful!! So amazing. You do not need a guy to tell you that. You obviously don't need a guy to make you feel like you can't find anyone else besides him, or make you feel unwanted or even unworthy. Nope you don't need a guy to complete you. ;)

 Of course, that doesn't mean you must not have a guy. Just please, don't feel down, if you don't have one. ;) I don't have one. I don't know if at all I will have one. But hey, it doesn't really matter.

 Cehh wahh.. I talk only.. next post I'd probably gonna start emo-ing. But well hopefully this last. The feeling is rather amazing. ;)

To EYC 2010/2011

So this is the long awaited  committee post..and because I promised my dearest Amanda tonight.. hence it will be tonight then ;)

So two years ago, I don't know how and why..but I got elected as the secretary for the English youth group.. But I tell you one thing, it was all God's plan ;) Genius isn't He? It was like pieces of jigsaw puzzle from all corners.. deliberately put together to complete the picture! ;) And you know what? They fitted each other perfectly.. so perfect that the picture created was irreplaceable ;)

So let's start with the first piece ;) Ok usually I'll put up pictures of each.. but I'm extremely tired! ..;( So hopefully the words are enough to paint the picture..

Alfred Netto ;)
So Alfred.. hmm.. alfred, I thought he was funny, at first. Truth is.. he is funny. lol..ok let's get serious. Alfred was somehow chosen to be my angel..;), every time we played the "angel and mortal" game. He's sort of the party starter. If he's not there, probably the whole event will be less quieter, funner and of cause..less meaner. ;p ..But seriously, I somehow envy the friendship he has with my sister. Its like Tom and Jerry. They fight but then they click very well too.  Alfred may look like a clown and he teases all the time.. but he's the kinda friend you wish you had..;)

Hmm.. ok who's next..err
Alvinn!! ;) Alvin Netto..
Hmm, I've been friends with Alvin for 2 years already. I remember that he specifically messaged me to ask aunty Helen..so that he would be placed in the same class with me while teaching catechism. hehe  ;) He is the photocopy of his brother. In looks only. But totally different inside. Its like day and night. Alvin is sort of mysterious, very mysterious.. like if you want to earn his trust.. it will take a very very long time ;).. One thing's for sure..he's an awesome friend! Very caring, very affectionate ;) He's the one person who never gotten mad at me so far....rerm Except the part where he hit my eyes with the shuttle and also made me run into the tyres while go-karting. lol.. other than that, you can trust him with his life.. and he will keep it safely for you ;)

Next piece.. is
Glynn wong! ;)
Honestly, I love saying her name.. you get to go like, "GLYYYYNNNN!!" .;) but please.. please don't ever mess with her. Or trust me.. she wouldn't mind ramming you over with the car..or put an axe on your throat! ..heheheh..kidding kidding! ..But take my advice la.. just dont mess with her k ;p..Ermm..as strict as she seems.. deep down she's this sweet girl who hides her feeling with her smile ;) I stalk her tumblr a lot. hehe.. thats how I found out..;p I admire her though. Because she's a 100 times stronger than she appears to be. She is studying the same uni with me..and the same course! ;) So once, she gave me a ride back home.. and I made sure I was there on time. Glynn marah means gone k! ..;p But yes, she's very responsible, very organized. Our Ah Long ;) None can replace you glynn! ;)

OH weeee!!
Christina Abigail!
Gosh.. I've known her for ages k.. I remember the first time I got close with here was in the bus to klang! ..Lol.. we just clicked instantly. As time goes by, we went out for dates..;p and lunches..and could talk for hours. This girl can charm you with her smile and giggles..and you can just melt over and over again! She never says no and her wake up calls are AWESOME! ....But trust me, I know the things she's been through. I know it all. Lately, she aint doing that great. I just want her to know that, sometimes things get rough. But remember, it doesnt rain forever..the sun will have to come up someday ;)

Moving on
Freddie Wee!! ;)
Goodness, have you heard him laugh? He and Amanda? ..its like 45% and another 45% percent..and all the rest are only 10% ..lol..oh wait..I forgot Tracy. lol..Anyway, hmm.. The thing about Freddie is that he doesn't wear a mask. If he doesn't like you..or he's angry wit you..trust me, you will know! ..That's one thing I admire.  And oh, if you are meeting him, please please go on time. He dislikes not being punctual. The whole committee always kena because of this. And oh, he is also in the music ministry. One hell of a talented guy.. Would be a great help in the choir. But oh well, God has greater plan for in with flowers! ;) hehe..and  Back to his laugh. I tell you, I'm sure about 90% that the laugh was transferred from Freddie and Amanda to me k. That's why my laugh is becoming weirder day by day..;p

Since, I mentioned about Amanda..
Let's move on to Miss Amanda Quah!! ..*the crowd goes weeeeee* ..;p
Hheehehe. So manda..hm where shall i start? Her laughter? Her randomness? Her dumb blonde moments? Her prone-to-accidents? Her musical soul? or the Amanda whos an addict to One Three Hill? Lol.. trust me, I can go on and on with her. She's like Doraemon. LOL..dont know why..but I know she prefers sponge bob.. but why Doraemon.. its cause she may appear to be simple, smiley face, serene and calm. But trust me, there is a lot of interesting stuffs inside her, that you just cant missed. And that is what makes Amanda, Amanda ;)) She never fails to brighten my day..everything I look at her. just with her smile.. she quietly says, "There's hope..there's always hope!" ...You're missing out something AWESOME! ..if you didnt meet Amanda Quah Yu-LI! ;)

Next is..
SHAAAAUUNNNNNNN! ..lol.. yes SHAAAUUNN LIM!! ;)
Gosh, he is like a little brother I've always wanted. ..;p but then of cause, he always appear to be more adult-ly behaved..unlike me.. who runs around like a 5 year old craving for ice-cream. Lol..but seriously, there;s something about Shaun that makes me go, "SHHHAAAUUNN!!" ..its weird I know. Its not the same effect glynn..lol.. but different. I have to admit..I don't really know shaun..as in never really spoken with him eye to eye and ear to ear. But I think I can tell, he's a good guy. And yes, I have a very bad judgement on guys.. but this I can tell you honestly, he's not the type who goes around breaking girls heart. and oh ... he plays guitar! ;)) nothing else beats a guy who plays guitar! ..hehehe..

Next is Pamela Ann! ;)
Hmm.. Honestly, I don't click with many. Like I said, my personality is such, that I;m more introverted. Very shy in a big crowd or to someone I hardly know. But somehow Pam and me, are different. My sister and Pam could go on ages talking and talking non-stop. like NON-STOP! ..and then I found out why. Once Pam and me went for a drink after morning mass. and wow! ..like just wow k! ..We just clicked! Talk and talk for hours. Family, relationships.. everything! ..So I don't blame my sis k/ Pam is like a magnet. You try talking to her and you will know how I feel ;)

And oh vivi!! ..lol.. like Alfred called, VIVI! ;)
Ducky ;) lol.. I didnt realize it at first, but my sis somehow planted it in my mind. Vivian's a replica of a duck! ..lol.. sorry vivi. Anyway, vivian has the same effect on me..like Pam had. ;) She will go like "JUUAUAAANNN!" ..lol. I remember her voice and her pitch ;) .. We use to play badminton.. and thats how i got closer to vivian. Gosh, she loves to read! ..And so do I!! ..ehehhee.. we made a good team in taking care of the CCC's! ..weeee!! vivian!

Next is Helena!
Hmm.. helena.. She's leaving us in a few days time. siggghh. I've known her for ages. like AGES! school, catechism. I like her most for one reason. Her height of cause. lol..cause you feel like there's an angel..always watching over you kinda thing. But honestly I like her, because she respects other people secrets. You can trust her with yours..and she wouldn't breathe a word. I was like, "wow!" ..its glad to know, this kinda friend still exist. I'm gonna miss her..that she will not bumping into me in KTM already. Sigh,..but oh well, I know she'll do well, where she is. She can survive, not just because she's tall..hehe.. but because she never gives up ;)

Tracccyyy! ;)
Hmmm.. I've never had a real conversation with tracy will like last week. Where everyone ditched us all alone in the car. LOL..;p ;p ..I admire her. For her independence. If I was at her age, with these responsibilities.. sigh.. I would be double crazier than I am now. But she's not. She's a working woman, and a lawyer too be! ..;)) I learnt a lot from her. That when the storm hits, you got to keep on going. That's life ;)

And Lastly, Anne Michelle
Hmm, I don't know her that well, but I remember talking to her endlessly in the car, while going for Sky trek! ..I know her ahemm-ahemm Jeremy. Since, he's there, so I get to see her too! ..The first time I saw her I was like "Annneee!" ..and I hugged her. It was like finding a missing family member. Irreplaceable. ;)

I'm forgetting someone.. lol yes..its Christine Maryanna..;)
Err... she's erm.. she is my sister. I got nothing else to say. Okthxbye! sigh. lol. ok ok.. fine. Erm. Honestly, if you were to ask me, "who's my role model?" ..It is my sister..;) Because I'd don't know what I'd do without her. Somehow, she makes everything seem so easy, so happy, so her. ;) And I'm sure you all are aware of me and my emo-ness. She has been there through it all. She saw me crying like I never had before and the best thing is.. she didn't say anything. She just hugged me. It was more than enough. As much as she is annoying.. and I'm sure you have received random messages from me saying "I love Barney" or "I'm stupid" ..Its all her. Nevertheless, I'm not saying this because she is my sister, but because I think she is partly why we committee are so strong together. Trima Kasih.

Now that I am done, just one thing left.

Dear Lord, please bless all those I've mentioned above. Then mean a lot too me. They are one of the reason, that I am who I am today. Guide them in everything they do and lead them in Your way. May they always remember that it is Your will be done, now and forever. Let them also never forget that You will always be there through it all! ..


Please bless the new and upcoming committee. Show them your way in building your kingdom. Make they work for Your glory and only your glory. Amen
Pheewww.. that was a long post;)
Nite everyone!

So-called 50 truths! ;)

Hey there.. errr.. no I'm not really in a mood to blog.. but I found this tags in one of the blogs I visited. So lets get off my mind together-gether k? ;)

Are you ready to answer these questions honestly even if it starts to get hard? 

~Oh year baby! ..Bring it on! ;D

You never know what you got until you lose it? True or false? 

~I doubt you will ever find a person who disagrees with that.. so yeah.. true.

Wallpaper on your phone? 

~Roses! ..Everytime I look at them.. they kinda give me hope ;)

What is the last thing you drank today? 

~Water!! ..the best drink on earth! ;)

Where would I have found you last night at 11pm? 

~That's easy, was at Alfred's, watching "Sleepers"..damm good movie.. and eating honey stars! ;)

Who was the last person to say 'love you' to you? 

~Maureen Alma! ..The sweetest human on earth! ;))

Do you care what people think of you? 

~As much as I would love to disagree.. but yes, sometimes it does bothers me ;(

Do you dislike anyone at this moment in time? 

~I try my best to see the good in everyone. Hating/disliking is not very healthy you know. ;(

Any up coming events you're excited about? 

~Erm. So far nothing to look forward too! ;(

What's your plans for next friday? 

~Friday friday. Erm oh weeeee!! no class! ;)) I'm free for dates.. anyone interested? ..;p

Ever liked someone who was married? 

~Lol, nnaahhh... not my type. ;)

Have you ever eaten a live fish? 

~Wooowwww... I salute those who do. And nope, I dont. Wouldnt love to try it either. ;p

Who is your last text from and what does it say?

~From James.. asking where did we go for car-racing? ..sigh. some people never give up!

Are you texting anybody? 

~Nope. Not in the mood also ;(

Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to? 

~I use too.. but then I ruined it by falling for him ;(

Was it a boy or a girl to text you first today?

~It was my mom! ;)) saying Father Peter will be coming over today, and that we have to be in our best behaviors! ..lol

Who was the last person you talked to on the phone & what did you talk about? 

~The last call was actually a miss call from an unknown number. Oh well, on second thought, the last person was Shin Wen. I was asking her about UCSI's scholarship! ;)

Do you curse in front of your parents? 

~err.. nope. They'd probably disowned me! ;(

Who pissed you off yesterday? 

~Yesterday. erm.. I forgot what happen yesterday. ;( Yes Im sad, just like that.

Does anyone hate you?

~I don't know. Does anyone out there hate me? ..Oh well, its mind over matter. I don't mind and you dont matter! ;)

Who was the last person that could tell something was wrong with you? 

~No one noticed. I'm pretty good in hiding! :)

Ever cheated on someone who was cheating on you? 

~I'm not in for games. 

Have you ever felt replaced? 

~Yeap. Most of the time. sigh..

Are you open about your feelings or closed off? 

~Errr.. I think I tend to wear my heart on my sleeves.. if I want the feelings to be out. But if its too painful, I'll just carry it myself ;)

Think a lot before you fall asleep?

~Who doesnt? ;(

What were you doing at 4am? 

~Sleeping ady! ..Had to get up early the next day. 

Are you a jealous person? 

~Yeap. But then I realized its rather immature. So I wash it away. 

Do you like to sleep?

~Used too. Now I'm just..oh well.. too afraid I guess.

How many tattoos do you have?

~Tak ada yo! ..;)

How many piercings do you have? 

~One on each ear. Tried more, but they closed! ..;(

Last movie you saw in theaters? 

~Cars 2! ..Erm.. it was oookkaaayy!

What are you doing right now? 

~This, tweet, FB ;) lifeless.. i know ;(

Do you wish you were somewhere else right now? 

~Erm. I honestly dont know what I want. ;(

What did you do yesterday? 

~Church, meeting, lunch, nap, movie, online sleep.

What are your favorite colour(s)? 

~Purple, black, pink.. yes I think I'm starting to like pink ;)

How tall are you? 

~You dont wanna know. Even I dont wanna know. I think I'm growing shorter day by day.

Are you happy right now? 

~Trying too ;(

Are you ever paranoid when someone doesn't message you back for a while? 

~That depends on who.

Why aren't you dating the last person who you texted? 

~Errrr... that question is not legal la k! .. nonsense!

Do you honestly have feelings for someone at the moment? 

~Errr.. I wish I didn't. But I happen to be human. So I cant help it. 

Is there anything upsetting you? 

~Yeap, like hello.. there are like over a zillion girls in planet earth. Why in the world was I chosen?!

Do you sing in the car? 

~How not too??

Do you wear shoes in your house or take them off?

~Off la.. Malaysian eh! ;)

When you watch movies at home, do you like the lights on or off? 

~OFFFF!! ..awesome! ;))

What do you do when something's wrong? 

~OMG!!! how now?! ..;( ..*yeap the drama starts* ..;p

What did you even do today? 

~Erm. Classes. thats it.

Whαt ruined your dαy todαy? 

~LOL! ..errr.. its a little complicated. Or not. I just dont wanna say it! ..;(

Whαt do you heαr αt this moment? 

~Air-cond and speakers!

Reαdy for winter to come? 

~Yeap, been ready forever. but I dont think its coming anything soon or forever.

What αre you weαring right now? 

~Pj's! ;)

Have you ever liked someone you didn't expect to? 

~Yeaaahh!

Are you missing someone right now? 

~I wish I didnt.

Hαve you cried this week αt αll? 

~Just..

Are there some songs you cαn't listen to becαuse they remind you of someone? 

~Its not that i cant listen too. Infact I listen to it again and again.

Whαt αre you doing tonight? 

~Sleep. Hoping not to dream.

Wαnt someone bαck in your life? 

~Nope. If its fated, then so be it. There's always a reason.

Hαs αnyone disαppointed/upset you recently?

~Yup yup!

Hαs αnyone put their αrms αround you in the pαst 5 days? 

~Yesssshh! ..So many! ;))))))

Where were you αt 7:17 PM lαst night?  

~Trying to upload the youth video with my sis.

Hαve you ever kissed someone that was just α friend? 

~Yup! ;)

If you found out your friend wαs smoking weed, would you be disappointed? 

~Yes, very very very!

Do you look people in the eye when you tαlk to them? 

~Not if I tend to get lost in their eyes..

Do you get drunk every weekend? 

~Err.. nope! hardly. ;)

Is the last person you texted attractive? 

~Hahahaahaha.. I think everyone is attractive in their own way ;)

What are you most excited for right now?

~err.. honestly nothing.

Do you ever keep arguing when you know you're wrong? 

~All the time. Daammm ego maaann! ;(

How did you get your last bruise? 

~GO-KART!

What is the latest you've stayed up in the past week? 

~erm.. up till 5.30am! ;)

Last time you went swimming? 

~Like ages ago! ...not into swimming though.

Have you kissed someone who smokes weed? 

~Thank God, no!

Do you listen to your friends when they tell you a boy or girl is bad for you?

~Yes, but I have my own opinion as well ;)

Do you like lightning? 

~No, they make everything seem so scary.

How many people do you know of name Adam? 

~errm.. none that I know off..

Is your current hair colour mostly your natural hair colour? 

~Yup it is! ..All the redness faded. Now its charcoal black!

What’s on your bedroom floor right now? 

~The floor mat. err.. my mom doesnt like things on the floor hehe..

Would you rather be mad or sad? 

~Why would you ask such question? lol.. mad i guess.

Are your parents strict? 

~Ok ok la.. pretty balanced ;)

What’s something that someone can do that really bothers you? 

~Erm. Fakeness! 

Did you ever want to change your name when you were younger? 

~HAHAHA.. all the time. have you seen my name? But once I found out it carries the meaning of "God's gracious pearl.." ..I loved it! ;)

What are you freakishly obsessed with? 

~Errr.. food? ..lol

Are you named after a family member? 

~Nope..its original. bet you cant find anyone with my name. ;)

Last restaurant you went to? 

~YIP SHENG! ..love chinese! :)

What does your phone do when it receives a new text? 

~err..the message tone? ..like seriously? you're asking this? lol

Who is the next person you will kiss? 

~I don;t know.. it just happens.

Have you ever passed out on the bathroom floor? 

~I dont think i have ever passed out! hehe

Ever kissed in the rain?  

~sadly no!

This time last year, can you remember who you liked? 

~Yes. very well.

Does anybody have a tattoo with your name on it? 

~Lol..I doubt..

Where will you be 2 hours from now? 

~Asslleeeppp!!

Do you want things to change right now? 

~Yes. so badly!

Do you laugh? 

~so much..that they say my laugh is getting weirder day by day.

Does your latest ex piss you off? 

~Nope, not anymore ;)

Is your life the same as it was a year ago? 

~Oh crap. You just reminded me. Yes it is the same.

Who's in the room with you? 

~The sister and the cousin.

If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you? 

~err.. that they like me and stop messing around?

Have you kissed the same person more than 20 times in 2010? 

~Bernadette!

Were you happy last October? 

~Nope. not happy. I remember very well.

Was '09 a good year for you? 

~Definitely not. Gosh. I'm a sad child.

Who was your first text message from for the new year? 

~wth.. who remembers?

Do you look decent when you wake up? 

~Erm.. is sexy decent? ..;p

If there were no letters on the keys on your keyboard could you still type? 

~lol.. i dont know.. weird questions.

Does the feeling of christmas time make you happy? 

~YESSSHHH!

Do you wear more t-shirts or dressy shirts? 

~errm.. a balance of both i think.

Ever kissed someone whose name starts with a 'T'? 

~err.. nope.

Does it matter if your bf/gf smokes? 

~It kinda does.

Have you ever had your heart broken? 

~What you think? ;)

Do you have any weird inside jokes? 

~More like lame ones. ;)

When was the last time you wanted to punch someone in the face? 

~Err.. I punched my sis once. The feeling never returned since then.

Have you ever had an Oreo with peanut butter?

~They have that? ..awwwhh would love to try! :)

Your ex calls you to tell you they hate you, what would you say? 

~God bless you always! ;)

Would you rather kiss the last person you kissed or the second last? ....

~HUH?

Have you ever kissed someone with braces?

~errr..nope.

Should gay couples be allowed to adopt? 

~erm. I havent really thought about that.

Should they be allowed to marry? 

~Or this too.

Do you want to get married? 

~Someday.

Do you eat breakfast daily? 

~Sometimes.

How old do you think you'll be when you have kids? 

~Err.. early 30's or late 20's? ;)

Have you ever liked someone older than you? 

~Yeapp ;)

Can you honestly say that things are running smoothly for you? 

~hahaha..naahh.. but if you ask me to write it out, i can! ;)

Can you sleep without blankets covering you? 

~Can't.. I feel naked .;p

Where's the last place you went besides your house? 

~UCSI University.

Are your eyes the same colour as your dad's? 

~Nope..mine is  dark brown. his is sligthly grey-ish

Do you have to sleep with a television on? 

~Nope..jimat electricity k!

What were you doing 12AM last night? 

~On the way back home.

Has anyone ever sang to you? 

~erm.. not really.. but my date played the guitar for me on stage! ..;)))

Does it make you mad when people stare at you? 

~Err..not really.. why waste energy? Just enjoy the attention ;)

Have you ever had a really big fight with a best friend? 

~Yess.. regretted every second of it.

Do you wear your hood on your hoodie? 

~Err..i wear a hood. whats a hood on your hoodie? ..weird.

Are you the youngest person living in your house? 

~I used to be. Then my cousins arrived.. I got replaced ;)

Gummy bears or gummy worms? 

~Gummy bears!!! ;))

Is there someone who meant a lot to you at one point, and isn't around now? 

~Yesh. ;((

Has anyone ever told you that they wanted to be with you forever? 

~Yes. it was magical. but then they took it back..and im back to square one.

Would you rather get rid of autumn or spring? 

~Errr.. I kinda have something for autumn. I dont know why. But I wouldnt get rid of any.. ;)

OMG! ..I don't know why I started this. I'm just glad its over. I salute, if you finish reading it till the end. And please dont mind my emo-ness. It happens. Just give me some time. I'll be back to rock your world!

P/S Freddie and Amanda.. please be patient for the committee post ya.. I have to be in the right state of mind! :) heheh