100 things you don't know about me

Because I'm in UCSI library, wasting my life..so I found this on tumblr. Yes, I know at times my life is kinda lifeless..but hey, maybe there is a reason on why I stumbled on these page. So here's 100 questions ;)

1) Put your iTunes on shuffle. Give me the first 6 songs that pop up.
~Belaian Jiwa, No Air, Everything(Michael Buble), Mungkin Nanti, At the beginning, Wonderful Tonight (Eric Clapton)

2) If you could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?
~Oprah Winfrey. ;) She's inspires me.

3) Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 23, give me line 17.
~finished saying whatever she wanted to say, she'd face front. ~Haruki Murakami: Norwegian Wood~

4) What do you think about most?
~ "What if trials of this life, are Your mercies in disguise." ..erm it kinda varies according to time, but for now its that. ;)

5) What does your latest text message from someone else say?
~ From Jessica saying she will see me and Yamunah in a while time. ;)

6) Do you sleep with or without on?
~With or without what? If its blanket, yes. If its bolster, yes. If its pillow, yes. If its clothes, yes again! ;p

7) What's your strangest talent?
~I'll say some stuff. And everyone laugh out laud. And I'll still be wondering what in the world I said that was so funny! :s

8) Girls.... (finish the sentence); Boys.... (finish the sentence)
~Girls, are kinda complicated. Boys are rather complicated too. ;p

9) Ever had a poem or song written about you?
~Erm.. once, saha wrote a poem about me. ;) Other than that. nope. ;(

10) When is the last time you played the air guitar?
~Air guitar? Ok I've never heard that. But guitar, just last week. ;)

11) Do you have any strange phobias?
~ erm. I'm scared of animals. Yes all animals. ALL! and blood too. and oh well, I'm afraid to speak my mind out. ;(

12) Ever stuck a foreign object up your nose?
~ eehhhwww. lol. nope. and i dont wanna try either.

13) What's your religion?
~Christianity is not a religion. Rather its a relationship with God. ;)

14) If you are outside, what are you most likely doing?
~Dreaming. Trying to connect everything I see..with life.

15) Do you perfer to be behind the camera or in front of it?
~ haha. The middle name is vainity yo! Obviously in front! ;p

16) Simple but extremely complex. Favorite band?
~Westlife!! ;))

17) What was the last lie you told?
~I'm not that into you. ;p

18) Do you believe in karma?
~I believe in Jesus! ;)

19) What does your screen name mean?
~Err.. my name? ..;p but well, literally it means God's gracious pearl. ;D

20) What is your greatest weakness; your greatest strength?
~Weakness should be..time management. ;( Strength.. erm, lol.. I think its the genuineness !;)

21) Who is your celebrity crush?
~Alex Pettyfer!! ..Hotness alert!! ;p

22) Have you ever gone skinny dipping?
~LOL ..nope. skinny dipping is a weird, weird name. ;p

23) How do you vent your anger?
~I write. Or I scream back. ;p

24) Do you have a collection of anything?
~Yess! ..Earrings. ;)

25) Do you perfer talking on the phone or video chatting online?
~Erm. both i guess. But if I could meet you in person. Its the best! ;))

26) Are you happy with the person you've become?
~I think I am. But at times I don't. ;(

27) What's a sound you hate; sound you love?
~I hate the sound of drilling. I love the sound of the rain. ;D

28) What's your biggest "what if"?
~What if I trip and fall on the stair and tear my skirt! ..heheh.. no joke.

29) Do you believe in ghosts? How about aliens?
~Erm. I do believe that evil exist. No comment about aliens. ;)

30) Stick your right arm out; what do you touch first?Do the same with your left arm.
~Erm the air. ;)

31) Smell the air. What do you smell?
~My nose is kinda block. I smell nothing. ;(

32) What's the worst place you have ever been to?
~Erm..I can't remember anything. I think if you go with a great company. Everything seems wonderful!! :)

33) Choose: East Coast or West Coast?
~West!! ;D

34) Most attractive singer of your opposite gender?
~That lead singer from BOYCE AVENUE!! ..;)) I'm sorry I forgot your name. ;(

35) To you, what is the meaning of life?
~Well, for me life is a gift. The only way to unravel this mystery is by living it by faith.

36) Define: Art.
~Erm. I think Art is your ability to things beyond the normal eyes can. ;)

37) Do you believe in luck?
~I believe in blessings. ;)

38) What's the weather like right now?
~Its sunny! Just perfect since it has been raining almost everyday. ;)

39) What time is it?
~10.34am. Yes I know. Kinda lifeless to sit in UCSI library doing this. But I have nothing else to do. ;(

40) Do you drive? If so, have you ever crashed?
~hahaahahaahaha. Yes I do drive. And we dont get along that well. ;( And yeah, I crashed once. I went through the divider.! ;(((

41) What was the last book you read?
~Almost Heaven, Judith Mcnaught.

42) Do you like the smell of gasoline?
~Ermm. At times. I like petrol. ;)

43) Do you have any nicknames?
~Have you seen my name? LOL. I do have lots of it. ;)

44) What was the last movie you saw?
~Johny English Reborn!! weeee! ;)

45) What's the worst injury you've ever had?
~ Erm. A broken heart. ;(

46) Have you ever caught a butterfly?
~Aww.. No I havent. I'm actually afraid of them. Yes, kill me. ;(

47) Do you have any obsessions right now?
~ Erm. does Alex Pettyfer count? ;p

48) What's your ?
~???
49) Ever had a rumor spread about you?
~Erm. I don't know. Probably, "She's hawttt!!" ;))

50) Do you believe in magic?
~I believe in miracle! ;)

51) Do you tend to hold grudges against people who have done you wrong?
~At times. but it fades away. because I'm made for something more than holding grudges. ;) And forgiveness is most treasured gift, one could receive.

52) What is your astrological sign?
~I dont know what the new sign says..but I'm a gemini! ;))

53) Do you save money or spend it?
~Hahaha.. I try to save it, but it always ends up getting spend. ;(

54) What's the last thing you purchased?
~3 tiny doughnuts for breakfast this morning! ;)

55) Love or lust?
~Love all the way baby!!

56) In a relationship?
~ Erm. nope. Single and very much happy. ;)

57) Are you a virgin?
~ HAHAHAHAAHAHAHA.. I'm going to the next question.

58) Can you touch your nose with your tongue?
~YESSSSS! heheeheh.. I can! ;)

59) Where were you yesterday?
~In MV with Yamunah and Pinky, watching Johny English! ;))

60) Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?
~ My pink mobile is in my pocket! ;))

61) Are you wearing socks right now?
~Nope.

62) What's your favorite animal?
~ I like eagles and horses! ;)

63) What is your secret weapon to get someone to like you?
~haha. Honesty, sincerity, and just be myself. ;)

64) Where is your best friend?
~One is in Sungai Petani. ;( Another is in Kajang!! ;)

65) Spit or swallow?
~Swallow. Just swallow. ;)

66) What is your heritage?
~LOL. im not quite sure. Will get back to you on this.

67) What were you doing last night at 12 AM?
~Erm, watching big bang theory, and err.. lol texting! ;p

68) What do you think is Satan's last name?
~err. I don't know. Don't care also. ;)

69) Be honest. Ever gotten yourself off?
~Whatever that means, I'm going to go with. no! lol

70) Are you the kind of friend you would want to have as a friend?
~Yes, If you dont like yourself, how do you expect others to like you? ;)

71) You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late one more time you get fired. What do you do?
~Help the dog, of cause. Then explain to my boss. Humanity weighs a lot more than money. There is a lot of other jobs available. But you only have one life. ;)

72) You are at the doctor’s office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live.
a) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die?
~Nope, I dont.
b) What do you do with your remaining days?
~Spent as much with my family and friends ;)
c) Would you be afraid?
~I'd lie if I say no. So yes, I'd be afraid.

73) You can only have one of these things: trust or love.
~I think they come hand in hand. But I'd go with love. ;)

74) What's a song that always makes you happy when you hear it?
~Blessings! ;) They give me hope.

75) What are the last four digits in your cell phone number?
~9635 and 1012 ;)

76) In your opinion, what makes a great relationship?
~Communication!!!! And of course, tolerance, understanding and  trust!

77) How can I win your heart?
~Don't break my heart and be yourself. ;)

78) Can insanity bring on more creativity?
~Hell yeah!! heheheeh

79) What is the single best decision you have made in your life so far?
~To join my ENGLISH YOUTH COMMITTEE 2010! ;)

80) What size shoes do you where?
~Size 6! ;)

81) What would you want to be written on your tombstone?
~Err, my name? lol.. I've never thought of it..

82) What is your favorite word?
~ hehehe. its crap! ;)

83) Give me the first thing that comes to mind when you hear the word: heart.
~erm. A child. ;)

 84) What is a saying you say a lot?
~ its not really saying its kinda of an expression.. its "HAHAHAHAHA" ;)

85) What's the last song you listened to?
~According to you ~Orianthi~

86) Basic question: what's your favorite color/colors?
~Purple! Pink! Black! ;)

87) What is your current desktop picture?
~Flowers! ;))

88) If you could press a button and make anyone in the world instantaneously explode, who would it be?
~hahahahaahah. for now, no one la. ;)

89) What would be a question you'd be afraid to tell the truth on?
~Whether have I fallen in love with you.

90) One night you wake up because you heard a noise. You turn on the light to find that you are surrounded by MUMMIES. The mummies aren't really doing anything, they're just standing around your bed. What do you do?
~Go back to sleep. lol.. I'm dreaming. ;p

91) You accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what's even cooler is that they endow you with the super-power of your choice! What is that power?
~Invisibility!! ..hehehe.. awesome yo!

92) You can re-live any point of time in your life. The time-span can only be a half-hour, though. What half-hour of your past would you like to experience again?
~Erm. thats a tough question. But honestly, it would be the time with my highschool. ;)

93) You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be?
~ lol. None. Every horrible experience is worth for it made me who i am today! ;)

94) You have the opportunity to sleep with the music-celebrity of your choice. Who would it be?
~HAHAAHAHAHAH. errm. honestly.. when you say "sleep" I'll just past ok. ;p lol

95) You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go?
~Erm. Paris I guess. They say its the city of love. ;)

96) Do you have any relatives in jail?
~None I could think of. ;)

97) Have you ever thrown up in the car?
~I think I have. lol.

98) Ever been on a plane?
~Yeap. years back ;) with my my sis, grandma and uncle! ;)

99) If the whole world were listening to you right now, what would you say?
~ Have you met my friend Jesus?! You should! You'll never regret. He's awesome!

100) What do you want?
A lot of things.

Waaahh. hmm. Again, if you completed reading this. then thank you! ;) But I really enjoyed doing this questions. They make you think. ; )

Ok I gtg. C ya'll later

The thing about dreams.

Hey there. ;) Its been a while I suppose. ;))

And err. My fingers are itching! I mean like literally itching!! damm mosquitoes! sigh.. The thing about mosquito bites, the more you scratch, the more they itch. But you can't help it, your natural reaction is to scratch when you itch. Now what happens, when that natural reaction itself, might cause you hurt? ..hmm.. The more you try to so-call cure it, the hurt you get.

I guess its the same thing with love. You don't want it. But then you can't help it. You don't control these things. They happen. They just happen. And now that it has happen, you can try to get out of it, by not scratching it. Lol, its not possible, is it? Unintentionally, you may scratch it sooner or later. And there, your in a mess. Hmm.. but actually, there;s nothing wrong in falling. The danger happens, when you think the other party, feels the same too. ;)

Lol, wow, I still have it huh.. yeah trying to make sense of the random things in life. ;p And gosh, the house phone has been ringing non-stop! Siggh.. its because my grandma's not doing that well. My mom's getting stressed up day by day. And weird, of all the years, this is the one year where I decided to not go to back to Johore during my holidays! ;((( I remember everytime I go back to Johore, my grandma and me will have a long chat about relationships while I'll be massaging her leg. And you know, she knows more stories about me, than my mom. ;(

Oh well, He who gives, knows what is best. Its better to leave it in His hands. ;))

hmm what else. you know I realize I dream too much. A lot, that sometimes I'm afraid I might get lost in it. Like I don;t know which is real and which is a dream. In my dream, I turn into this quiet girl. So quiet that even a needle falling on the ground can be heard. I don't know whats going on around me. It scares me sometimes, cause sometimes I have this urge to run towards the moving bus or train. ;( And you have to give me a few seconds to get back to earth. You know whats worse, that I think I live more in my dream than in reality. ;(((

Waaahh.. inception mannn! .;)) So inception!! hehehe.. can pass or not?! ..;p

And by the way, I hate dreaming. Yes the dream while you're asleep. Because I get up feeling tired. So tired in my mind. I mean you're suppose to sleeping but then you let you mind to work through dreaming! Where is that fair?! ..sigghh.. And my dreams are so real..sometimes I have to check several times, where I really did it or not.. ;(

But then they say, dreams come true if you believe.. well I say, dare to dream but do what your heart tells you. If its wrong, you;ll learn from it. If its right, you'll learn from it too. ;)

Cheers!

25 questions.

Gooooodd evening! ;)). I'm in such a good mood. I honestly didn't think this blog would actually attract anymore readers. But oh well, I was so overwhelmed last night, when I got quoted! Weird huh, how God works?? ..The minute you thought that there is nothing more left of you..someone comes and proves you wrong. ;)

Anyway, because I got nothing to complain about, besides maybe I had to miss my eye appointment because of daymm KTM! ..and because today, might be the day, where the faith of my eyes is decided. sigh. oh well, Will have to wait. So here's survey I came across in tumblr.

1: Who was the last person you talked to? What were you talking about?
~My mom just got home. She was complaining about darn KTM!! ;( Because its so useless, she had to take back the taxi all the way from BTS to kajang!!

 2: What was the last thing you said?
~"Don't take her to the government hospital!!"..sighh.. You see, my grandma in Johore, aint doing that well. My aunt just took her to the emergency. ;((

3: Why do you like the person you like?
~I like it because they're not fake. ;)

4: Do you take the Twilight movies seriously or think they're ridiculous?
~LOL. Nope, its not ridiculous neither is it something to be taken seriously. But I like it, because it takes you away from reality for that 2 hours and you let your imaginations run wild. ;)

5: What is/are your favorite book/s?
~JODI PICOULT!! she's the best. Coming right after her is JUDITH MCNAUGHT! ;D

6: What are your top 5 most played songs on your iTunes at the moment?
~Blessings, For the first time, Angel, Broken Angel, Hallelujah, Skyscraper

7: Are you a textaholic?
~Well, I could be..with the right person.

8: Do you have any ideas for stories in your head?
~HAHAHAHAHAHA.. trust me, I wish I had..but they're just there..driving me crazy when I decide to accompany them ;(

9: Do you play any sports?
~Yes!! Before my eyes got injured, I played badminton, netball, captain ball, I used to run. Now I just walk and clean for exercise. :(

10: What are your favorite TV shows?
~BIG BANG THEORY!! ;)) then comes How I met Your Mother, Desperate Housewives, The Nanny, CSI! ;)

11: When was the last time you cried?
~Just the previous night.

12: Do you do well in school?
~Err..I didn't have no choice. Have you met my mother. She could substitute for Hitler!! ;(

13: When is your birthday?
~The middle day of the year. ;p 15th June 1990

14: What's your favorite food?
~Mom's spaghetti! Zee bestt!! ;D

15: Do you enjoy Disney movies?
~Oh yesss I do! I'm 21 and I'd die for Disney movies! ;p

16: What's your one, ultimate OTP?
~Ok I just googled that and I suggest you google it too and let me know if you came up with any answers! ;)

17: If you had three wishes, what would you wish for?
1) I wish for love to triumph over hate.
2)I wish for peace, be it friends, family or country.
3) I wish for wisdom to live in this world.

18: What's your most prized possession?
~ erm.. Right now I can't think of any. But it should be my family

19: How would you describe your personality?
~Shy. ;(

20: Do you like energy drinks?
~Ok I guess. Not to bad.

21: What song is in your head?
~BLESSINGS ~Laura Story! Its the best song I've heard so far.

22: If you were on a TV show, what would your character's problem be?
~ Erm.. Probably, knocking down everything on my way and losing everything that's precious. Oh yeah, forgetful, bad time management, and a little too much of crappings. ;p

23: What's a song that describes your mood right now?
Blessing, Blessing!! ;)

24: What's your favorite smiley face?
 hahahahaah. erm I think it should be ;p

25: If you got to change your name, what would you change it to?
errr, like seriously, you're asking me this question? lol. erm Nope, I wouldnt wanna change it. I can't imagine myself being someone else.

Ok Doneeee! ;D

Sometimes you wish.

Because sometimes, there aint no words that describes how you feel. ;(

Sometimes, you don't know why do the things you do..
Sometimes you don't know why you feel the things you feel..
Sometimes, you just can't seem to let go..
Sometimes, you wonder, why is it always me..
Sometimes, you wish someone actually cared..
Sometimes, you wish you weren't so fragile..
Sometimes, you wish you would have listened.
Sometimes, you wish you actually talked about it..
Sometimes, you wish they never took advantage of you.
Sometimes. you wish you weren't so foolish.
Sometimes, you wish God actually listened.
Sometimes, you wish your faith never faded.
Sometimes, you wish you were stronger..
Sometimes, you wish to be someone else..
Sometimes, you wish it is easier..

Sometimes, you wish for so many things..

And sometimes, you got to have faith that God knows best! ;)

The mechanic ;)

Hey ;) Yes it's been a while. ;)

So how do you do? Fine? No fine? Life's hard, or I don't give a damm about it? ..;p lol oh well, I;m alright.. just incase you were wondering.;) But I have been thinking about death lately. Yes the same death, where you no more breathe, where you are taken somewhere, God knows where. And here's the thing. It aint me who is dying. ;((

And that's the thing that scares me the most. sigh. What would your world be like, if someone close to you is taken too fast and that you wouldn't have the chance to see them again. To hold them and hear their laughter. To even think of it, brought me to tears. sigh.

Oh well, its just me and my imagination. My brain works in a way, that no one gets it. Its like you open a car, and there are bits and pieces of everything. Now unless you're a mechanic, or someone who knows a car in and out, then you would be like, "oh ceehh, small thing only! It can be fixed!!" ..;) 

Weird, I haven't really found any suitable mechanic who knows exactly what is wrong with me and is willing to fix it. Its either, they know what's wrong and that's why they leave. Or it could be they don't know what's wrong but is still trying their best..but they're getting no where. Or a mechanic who knows what's wrong but they're busy with other cars. The one true mechanic, is the one that never gives up, no matter how much nonsense you give him.

Lol, wow. did I just compare myself with a car and mechanic? Why can't I just stick with homo sapiens. err.. hehe I know why. Course its too easy. ;)

The thing about life. If its too easy, you'd be bored. But because its hard, you get to go on a roller coaster ride. You don't know whats happening next, or who you're gonna meet! ..I mean, like why watch a movie if you know what's gonna happen or how its gonna end, rite?

And these sentences give me the courage to get through the rides. ;)

What if Your blessings come through raindrops?
What if Your healing comes through tears?
What if a thousand sleepless night are what it takes to know you're near?
What if trials on this life are your mercies in disguise?


Hmm..
 Lord, it just occurred to me.
Could it be possible that you're my mechanic? ;))
I mean. it fits You.. perfectly. hmm.

Your will be done.

Ok what is this feeling? Like seriously, its like something just sucked up everything and left you.. "blueekk!" ..sigh.. and I have this sudden need for cold chocolate. And yes chocolate indulgence. Probably its the one that can ease this uneasy-ness with in.

And and and.. ;((( I tengah emo again. lol.. but its not anything.. its just that. sigh..

Dear Lord,
I do not know what plans you have for me..
But I surrender these feeling unto Your hands..
If its meant to be..then so be it..
At least for once, I would know what its like..
To love and be loved..
If its not..then so be it too..
Just give me strength and the will to let go
.
You do know, I dislike it when you do this to me.
I assure you, I'm strong enough.
Much stronger than I can ever imagine too..
And You, should know that already. ;(
Its just..the thought of going through it..
Again and again..
Aint that nice.
But then again,
Your will be done, not mine.


Amen!! ..


Ok now I feel much better! ..
I shall go rape the refrigerator for some chocolates! ;)

Changes.

Goodness gracious!!! ..its freeezziinngg in class C401 in UCSI! ..like literally! ..;(((  it's like you're trapped in a fridge with no food! ..   ;(( And all you can do is await the angel of the death to welcome your presence soon! ..sighhh

Like seriously, why do they have to make it soooo freaking cold! ..sigh. Thank God I brought my scarf. Or else I might loose a finger or my nose will just drop off any moment. ;(

anyway, I have about 40 minutes left. What shall we talk about? Something intelligent or should I bore you with my not-so-interesting life? ..;p

Hmm.. So yesterday was sad day. The committee got re-elected. All new faces, some old. I didn't feel anything till I was writing the names of all our old committee on the board. I'm so used to it, since I'm the secretary and know each one their spelling by heart! But it hit me like a "bang!". I was like, what if I can't get long with the new ones, what if they think I'm weird.. I mean I am weird, but the old committee didn't treat me different. Or what if I decide to jump off the building? LOL. ..ok that just came out. But I guess, at the end of it, if your heart is at the right place, if you are doing it for God, then nothing can possibly go wrong.

It didnt stop there. After that, glynn removed the old committee from being admins in FB. I felt it there again. It was like this kinda weird feeling, like something is so wrong somewhere. And you're afraid. Just so afraid. Probably because all this time, I've been the one that need help. Now that I have to help the rest, and you know sorta be like the senior, I don't know if I'm capable of that. ;(

And last night, while sending Helena away, I swear it was one of the best nights ever. I've never felt such joy, such friendship, such love, such laughter..and I know it aint replaceable. It was the perfect ending giving to a rainy day. Then it hit me. You cannot always get what you want. Sometimes you have to give way, for something else. For something that will surely make you a better and stronger a person. Because if such things never happened, you will always remain where you are from the beginning. Stagnant. Not moving forward. We need changes. Whether we like it or not, we need changes. And that is what makes life so interesting! .;)

Oh well, like Fred said, all good things must come to an end. But then it aint over. Like Glynn said, its beginning of friends. Hopefully forever.

Ok done emo-ing ;) lets talk about something interesting.

Err, my lecturer just walked in. ;)

Have I told you about him? I think's he's great. Not because he elected me as the class rep. But really, his style might be a bit boring and unorganized, but I think anyone who can make me laugh, is great. hmm, but then again, I laugh for everything. err. but he's great la..;)

Ok better stop, he started coughing already..;p

Erm, I have something else to say. But guess will have to save it later. Or maybe I won't even say it. Because sometimes there aint  no words that can truly reflect on what your inner being wants to say.

But then again,

Its better to say to much, than never to say what you need to say again.


Yes, I know. I way waaayy complicated for anyone to comprehend. ;(