when two different world collides

"What do I have..If I don't have you Jesus.. what in this life..could mean anymore.. You are my rock..you are my glory.. you are the lifter of my head.."

For like the 100th million time.. the name is pronounced as JUAN..as in JU-ANNE!! ..lol.. and I'm so through with correcting people on how to pronounce my name..so whenever aunty Dolly calls me JUAN in Spanish in front of everyone AGAIN.. I'll just smile and say.."yes aunty".. and did I tell you before my semester ended my lecturer.. I was arguing with me on HOW to pronounce MY NAME!! ..hhehehe.. I don't blame him though..my name is weird.. hmm..

Anyway I'm having that weird feeling again.. and please allow me to be a child just this once.. because I DONT WANT TO GO BACK TO COLLEGE!!..sobs..sobs!!.. NOOO!! I DONT WANT!!..I DONT WANT!!..*sobs even lauder!!* ..really.. HELP ME!!..ANYONE??..

sigh..Now that I've back being 20.. why does the holidays have to come to an end sooo fast??..I barely remembered what happen in the last four days.. it was like a dream.. too fast.. and I think I just woke up.. sigh.. and reality can be the worst nightmare sometimes..=(

Its another boring 14 weeks.. assignments.. presentations.. exams.. quizzes.. mid terms.. and KTM.. gosh.. did I just say KTM??!! ..great!!.. now its a bit interesting.. because they have separate coaches for GUYS and GIRLS!!... but why??!!..I mean who knows I might be meeting "THE ONE" in KTM itself.. can't say rite..lol and now they just blew my chance!!.. grrr.. hehehehehe...

It's a circle you know.. the same old thing everyday.. every semester.. I need some spice..currently the status is TASTELESS!! ...maybe some pepper.. wait wait.. I hate pepper!!... hmm..chili powder should work..spicy and hot!!..but not too much though..i'll end up tearing then..hehe I'm done with sugar..considering the fact that I might be diabetic..hehehe..

Wow..I can really crap!..hehehe

Lord I know this is crazy.. but I'm sick of the same old road.. and trail.. I want a roller coaster!! .. you gave us rain..and sun..but what about putting them together??!!.. and we can see the rainbow!!.. I think rainbows are on the greatest creation ever..when the rain pours and the sun shinning at the same time.. its like two different world colliding.. like two different people..falling in love.. like salt and pepper..though they're different both inside and outside..but they work together like 2 peas in a pod!! ..hehehe..but you get me right.. dear Lord?? ..I want something different.. something more meaningful.. something to look forward too.. something where I can be myself.. something I've never came across..

Argh..I'm asking too much rite??.. still Lord, just incase if you decide to sent a tsunami or a tornado..can you please, please don't leave me alone.. I mean I know you wont.. but dont let me forget that k??!! ...and I put this new semester into thy hands.. AMEN!!..

phew..I feel so much better!!..

Good nite!!

what every woman should know..

Sudha tagged this me in this notes..in FB.. i find it pretty interesting..=)

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
how to live alone... even if she doesn't like it...


A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE...
enough money within her control to move out and rent a place of her own, even if she never wants to or needs to...


A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE...
something perfect to wear if the employer, or date of her dreams or husband wants to see her in an hour...


A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE...
a youth she's content to leave behind....


A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE...
a past juicy enough that she's looking forward to retelling it in her old age....


A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE...
one friend who always makes her laugh... and one who lets her cry...


A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE...
a good piece of furniture not previously owned by anyone else in her family...


A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE...
eight matching plates, wine glasses with stems, and a recipe for a meal, that will make her guests feel honored...


A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE...
a feeling of control over her destiny...


EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
how to fall in love without losing herself...


EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
how to quit a job, break up with a lover, and confront a friend without ruining the friendship...


EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
when to try harder... and WHEN TO WALK AWAY...


EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
that she can't change the length of her calves, the width of her hips, or the nature of her parents..


EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
that her childhood may not have been perfect...but its over...


EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
what she would and wouldn't do for love or more...


EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
whom she can trust, whom she can't, and why she shouldn't take it personally...


EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
where to go... be it to her best friend's kitchen table... or a charming inn in the woods... when her soul needs soothing...


EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
what she can and can't accomplish in a day... a month... and a year...


AND EVERY WOMAN SHOULD READ THIS :)

sleepover..

When I'm there..all I could think of is here.. and when I'm here.. you leave me speechless.. nevertheless, you make it real for me...=)

hehehehe.. Yes my dearest bloggie.. you leave me speechless and when I'm not in your sight.. all I could think of is the things I want to blog about.. but indeed.. you never left me.. even in my worst..you stood by me.. for that you shall receive a genuine THANKSSSS!!..and a kiss..MUAXXXXXXXX!!..=D

Lol.. If I say I'm flying without wings.. you wouldn't believe me.. If I say I could lie down in the middle of the road and still smile.. you would probably be on the phone calling the psychiatrist... and If I say my blog is my greatest friend ever existed.. you will think I'm lame or weird.. but hey guess what??..I don't really care..=)

Had a great night last nite!!..=D
Firstly, I admit..I've been non-stop eating and eating and eating again..since like..I don know..maybe forever..hehehe.. and still the same.. nothing changed..=) ..and weirdly, in the past few days..4 of them told me "You lost weight huh??!!".. I was like.."NOOO..in fact I've been eating more than I should lately" ..well I was..I mean imagine me eating OLD TOWN'S NASI LEMAK SPECIAL.. almost everyday for lunch..heheh..i know i know!!!..but you get my point rite??..there's no way I could have lost weight..NO WAY!! worse still..they said my cheeks are no more chubbier!!..aaarrgghh.. well, the truth is..i like chubby cheeks.. my sis used to sing this nursery rhyme..obviously not to me..but something she learned in kindergarten..which she taught my dad..and he'll sing it to me...hehehe..=)

"chubby cheeks!!
rosy lips!!
dimple chin!!
teeth within!!
curly hair!!..
very fair!!
eyes black..
lovely too..
mummy's pet..is that you??"

and I'll go like.."yess yess yess!!" ..hehehe..lol.. well I was 6!!..what you expect.. anyway since I can't possibly lose weight..so I came up with the conclusion that I can be a diabetic patient..sigh.. I told my mom..and she asked me to go and make orange juice!!..lol.. dont ask..the weirdness runs in the family..

Anyway..I stayed over in my best friend Crystal's home last night..heehehe..it was pure fun!!.. we'll we played badminton first with joe, shashi stal, geetha and me.. I shall leave whatever happen in badminton to myself..=)

..then after dinner.. we bought some other junks..thinking we'll be hungry again.. well, my eyes fell on the blueberry cheese tart!!..weeeeeeeeeeeee!!..hehehe..its beeen ages since i last bought that!! ...and a kit kat ..aahh..how can you not live without chocolates??.. and also..my favorite chocolate filled tiger biscuits.. and do tell me..HOW IN THE WORLD CAN I AFFORD TO LOOSE WEIGHT?!!..ish..hehehe..

So we snacked while watching THE BLIND SIDE and WHIP IT!! ..it was a movie marathon la.. shashi stayed over as well..and gustine, crystal's elder brother was there too.. they were buzy playing PS2 ..which i dont get it again.. guys and cars.. guys and football.. guys and ps2.. guys and computer.. ishh.. guys can be totally lifeless huh??..;p ;p ..

movie ended about 4 something.. and we headed to our bed..and started talking.. and talking.. it never stopped!!..so much of stories..so must of catching up..hehhee.. i think we slept bout 6!..no joke!!..hehehe..

we got up at about 1..the next morning.. we had lots of plan.. suppose to go karaoke-ing ..or bowling.. but instead we sat home and watched WIPE OUT!! ..lol.. we were laughing through out la..hehehe..

They sent me back at the evening.. and the rest of the day was well..pretty erm..interesting..

but i shall leave it to myself..again..

you have a great nite!...

what do I want?

"Did you know.. when you're around..my heart won't.. it can't slow down.. it beat so fast and makes it hard..to catch my breath!!

You're not gonna believe how many times have I erased whatever I wanted to write in here as my opening line.. It's either I got nothing to blog about.. or I have so much to write..and I don't know where to start...sigh

Someone asked me this question once.."what do you want?" ..well, considering the extremely hot weather, with my oily face that was a having a deadly match with a "roti canai"..I answered "a chilled ribena with ice!!" ...and he asked again.."what do you want, Juan??!!" ...and it hit me.. what do I want??.. no really..ever wondered "what do i want, in this life??" ..I'm not sure about you.. but I do not have the answer to this question!!..I do not know what I want.. erm.. its like this..

let say you have this date with this guy..whom you've had a crush on..all your life.. Yes of cause...your heart jumps up and down..and go all weeeeee!! ..But then when the actual day comes..you'll be like "crap!! what if he doesn't like me.. what it I embarrasse myself..what if he thinks I'm weird..what if he turns out to be a girl??" ..lol..ok the last one came out randomly..hehe.. anyway it can be..that maybe you are just making excuses..to get out of it!!.. its like you want it..but at the same time..you don't want it either..so what exactly do you want then??..

I'm not making any sense right??..lol.. sigh.. like I said.. I do not know what I want.. I do not what to do..in order to figure out what I want!!.. I do not even know why am I writing this...

Again, you must be thinking.."is this girl drunk or what??!!" ..I assure you..I'm not.. or maybe I should get drunk..haha.. I remember in my cousins house once for Christmas.. I gulp in 2 glasses of wine..yes.."only wine" .. at once!!.. and we're talking about the real bitter bluekk kinda taste.. hehehe.. My mom gave me the "your dead" kinda look.. and i gave her my "i love you too, ma" ..kinda smile.. and we'll be dancing and singing and dancing again..charades.. gambling..laughters..lol it was like a "sin city" ..

Sigh.. I miss that moment.. I miss that home.. I miss all of them!!.. But you cannot turn back time..can you?? you got to live for the moment... now.. cause tomorrow may not come..

and after all this crappings...I still don't know what I want..=(

you have officially certified me as "delusional" huh??..lol.. no worries..
thanks for dropping by!!..=)

Kaleidoscope..

"When you find everything you looked for.. hope your life lead you back to my front door.. but if it don't.. stay beautiful!.."

Bad day!!...=(

Well anyway... I'm not gonna say how it went..instead I'm gonna share with you..about my thoughts on kaleidoscope..=) hehe..whats a kaleidocope??..well here's what they call a kaleidoscope of colours..

One look..yeah beautiful.. but after a while, dont you get bored starring at something repetitive and lifeles??..hehe..indeed, I used to hate it.. totally hate it!!... why??.. Well incase you didnt know..I'm a big fan of jigsaw puzzle..and use to play it on Facebook.. and when ever I get this picture.. I'll click the "SKIP" button...only some crazy nuts will agree to complete this kinda crazy stuff... I mean look at it!!..it consist of more or less..the same kinda pieces!!..It will take ages to complete it!..hence the reason to hate it..

But you know something??.. this rather boring, static picture..has a lot of hidden meaning beneath it..If you look at it properly.. its actually one part of a picture that is repeated in 4 other directions.. meaning.. life is a lot more beautiful and complete..when you learn to look at it from a different point of view.. when you learn to put yourselves in another person's shoe before you go on hurting them with your words.. when you are willing to accept other people's view instead of having it your way all the time..=)

What happens when you put flour, egg, butter and sugar all together??..AN EDIBLE CAKE!! ..what happens when you put different kinda shapes and colours in one picture??..A KALEIDOSCOPE.. and what happens when you learn to accept other people just as they are..despite their colour, language, race and religion??..ONE MALAYSIA!!..=D ..and when you don't mind being seen with someone, though they can't speak or deaf or crippled..well congratulations!! You are on the right track in making this world a better place!!..=) ..and it says.."you have a heart"!!..=)

and lastly, before you close this page and decide I'm totally irrelevant and competely lifeless to post this.. look carefully at the kaleidoscope.. it is never ending.. no matter how the shape or color changes.. it keeps on going.. and thats exactly what we're suppose to do.. to TRY AGAIN.. when the world says "GIVE UP!!" ..to keep on running the race..no matter how high the hurdles are.. no matter how much our shoes have worn off.. to keep on dancing in the rain..though there's a huge storm coming by..

Miley Cyrus said in her lyrics, the climb.."Ain't about how fast I get there..Ain't about what's waiting on the other side...It's the climb"

Indeed..it is..

hehe.. basically, don't just look at something..or someone..and let your mind interpret what you they are like..sometimes you have to learn to see them.. with your heart..=) ...

Good nite everyone!!

After a while

ahem ahem...=)

I shouldn't ask if you missed me or not.. Cause I know its hard not to..:p :p..hehehehe...been awhile huh??..well, I was having exams..but that wasn't the main reason why I didn't blog.. and not that I didn't have anything to blog about..hehe..and hello!!..your talking to someone who used to blog up to 4 post a day!!.. so yeah..=).. well I just..hmm..I refuse to blog due to some unavoidable circumstances.. which I rather not mention it here..

So here's what happen..when I'm not here blogging..=)

• Exams..hmm..lets just keep it aside and not make both our lives miserable k??..;p
• UCSI's cafeteria food is not that bad..really.. hehe.. sadly we smartly tried it when the semester is coming to an end..hehehe
• SAMANTHA DAVID is officially my duet partner!!..weeee!!.. hehe.. and both me and sam would like to humbly apologize to sudha, pinky and kabi for literally torchuring them with our "sweet"..voices!!
• Saha's red sexy scooter is officially my one and only HARLEY DAVIDSON..=) wouldn't trade it for any other..hehehe
  
• GURPREEt KAUR@PINKY is in a relationship!!!..weeeeee!!..hehehehe
• KABI who suddenly had crushes on 'SUNFLOWER', 'LILIES' & 'CACTUS'.. said this.."Juan, I think you should be born as a guy!!" ...and I totally agree with him..;p
• Hurt my neck totally ..in time square..after our first ride..hehe.. well time square is nothing compared to SUNWAY LAGOON or GENTING's..but of cause the fun was there..hehe
• And I want my own bumper car!!..=( ..Sometimes I wished we had bumper cars..instead or real cars..lol.. I mean..its small, so less jam.. it has low gravity, surely its faster.. like all those F1 cars..and its totally fun!!!..hehehe...really..I think its one of the best game where I laughed till I couldn't laugh anymore!!..=D
• Lastly.."Pehli Nazar Mein" ...go listen to it..with the translation..=)

Before I take leave..
"Don't be afraid to speak up for what is right..even if it causes your life.. because the Lord your God is also on your side.."

Have a nice day..=)

GLEEEEE!!

I never thought I'll say this..but GLEEEEEEEEEEEEE is making me all WEEEEEEEEEEEEE!! ..hehehehee... wow!!..I had goosebumps..literally!! my UTAR friends used to call me "CHICKEN SKIN" ..because that's how my skin looks like with my goosebumps..lol..and yeah it did..it was standing right up!!..LOL.. and I can watch them singing over and over again!

..can't wait for the rest of episodes to be downloaded..and damm la..this things all will happen only during my exam time..sigh.. it will happen..and I'll have the urge to blog..and here I am now!!..lol

and this song..lol.. is stuck in my head!..

Can't fight this feeling anymore ~Glee Cast~

I cant fight this feeling any longer..
And yet Im still afraid to let it flow..
What started out as friendship, has grown stronger..
I only wish I had the strength to let it show..

And even as I wander..
Im keeping you in sight..
Youre a candle in the window..
On a cold, dark winters night..
And Im getting closer than I ever thought I might..

And I cant fight this feeling anymore..
Ive forgotten what I started fighting for..
Its time to bring this ship into the shore..
And throw away the oars..
Baby, I cant fight this feeling anymore..

My life has been such a whirlwind since I saw you..
Ive been running round in circles in my mind..
And it always seems that Im following you, girl..
Cause you take me to the places that alone Id never find..

And even as I wander..
Im keeping you in sight..
Youre a candle in the window..
On a cold, dark winters night..
And Im getting closer than I ever thought I might..

And I cant fight this feeling anymore..
Ive forgotten what I started fighting for..
Its time to bring this ship into the shore..
And throw away the oars..
Baby, I cant fight this feeling anymore..

Cause I cant fight this feeling anymore
Ive forgotten what I started fighting for
And if I have to crawl upon the floor
Come crushing through your door
Baby, I cant fight this feeling anymore..