hear me from above

"can you feel this magic in the air.. It must have been the way you kissed me" ..

Good evening everyone!!..=)..been away quite a while..hehe.. chill chill ..this is no more FODD POISONING!!..was just very very extremely BUSY!!..

On friday..(26/2/2010)
hehehe... I officially feel like I broke my hips and dislocated my arm!..hehe.. thanks to SPORTS AWAKENING!!..which was pure F.U.N... and worth it!! I know I burnt quite a lot of calories.... but after that I felt like I got circumsized..lol..

and here's what happened on Saturday (27/2/2010)..
hmm... I had class at 9..surprisingly, I was an hour early..while waiting for Saha.. I'm kinda lazy to hand in the details..so please let me just say the important part k..lol. I went online of course.. because when it comes to online-ing every moment is precious..though you dont really have anything to do..you just want to linger on..so anyway.. saha said he would come at 8am..Closed the coumputer and said my prayers..then I got bored waiting and started banging the piano...lol..

I started with C7 chord..then moved the G7.. went back to C7..and then finally D7!!..and the next thing I knew.. I was repeating the same thing.. the tune was stuck in my head.. and from there I merge to another tune..and tried combining it.. words then started pouring out.. to match the tune.. it's solemn..very solemn.. but I like it..and WEEEEEEEEEEEE!!..here's to my first COMPOSED SONG EVEr!!..

Hear me from above..by me!!

VERSE 1

Empty on the street..
I am here alone..
On the edge of giving up..
Lord, I pray..

Hearts all open wide..
Hands I lift to you..
Tears down on my cheek..
I raise my voice to you..

CHORUS
Lord, hear me from above..
This child of yours now speak..
Hoping I would find a way..
Lord, the rain keeps pouring down..
The storm is far too strong..
I need You in my life..

So hear me from above..

So far I only came up with 1 verse and a chorus.. not completed yet.. but someday la.. I'll find a pianist and a singer..and I have my own song!!..hheheehe

anyway..I went for futsal today...hehe..AN ACTUAL COMPETITION!!.. it was for some charity thing.. and they needed 2 girls on the court..so yeah..was in the same team with lukesh, joe, devan, justin and dilip..so with my dislocated hips..I actually manage to kick some ball!!..lol!!.. and gosh...I cuti mata giler-giler!!.. everywhere I turn sure there's a hawttt dude!!...like the ones that gives you weak knees..and makes you 'drool!!!" ...even my opponents.. goodness.. thank God I didnt do anything embarrassing on the court.. I would have migrated then.. but seriously I tell you.. If you need a girl on a futsal team..I'M ON BABY!!.. ehehehe..who knows la.. I might bump into someone.. well LOVE HAPPENS WHEH YOU LEAST EXPECT IT!!..lol..

guess that's it..=) take care..and God bless..

Vaarnam Aayiram

"Ival yaaro yaaro theriyathae.. Ival pinaal, nenjai povathae.. Ithu poiyoo meiyo theriyathae.. Ival pinaal, nenjai povathae.."

Translation:

"I don't know who she is.. My heart, don't go after her.. Is this true or a lie, I don't know.. My heart, don't go after her.."

Yes..Juan Margrita Gabriel Thomas..with the weirdest name..is a FULL BLOODED NORMAL INDIAN!!..not MALYALEE..or TELUGU..err..actually 1/4 malyalee la.. lol.. but yeah.. I'm indian.. and I can speak tamil.. not that good.. but just enough to get a message across..=)..

In all my life.. I've found tamil movies ridiculous, unreal, full of dramas..but still I love watching them..some are really touching..really funny..and really stupid..and the best movie so far..which is very real..very touching.. very unexpected.. is VAARNAM AAYIRAM!!.. Somehow I manage relate to it very easily whenI watched it on 22nd May last year.. hehe.. I remember the date very well.. wanna know why??..click here.. =)

The songs are awesome!!.. all the song..especially this one song.."Nenjukkul Peidhidum"..extremely.. firstly, I liked the tune.. but you know I only speak 'bahasa pasar' tamil..hehe..hence, I dont understand what the song is about..but pretty obvious it's about love.. then today, suddenly the song was in my head..and so I begged KABI.. hehe.. he's a friend from UCSI.. to sing it for me.. and wow!!..I also liked the ANJELE song.. but this is way way more cooler..and meaninful..haiz..

Therefore I officially pronounce that VAARNAM AAYIRUM is the best tamil movie I've watched so far..and the song..is the best tamil song ever!!..check out the lyrics in English..and you;ll know why..

And I just watched a particular clip from you-tube.. where Suria first meet girl..and wow!!.. I miss that feeling..

Yes..the butterflies in stomach.. the magnetic stare..that makes you lost in those eyes.. the part where your heart is about to come out..the moment he passes by.. awwwhh.. it's just like school days.."When your fifteen, somebody tells you they love you... you gotta believe them!!"..

But I'm not fifteen anymore!! =( and no.. it's not really that exciting these days..I cant act like a LOVE STRUCK DUMB TEEN..sigh..and seriously I find no guy interesting.. OK OK..except for that one guy la..he was unexceptionally tooo cute for me to resist!!..XD..at least this sentence makes me normal again..hehe

hehe..alrite..I gtg!!..

and lastly..

"Yen jeevan jeevan neethaney..Yena thondrum neram idhuthane..Nee illai illai yendrale..Yen nenjam nenjam thaangadhey"

Translation:

"You are my life..i feel it at this very moment..if you're not there..i cant bear it at all.."

some wise sayings

"Please forgive me..I know now what I'd do.. please forgive me..I can't stop loving you.."

Relived.. very relieved.. the 2 of the biggest HEART ATTACK..I've completed.. another 4 more left..MID TERM..for all 4 subjects.. sigh..

Anyway..I'm not in a mood to blog today..but I saw this somewhere and found it rather interesting..=)

1. It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return.. But what is more painful is to love someone and never find the courage to let that person know how you feel..

2. A sad thing in life is when you meet someone who means a lot to you,..only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and you just have to let go..

3. The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch swing with..never say a word, and then walk away..feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had.

4. It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it..but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing.. until it arrives..

5. It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone..an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone..but.. it takes a lifetime to forget someone...

6. Don't go for looks, they can deceive.. Don't go for wealth..even that fades away.. Go for someone who makes you smile.. because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright..

7. Dream what you want to dream.. go where you want to go, be what you want to be.. Because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you want to do..

8. Always put yourself in the other's shoes. If you feel that it hurts you, it probably hurts the person too..

9. A careless word may kindle strife.. A cruel word may wreck a life.. A timely word may level stress.. But a loving word may heal and bless..

10. The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything.. they just make the most of everything that comes along their way...

11. Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss, ends with a tear.

12. When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling.. Live your life so that when you die, you're the one smiling and everyone around you is crying..

Lastly, from me..

You may have everything you want in this world..but if you do not have love in your heart.. that everything means nothing..

Good night!!..=)

the rain

A big round of applause...to meeeee!!!...because my so-called quiz was like..I dont know..so very the EASY!!..lol.. I admit..whatever I read barely entered..and yet she SCORED!!.. if only she studied..sigh..could have gotten full marks..hehe...

I realize something else as well.. that..PEN AND PAPER..is the best weapon anyone can EVER have!!..I email-ed my lecturer that day..saying she was unfair and all..and guess what??..weeeeee.. she was actually very linean with the marks today!!..wooohhooo!!..lol..YAY MEE!!..

I'm cheering a lot huh??..lol.. by the end of this post.. I wont la..hehe..
Lets find out why..XD

Class ended at 5pm today..and so was Saha's class.. of course..FREE RIDE back home.. who could resist??.. So while walking to his bike..here's what happen..

Saha: Juan..I need to go to Chu Siens house today..can??
Juan:...can can..but where's his house??
Saha: SS2!!..
Juan:..I'm going all the way there..on the bike??weeeee!!..
Saha: errr...

I don't know wassup with me and bikes.. I always had this wild fantasy.. to ride on a HARLEY DAVIDSON!!.. with my knee high boots..black leather jacket.. red long hair blowing through the wind.. I prefer red instead of brown..its more erm..fiery and wild..hehe ..of course.. with that hawttt..hunky biker dude..*droolss*..LOL.. we ride on that bike.. down by the country side.. like in MCLEOD'S DAUGHTER!!...its one of my favorite series..while I was at home..lifeless..=p

wait wait..you know whats more fascinating than a HARLEY DAVIDSON??!!..A HORSE!!..yes.. I find this animal rather HANDSOME!!..not because I was born on the HORSE year.. but yes.. you can see something in their eyes.. like they can connect to you.. and mcleod's daughters are all about horses.. white..brown.. black.. White horses..for me are too good to be true..course they're soo daymm beautiful.. so angelic..so pure.. still..its the brown one that catches my attention.. its so real..so serene.. so very mysterious.. like it has a lot on its mind.. but not everyone can read it....=)

Sorry sorry..I just love horses..though I'm literally AFRAID of all animals.. but horses are amazing..and someday..I'll ride one..like a real..cowgirl!!..=)

Anyway..lets get back to our bike story..and how worthwhile it was..LOL..
On our way back home..while I was enjoying the view.. suddenly the sky darkened..and lightning struck!!..I was like.."OH-OH" ..slowly I started praying.."Lord, please dont it rain..please dont let it rain.." ...and of cause.. at that exact moment..I felt a drop of water on my skin.. I looked up..knowing HE was having the best moment..and I said.."You just had to rite, Lord".. and DUSHHHHHHHHH!!..i got my answer...

So there was I.. on the day I forgot about my SWEATER..and wore my pumps instead of flats..lol..the rain was heavier than the usual.. it hit me like NEEDLES.. pricking my very skin..and how I wished..humans were made of plastic or metal or glass..anything but FLESH!!..lol..trust me..it was awful.. soooo hurting..hehe..on top of that..I WAS BELOW ZERO DEGREES!!.. hehe..not really la..but close..was shivering like nobody's business..and I suddenly remembered.. "SHIT!..MY ASSIGNMENT!!" ...inside my bag.. I scolded my self.."why didnt i get that WATER-RESISTANT bag instead??.." ..sigh..

Then I started praying again.."Lord please stop the rain..please stop the rain..or at least please protect my assignment.." ..and nope.. nothing happen..the rain came down..without doubt!!

And I begin to realize something...

That's how life works.. Someday, you'll be enjoying that nice ride..but what happens when the rain falls??.. No..you cant stop.. its not in your hands.. whats in your hands.. is to learn to deal with the consequences.. you choose the bike.. you take the risk.. rain or not.. learn to love it..=)

and for once..I actually heard a voice in my head..when I asked.."Why now??..why me??".. and the voice said.."because you asked for it doink!!"....LOL.. yes we did.. remember.. THE WEATHER ITS TOO HOT!!.. I smiled then..course I remember them saying...."God never answered my prayers!!" .

He does..in His own time..=)

A wise person once said.."While waiting for the storm to pass..learn to dance in the rain.."

I realize

ahem..ahem..=)

So we meet again..today..LOL.. oh come on..don't show me that look... I wish i had something interesting to say too..haiz..hehe

I have this friend..actually she's my godsis's cousin..we're not really biologically related..but you should check out her blog.. I'll always end up laughing like crazy!!...though I wasnt physically present in that situation..but I could feel everything she writes..lol...click here !!..

Anyway..I'm just being me k.. YES ME!!..the one WHO knows she has a quiz tomorrow.. or perhaps..an assignment due..but still..the fingers are damm itchy!!.. just have to be FB, MSN.. and since I tried all 2...the last one..my fav..BLOGGING!!..should have a taste of that too huh??..

I dont know..when am I gonna learn my lesson.. and I dont know how many times I said this.. and still here I am..saying it all over again..be prepared for more la..I'm very very sure..lol..

Hmm what else.. ok

I realize..I cant keep long fingernails..*shame on you woman!!* ..lol..I tend to peel it of.. when I have nothing to do..

I realize..I cant keep my attention for more than 5 minutes on a paragraph!!

I realize.. I smile a little too much..when I'm extremely shy..

I realize..I smile when I dont know what to say..

I realize I smile even wider..when I say the wrong things...

I realize..that pregnant mothers are the most beautiful women EVER!!..

I realize..I only play the piano..when I;m sad..or in the mood..

I realize..I prefer the piano..compared to my guitar..

I realize..I dont really indulge in conversation with many..so if you had mine.. your lucky!!..=p

I realize..that if you have something to say..SAY IT!!..dont be like me..=p

I realize..that though I sit here..crapping nonsense.. I can be of good use too.. like I just filled you boring time..with mine!!..=D

I realize..that when I hold a baby.. I am holding a life.. a gift.. a treasure..

I realize.. that I should stop this immediately!!..or else.. I got no more words for me..lol

Good nite!!

sunday morning

Bright sunny morning...
But my world stayed as gloomy as ever..
Till I found these words by St Ignatius of Loyola..

Day by day..I ask of three things dear Lord..
To see thee more clearly..
To love thee more dearly..
To follow thee more nearly..

Take, Lord, and receive all my liberty,
my memory, my understanding
and my entire will,
All I have and call my own.

You have given all to me.
To you, Lord, I return it.

Everything is yours; do with it what you will.
Give me only your love and your grace.
That is enough for me.

Amen!!

p/s



Hence...



have a nice day!!

food poisoning

I've been away quite a while huh??...hehe..

2 words FOOD POISONING!!..

though I cant remember what I ate that can bring me to this stage..and trust me..even if you were to give me a million bucks..NO WAY!!..I won't go through it again.. even the thought of it is terrifying.. esp the vomiting part..its like your pumping out your whole soul out of your body.. and when its over you'll be like.."wow I'm alive!!" ..and then the whole process starts all over again..after half an hour..the more you control the more severe it gets.. whenever you sit..or stand or walk..your stomach communicates with your brain.."should we let it out now??" ..hence the best solution is to sleep..and forget all this nonsense..I have got no idea how the anorexic patient enjoy doing it..because its so...erm inhumane..lol..

So thats what I've been doing for the past couple of days.. on the bed..either sleeping.. or trying not to vomit.. hated the sight, smell..even the word 'FOOD'..it made me loose my nerve.. even now..sigh.. Every food that I swallow..tasted like bits of paper.. eehhwww.. tasteless and worthless..

While I was in my chamber.. with my PC next to my bed..but unable to even get my hands on the keyboard.. *i was that weak*..lol..and my friends out there..having the day of their life.. movie and outings.. i cant even get my hands on my piled up assignments.. this particular word kept on running on my mind all day..

F.A.T.E or in Malay known as T.A.K.D.I.R

Do you believe in it..?? that it happened because it was meant to be.. not a coincidence.. but it happened for a reason..

There is a reason..why you didn't turn up to work or college today..
There is a reason..why you missed the train..or the bus..or got stuck in the traffic jam..
There is a reason..why you made the wrong decision in choosing the right course for your future..
There is a reason..why you met an old friend today..
There is a reason..why the people from your past didnt make it to your future..
There is a reason..why some did too...even after so many obstacles..
There is a reason..why it wasnt then..or before..and why is it now??

At that particular moment..it wont make sense.. like.."why is this all happening to me??" ..well someday..you'll get your answer..

If its meant to be..it'll always find a way..=)

Like now..I couldn't think of any reason..why in the world did my food poisoning occured now.. but it would have been worse..if it happen when I had classes rite??... and today my aunt came down and she asked.."how much weight did you loose??" ..
Trust me..those words were even sweeter than the sweetest honey ever..lol.. its been ages since anyone told me that la.. not really a healthy way to loose weight..though..lol

Anyway..guess thats it!!

take care..and god bless..

p/s God says YES..and He gives you what you want..
God says NO.. and He gives you something better..
He says WAIT!!..and He gives you the BEST!!