Thursday, September 29, 2011

100 things you don't know about me

Because I'm in UCSI library, wasting my I found this on tumblr. Yes, I know at times my life is kinda lifeless..but hey, maybe there is a reason on why I stumbled on these page. So here's 100 questions ;)

1) Put your iTunes on shuffle. Give me the first 6 songs that pop up.
~Belaian Jiwa, No Air, Everything(Michael Buble), Mungkin Nanti, At the beginning, Wonderful Tonight (Eric Clapton)

2) If you could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?
~Oprah Winfrey. ;) She's inspires me.

3) Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 23, give me line 17.
~finished saying whatever she wanted to say, she'd face front. ~Haruki Murakami: Norwegian Wood~

4) What do you think about most?
~ "What if trials of this life, are Your mercies in disguise." ..erm it kinda varies according to time, but for now its that. ;)

5) What does your latest text message from someone else say?
~ From Jessica saying she will see me and Yamunah in a while time. ;)

6) Do you sleep with or without on?
~With or without what? If its blanket, yes. If its bolster, yes. If its pillow, yes. If its clothes, yes again! ;p

7) What's your strangest talent?
~I'll say some stuff. And everyone laugh out laud. And I'll still be wondering what in the world I said that was so funny! :s

8) Girls.... (finish the sentence); Boys.... (finish the sentence)
~Girls, are kinda complicated. Boys are rather complicated too. ;p

9) Ever had a poem or song written about you?
~Erm.. once, saha wrote a poem about me. ;) Other than that. nope. ;(

10) When is the last time you played the air guitar?
~Air guitar? Ok I've never heard that. But guitar, just last week. ;)

11) Do you have any strange phobias?
~ erm. I'm scared of animals. Yes all animals. ALL! and blood too. and oh well, I'm afraid to speak my mind out. ;(

12) Ever stuck a foreign object up your nose?
~ eehhhwww. lol. nope. and i dont wanna try either.

13) What's your religion?
~Christianity is not a religion. Rather its a relationship with God. ;)

14) If you are outside, what are you most likely doing?
~Dreaming. Trying to connect everything I see..with life.

15) Do you perfer to be behind the camera or in front of it?
~ haha. The middle name is vainity yo! Obviously in front! ;p

16) Simple but extremely complex. Favorite band?
~Westlife!! ;))

17) What was the last lie you told?
~I'm not that into you. ;p

18) Do you believe in karma?
~I believe in Jesus! ;)

19) What does your screen name mean?
~Err.. my name? ..;p but well, literally it means God's gracious pearl. ;D

20) What is your greatest weakness; your greatest strength?
~Weakness should be..time management. ;( Strength.. erm, lol.. I think its the genuineness !;)

21) Who is your celebrity crush?
~Alex Pettyfer!! ..Hotness alert!! ;p

22) Have you ever gone skinny dipping?
~LOL ..nope. skinny dipping is a weird, weird name. ;p

23) How do you vent your anger?
~I write. Or I scream back. ;p

24) Do you have a collection of anything?
~Yess! ..Earrings. ;)

25) Do you perfer talking on the phone or video chatting online?
~Erm. both i guess. But if I could meet you in person. Its the best! ;))

26) Are you happy with the person you've become?
~I think I am. But at times I don't. ;(

27) What's a sound you hate; sound you love?
~I hate the sound of drilling. I love the sound of the rain. ;D

28) What's your biggest "what if"?
~What if I trip and fall on the stair and tear my skirt! ..heheh.. no joke.

29) Do you believe in ghosts? How about aliens?
~Erm. I do believe that evil exist. No comment about aliens. ;)

30) Stick your right arm out; what do you touch first?Do the same with your left arm.
~Erm the air. ;)

31) Smell the air. What do you smell?
~My nose is kinda block. I smell nothing. ;(

32) What's the worst place you have ever been to?
~Erm..I can't remember anything. I think if you go with a great company. Everything seems wonderful!! :)

33) Choose: East Coast or West Coast?
~West!! ;D

34) Most attractive singer of your opposite gender?
~That lead singer from BOYCE AVENUE!! ..;)) I'm sorry I forgot your name. ;(

35) To you, what is the meaning of life?
~Well, for me life is a gift. The only way to unravel this mystery is by living it by faith.

36) Define: Art.
~Erm. I think Art is your ability to things beyond the normal eyes can. ;)

37) Do you believe in luck?
~I believe in blessings. ;)

38) What's the weather like right now?
~Its sunny! Just perfect since it has been raining almost everyday. ;)

39) What time is it?
~10.34am. Yes I know. Kinda lifeless to sit in UCSI library doing this. But I have nothing else to do. ;(

40) Do you drive? If so, have you ever crashed?
~hahaahahaahaha. Yes I do drive. And we dont get along that well. ;( And yeah, I crashed once. I went through the divider.! ;(((

41) What was the last book you read?
~Almost Heaven, Judith Mcnaught.

42) Do you like the smell of gasoline?
~Ermm. At times. I like petrol. ;)

43) Do you have any nicknames?
~Have you seen my name? LOL. I do have lots of it. ;)

44) What was the last movie you saw?
~Johny English Reborn!! weeee! ;)

45) What's the worst injury you've ever had?
~ Erm. A broken heart. ;(

46) Have you ever caught a butterfly?
~Aww.. No I havent. I'm actually afraid of them. Yes, kill me. ;(

47) Do you have any obsessions right now?
~ Erm. does Alex Pettyfer count? ;p

48) What's your ?
49) Ever had a rumor spread about you?
~Erm. I don't know. Probably, "She's hawttt!!" ;))

50) Do you believe in magic?
~I believe in miracle! ;)

51) Do you tend to hold grudges against people who have done you wrong?
~At times. but it fades away. because I'm made for something more than holding grudges. ;) And forgiveness is most treasured gift, one could receive.

52) What is your astrological sign?
~I dont know what the new sign says..but I'm a gemini! ;))

53) Do you save money or spend it?
~Hahaha.. I try to save it, but it always ends up getting spend. ;(

54) What's the last thing you purchased?
~3 tiny doughnuts for breakfast this morning! ;)

55) Love or lust?
~Love all the way baby!!

56) In a relationship?
~ Erm. nope. Single and very much happy. ;)

57) Are you a virgin?
~ HAHAHAHAAHAHAHA.. I'm going to the next question.

58) Can you touch your nose with your tongue?
~YESSSSS! heheeheh.. I can! ;)

59) Where were you yesterday?
~In MV with Yamunah and Pinky, watching Johny English! ;))

60) Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?
~ My pink mobile is in my pocket! ;))

61) Are you wearing socks right now?

62) What's your favorite animal?
~ I like eagles and horses! ;)

63) What is your secret weapon to get someone to like you?
~haha. Honesty, sincerity, and just be myself. ;)

64) Where is your best friend?
~One is in Sungai Petani. ;( Another is in Kajang!! ;)

65) Spit or swallow?
~Swallow. Just swallow. ;)

66) What is your heritage?
~LOL. im not quite sure. Will get back to you on this.

67) What were you doing last night at 12 AM?
~Erm, watching big bang theory, and err.. lol texting! ;p

68) What do you think is Satan's last name?
~err. I don't know. Don't care also. ;)

69) Be honest. Ever gotten yourself off?
~Whatever that means, I'm going to go with. no! lol

70) Are you the kind of friend you would want to have as a friend?
~Yes, If you dont like yourself, how do you expect others to like you? ;)

71) You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late one more time you get fired. What do you do?
~Help the dog, of cause. Then explain to my boss. Humanity weighs a lot more than money. There is a lot of other jobs available. But you only have one life. ;)

72) You are at the doctor’s office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live.
a) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die?
~Nope, I dont.
b) What do you do with your remaining days?
~Spent as much with my family and friends ;)
c) Would you be afraid?
~I'd lie if I say no. So yes, I'd be afraid.

73) You can only have one of these things: trust or love.
~I think they come hand in hand. But I'd go with love. ;)

74) What's a song that always makes you happy when you hear it?
~Blessings! ;) They give me hope.

75) What are the last four digits in your cell phone number?
~9635 and 1012 ;)

76) In your opinion, what makes a great relationship?
~Communication!!!! And of course, tolerance, understanding and  trust!

77) How can I win your heart?
~Don't break my heart and be yourself. ;)

78) Can insanity bring on more creativity?
~Hell yeah!! heheheeh

79) What is the single best decision you have made in your life so far?
~To join my ENGLISH YOUTH COMMITTEE 2010! ;)

80) What size shoes do you where?
~Size 6! ;)

81) What would you want to be written on your tombstone?
~Err, my name? lol.. I've never thought of it..

82) What is your favorite word?
~ hehehe. its crap! ;)

83) Give me the first thing that comes to mind when you hear the word: heart.
~erm. A child. ;)

 84) What is a saying you say a lot?
~ its not really saying its kinda of an expression.. its "HAHAHAHAHA" ;)

85) What's the last song you listened to?
~According to you ~Orianthi~

86) Basic question: what's your favorite color/colors?
~Purple! Pink! Black! ;)

87) What is your current desktop picture?
~Flowers! ;))

88) If you could press a button and make anyone in the world instantaneously explode, who would it be?
~hahahahaahah. for now, no one la. ;)

89) What would be a question you'd be afraid to tell the truth on?
~Whether have I fallen in love with you.

90) One night you wake up because you heard a noise. You turn on the light to find that you are surrounded by MUMMIES. The mummies aren't really doing anything, they're just standing around your bed. What do you do?
~Go back to sleep. lol.. I'm dreaming. ;p

91) You accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what's even cooler is that they endow you with the super-power of your choice! What is that power?
~Invisibility!! ..hehehe.. awesome yo!

92) You can re-live any point of time in your life. The time-span can only be a half-hour, though. What half-hour of your past would you like to experience again?
~Erm. thats a tough question. But honestly, it would be the time with my highschool. ;)

93) You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be?
~ lol. None. Every horrible experience is worth for it made me who i am today! ;)

94) You have the opportunity to sleep with the music-celebrity of your choice. Who would it be?
~HAHAAHAHAHAH. errm. honestly.. when you say "sleep" I'll just past ok. ;p lol

95) You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go?
~Erm. Paris I guess. They say its the city of love. ;)

96) Do you have any relatives in jail?
~None I could think of. ;)

97) Have you ever thrown up in the car?
~I think I have. lol.

98) Ever been on a plane?
~Yeap. years back ;) with my my sis, grandma and uncle! ;)

99) If the whole world were listening to you right now, what would you say?
~ Have you met my friend Jesus?! You should! You'll never regret. He's awesome!

100) What do you want?
A lot of things.

Waaahh. hmm. Again, if you completed reading this. then thank you! ;) But I really enjoyed doing this questions. They make you think. ; )

Ok I gtg. C ya'll later

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

The thing about dreams.

Hey there. ;) Its been a while I suppose. ;))

And err. My fingers are itching! I mean like literally itching!! damm mosquitoes! sigh.. The thing about mosquito bites, the more you scratch, the more they itch. But you can't help it, your natural reaction is to scratch when you itch. Now what happens, when that natural reaction itself, might cause you hurt? ..hmm.. The more you try to so-call cure it, the hurt you get.

I guess its the same thing with love. You don't want it. But then you can't help it. You don't control these things. They happen. They just happen. And now that it has happen, you can try to get out of it, by not scratching it. Lol, its not possible, is it? Unintentionally, you may scratch it sooner or later. And there, your in a mess. Hmm.. but actually, there;s nothing wrong in falling. The danger happens, when you think the other party, feels the same too. ;)

Lol, wow, I still have it huh.. yeah trying to make sense of the random things in life. ;p And gosh, the house phone has been ringing non-stop! Siggh.. its because my grandma's not doing that well. My mom's getting stressed up day by day. And weird, of all the years, this is the one year where I decided to not go to back to Johore during my holidays! ;((( I remember everytime I go back to Johore, my grandma and me will have a long chat about relationships while I'll be massaging her leg. And you know, she knows more stories about me, than my mom. ;(

Oh well, He who gives, knows what is best. Its better to leave it in His hands. ;))

hmm what else. you know I realize I dream too much. A lot, that sometimes I'm afraid I might get lost in it. Like I don;t know which is real and which is a dream. In my dream, I turn into this quiet girl. So quiet that even a needle falling on the ground can be heard. I don't know whats going on around me. It scares me sometimes, cause sometimes I have this urge to run towards the moving bus or train. ;( And you have to give me a few seconds to get back to earth. You know whats worse, that I think I live more in my dream than in reality. ;(((

Waaahh.. inception mannn! .;)) So inception!! hehehe.. can pass or not?! ..;p

And by the way, I hate dreaming. Yes the dream while you're asleep. Because I get up feeling tired. So tired in my mind. I mean you're suppose to sleeping but then you let you mind to work through dreaming! Where is that fair?! ..sigghh.. And my dreams are so real..sometimes I have to check several times, where I really did it or not.. ;(

But then they say, dreams come true if you believe.. well I say, dare to dream but do what your heart tells you. If its wrong, you;ll learn from it. If its right, you'll learn from it too. ;)


Friday, September 23, 2011

25 questions.

Gooooodd evening! ;)). I'm in such a good mood. I honestly didn't think this blog would actually attract anymore readers. But oh well, I was so overwhelmed last night, when I got quoted! Weird huh, how God works?? ..The minute you thought that there is nothing more left of you..someone comes and proves you wrong. ;)

Anyway, because I got nothing to complain about, besides maybe I had to miss my eye appointment because of daymm KTM! ..and because today, might be the day, where the faith of my eyes is decided. sigh. oh well, Will have to wait. So here's survey I came across in tumblr.

1: Who was the last person you talked to? What were you talking about?
~My mom just got home. She was complaining about darn KTM!! ;( Because its so useless, she had to take back the taxi all the way from BTS to kajang!!

 2: What was the last thing you said?
~"Don't take her to the government hospital!!"..sighh.. You see, my grandma in Johore, aint doing that well. My aunt just took her to the emergency. ;((

3: Why do you like the person you like?
~I like it because they're not fake. ;)

4: Do you take the Twilight movies seriously or think they're ridiculous?
~LOL. Nope, its not ridiculous neither is it something to be taken seriously. But I like it, because it takes you away from reality for that 2 hours and you let your imaginations run wild. ;)

5: What is/are your favorite book/s?
~JODI PICOULT!! she's the best. Coming right after her is JUDITH MCNAUGHT! ;D

6: What are your top 5 most played songs on your iTunes at the moment?
~Blessings, For the first time, Angel, Broken Angel, Hallelujah, Skyscraper

7: Are you a textaholic?
~Well, I could be..with the right person.

8: Do you have any ideas for stories in your head?
~HAHAHAHAHAHA.. trust me, I wish I had..but they're just there..driving me crazy when I decide to accompany them ;(

9: Do you play any sports?
~Yes!! Before my eyes got injured, I played badminton, netball, captain ball, I used to run. Now I just walk and clean for exercise. :(

10: What are your favorite TV shows?
~BIG BANG THEORY!! ;)) then comes How I met Your Mother, Desperate Housewives, The Nanny, CSI! ;)

11: When was the last time you cried?
~Just the previous night.

12: Do you do well in school?
~Err..I didn't have no choice. Have you met my mother. She could substitute for Hitler!! ;(

13: When is your birthday?
~The middle day of the year. ;p 15th June 1990

14: What's your favorite food?
~Mom's spaghetti! Zee bestt!! ;D

15: Do you enjoy Disney movies?
~Oh yesss I do! I'm 21 and I'd die for Disney movies! ;p

16: What's your one, ultimate OTP?
~Ok I just googled that and I suggest you google it too and let me know if you came up with any answers! ;)

17: If you had three wishes, what would you wish for?
1) I wish for love to triumph over hate.
2)I wish for peace, be it friends, family or country.
3) I wish for wisdom to live in this world.

18: What's your most prized possession?
~ erm.. Right now I can't think of any. But it should be my family

19: How would you describe your personality?
~Shy. ;(

20: Do you like energy drinks?
~Ok I guess. Not to bad.

21: What song is in your head?
~BLESSINGS ~Laura Story! Its the best song I've heard so far.

22: If you were on a TV show, what would your character's problem be?
~ Erm.. Probably, knocking down everything on my way and losing everything that's precious. Oh yeah, forgetful, bad time management, and a little too much of crappings. ;p

23: What's a song that describes your mood right now?
Blessing, Blessing!! ;)

24: What's your favorite smiley face?
 hahahahaah. erm I think it should be ;p

25: If you got to change your name, what would you change it to?
errr, like seriously, you're asking me this question? lol. erm Nope, I wouldnt wanna change it. I can't imagine myself being someone else.

Ok Doneeee! ;D

Thursday, September 22, 2011

Sometimes you wish.

Because sometimes, there aint no words that describes how you feel. ;(

Sometimes, you don't know why do the things you do..
Sometimes you don't know why you feel the things you feel..
Sometimes, you just can't seem to let go..
Sometimes, you wonder, why is it always me..
Sometimes, you wish someone actually cared..
Sometimes, you wish you weren't so fragile..
Sometimes, you wish you would have listened.
Sometimes, you wish you actually talked about it..
Sometimes, you wish they never took advantage of you.
Sometimes. you wish you weren't so foolish.
Sometimes, you wish God actually listened.
Sometimes, you wish your faith never faded.
Sometimes, you wish you were stronger..
Sometimes, you wish to be someone else..
Sometimes, you wish it is easier..

Sometimes, you wish for so many things..

And sometimes, you got to have faith that God knows best! ;)

Monday, September 19, 2011

The mechanic ;)

Hey ;) Yes it's been a while. ;)

So how do you do? Fine? No fine? Life's hard, or I don't give a damm about it? ..;p lol oh well, I;m alright.. just incase you were wondering.;) But I have been thinking about death lately. Yes the same death, where you no more breathe, where you are taken somewhere, God knows where. And here's the thing. It aint me who is dying. ;((

And that's the thing that scares me the most. sigh. What would your world be like, if someone close to you is taken too fast and that you wouldn't have the chance to see them again. To hold them and hear their laughter. To even think of it, brought me to tears. sigh.

Oh well, its just me and my imagination. My brain works in a way, that no one gets it. Its like you open a car, and there are bits and pieces of everything. Now unless you're a mechanic, or someone who knows a car in and out, then you would be like, "oh ceehh, small thing only! It can be fixed!!" ..;) 

Weird, I haven't really found any suitable mechanic who knows exactly what is wrong with me and is willing to fix it. Its either, they know what's wrong and that's why they leave. Or it could be they don't know what's wrong but is still trying their best..but they're getting no where. Or a mechanic who knows what's wrong but they're busy with other cars. The one true mechanic, is the one that never gives up, no matter how much nonsense you give him.

Lol, wow. did I just compare myself with a car and mechanic? Why can't I just stick with homo sapiens. err.. hehe I know why. Course its too easy. ;)

The thing about life. If its too easy, you'd be bored. But because its hard, you get to go on a roller coaster ride. You don't know whats happening next, or who you're gonna meet! ..I mean, like why watch a movie if you know what's gonna happen or how its gonna end, rite?

And these sentences give me the courage to get through the rides. ;)

What if Your blessings come through raindrops?
What if Your healing comes through tears?
What if a thousand sleepless night are what it takes to know you're near?
What if trials on this life are your mercies in disguise?

 Lord, it just occurred to me.
Could it be possible that you're my mechanic? ;))
I mean. it fits You.. perfectly. hmm.

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

Your will be done.

Ok what is this feeling? Like seriously, its like something just sucked up everything and left you.. "blueekk!" ..sigh.. and I have this sudden need for cold chocolate. And yes chocolate indulgence. Probably its the one that can ease this uneasy-ness with in.

And and and.. ;((( I tengah emo again. lol.. but its not anything.. its just that. sigh..

Dear Lord,
I do not know what plans you have for me..
But I surrender these feeling unto Your hands..
If its meant to be..then so be it..
At least for once, I would know what its like..
To love and be loved..
If its not..then so be it too..
Just give me strength and the will to let go
You do know, I dislike it when you do this to me.
I assure you, I'm strong enough.
Much stronger than I can ever imagine too..
And You, should know that already. ;(
Its just..the thought of going through it..
Again and again..
Aint that nice.
But then again,
Your will be done, not mine.

Amen!! ..

Ok now I feel much better! ..
I shall go rape the refrigerator for some chocolates! ;)

Monday, September 12, 2011


Goodness gracious!!! ..its freeezziinngg in class C401 in UCSI! literally! ..;(((  it's like you're trapped in a fridge with no food! ..   ;(( And all you can do is await the angel of the death to welcome your presence soon! ..sighhh

Like seriously, why do they have to make it soooo freaking cold! ..sigh. Thank God I brought my scarf. Or else I might loose a finger or my nose will just drop off any moment. ;(

anyway, I have about 40 minutes left. What shall we talk about? Something intelligent or should I bore you with my not-so-interesting life? ..;p

Hmm.. So yesterday was sad day. The committee got re-elected. All new faces, some old. I didn't feel anything till I was writing the names of all our old committee on the board. I'm so used to it, since I'm the secretary and know each one their spelling by heart! But it hit me like a "bang!". I was like, what if I can't get long with the new ones, what if they think I'm weird.. I mean I am weird, but the old committee didn't treat me different. Or what if I decide to jump off the building? LOL. ..ok that just came out. But I guess, at the end of it, if your heart is at the right place, if you are doing it for God, then nothing can possibly go wrong.

It didnt stop there. After that, glynn removed the old committee from being admins in FB. I felt it there again. It was like this kinda weird feeling, like something is so wrong somewhere. And you're afraid. Just so afraid. Probably because all this time, I've been the one that need help. Now that I have to help the rest, and you know sorta be like the senior, I don't know if I'm capable of that. ;(

And last night, while sending Helena away, I swear it was one of the best nights ever. I've never felt such joy, such friendship, such love, such laughter..and I know it aint replaceable. It was the perfect ending giving to a rainy day. Then it hit me. You cannot always get what you want. Sometimes you have to give way, for something else. For something that will surely make you a better and stronger a person. Because if such things never happened, you will always remain where you are from the beginning. Stagnant. Not moving forward. We need changes. Whether we like it or not, we need changes. And that is what makes life so interesting! .;)

Oh well, like Fred said, all good things must come to an end. But then it aint over. Like Glynn said, its beginning of friends. Hopefully forever.

Ok done emo-ing ;) lets talk about something interesting.

Err, my lecturer just walked in. ;)

Have I told you about him? I think's he's great. Not because he elected me as the class rep. But really, his style might be a bit boring and unorganized, but I think anyone who can make me laugh, is great. hmm, but then again, I laugh for everything. err. but he's great la..;)

Ok better stop, he started coughing already..;p

Erm, I have something else to say. But guess will have to save it later. Or maybe I won't even say it. Because sometimes there aint  no words that can truly reflect on what your inner being wants to say.

But then again,

Its better to say to much, than never to say what you need to say again.

Yes, I know. I way waaayy complicated for anyone to comprehend. ;(

Saturday, September 10, 2011

You don't need a guy. ;)

Gosh.. this is so weird. changed their whole layout and I'm so extremely blurr on where in the world should I go to create a new post. Yes after clicking every possible link and button on the screen I finally ended up here! ..Alleluaia! ;)

 Speaking of changes.. You know, they always say, "People change."..Honestly, I don't think so. I think the situation changes. Hence, people change to adapt to it. But in truth, they are who they were deep down. Erm. Ok I think I'm already crapping. Will stop now.

 Anyway...I attended my first Saturday class today. I was lucky enough to get the car, hopefully every Saturday God will have mercy on me and let me use the car ;) And goodness gracious. IMA is sigh.. is probably the most difficult subject I'm ever going to do. Yes a lot more harder than MLE. Then again, I will be learning a lot too. ;D yes, you are actually, for once in your life time, witnessing Juan's eagerness is learning..;p hehhe.. but honestly, this is soo cool! ..We get to learn about video editing, audio editing, creating websites without codes, posting it to the network! ..and a lot more of other cool stuffs! ..How awesome is that?! ..;))))) And by the end of this year..woot woot.. I'd probably be no-more technology illiterate. ;)

 Ok, enough of studies. But not bad, I manage a paragraph without sulking..;p

 Anyway, I finally made myself say that I do not need a guy to complete my life. ;) Yes, I couldn't believe it either. So did my sister and Jacynta...these people know me in and out. Lol..I realize that there is never a point in my life where my mind and heart was totally free. Never a point where I was not in the chains of a guy. Never a point where I was happy cause I didn't have anyone permanent by my side. There is always someone. Though I was single in person, but not single inside. Everytime I meet Sam, I'll start off with, "Samm.. there's this guy.." I don't know how many stories she's heard. Sigh. I can't help it. I fall easily. Very easily.

 So last night, while chatting with a friend of mine, I realize, goodness gracious.. how dumb I was before? ..I mean, I may appear dumber, but seriously, You know what it means to be a woman? To be a woman to walk down the road, with your head held high, wrapped in confidence, armed with courage, sealed with independence, showered with tenderness, glowing with sincerity, clothed with a smile, masked with your one true self and no matter what the world says, you keep that gorgeous smile and keep on moving forward. And God, your beautiful!! So amazing. You do not need a guy to tell you that. You obviously don't need a guy to make you feel like you can't find anyone else besides him, or make you feel unwanted or even unworthy. Nope you don't need a guy to complete you. ;)

 Of course, that doesn't mean you must not have a guy. Just please, don't feel down, if you don't have one. ;) I don't have one. I don't know if at all I will have one. But hey, it doesn't really matter.

 Cehh wahh.. I talk only.. next post I'd probably gonna start emo-ing. But well hopefully this last. The feeling is rather amazing. ;)

Thursday, September 8, 2011

To EYC 2010/2011

So this is the long awaited  committee post..and because I promised my dearest Amanda tonight.. hence it will be tonight then ;)

So two years ago, I don't know how and why..but I got elected as the secretary for the English youth group.. But I tell you one thing, it was all God's plan ;) Genius isn't He? It was like pieces of jigsaw puzzle from all corners.. deliberately put together to complete the picture! ;) And you know what? They fitted each other perfectly.. so perfect that the picture created was irreplaceable ;)

So let's start with the first piece ;) Ok usually I'll put up pictures of each.. but I'm extremely tired! ..;( So hopefully the words are enough to paint the picture..

Alfred Netto ;)
So Alfred.. hmm.. alfred, I thought he was funny, at first. Truth is.. he is funny. lol..ok let's get serious. Alfred was somehow chosen to be my angel..;), every time we played the "angel and mortal" game. He's sort of the party starter. If he's not there, probably the whole event will be less quieter, funner and of cause..less meaner. ;p ..But seriously, I somehow envy the friendship he has with my sister. Its like Tom and Jerry. They fight but then they click very well too.  Alfred may look like a clown and he teases all the time.. but he's the kinda friend you wish you had..;)

Hmm.. ok who's next..err
Alvinn!! ;) Alvin Netto..
Hmm, I've been friends with Alvin for 2 years already. I remember that he specifically messaged me to ask aunty that he would be placed in the same class with me while teaching catechism. hehe  ;) He is the photocopy of his brother. In looks only. But totally different inside. Its like day and night. Alvin is sort of mysterious, very mysterious.. like if you want to earn his trust.. it will take a very very long time ;).. One thing's for sure..he's an awesome friend! Very caring, very affectionate ;) He's the one person who never gotten mad at me so far....rerm Except the part where he hit my eyes with the shuttle and also made me run into the tyres while go-karting. lol.. other than that, you can trust him with his life.. and he will keep it safely for you ;)

Next piece.. is
Glynn wong! ;)
Honestly, I love saying her name.. you get to go like, "GLYYYYNNNN!!" .;) but please.. please don't ever mess with her. Or trust me.. she wouldn't mind ramming you over with the car..or put an axe on your throat! ..heheheh..kidding kidding! ..But take my advice la.. just dont mess with her k ; strict as she seems.. deep down she's this sweet girl who hides her feeling with her smile ;) I stalk her tumblr a lot. hehe.. thats how I found out..;p I admire her though. Because she's a 100 times stronger than she appears to be. She is studying the same uni with me..and the same course! ;) So once, she gave me a ride back home.. and I made sure I was there on time. Glynn marah means gone k! ..;p But yes, she's very responsible, very organized. Our Ah Long ;) None can replace you glynn! ;)

OH weeee!!
Christina Abigail!
Gosh.. I've known her for ages k.. I remember the first time I got close with here was in the bus to klang! ..Lol.. we just clicked instantly. As time goes by, we went out for dates..;p and lunches..and could talk for hours. This girl can charm you with her smile and giggles..and you can just melt over and over again! She never says no and her wake up calls are AWESOME! ....But trust me, I know the things she's been through. I know it all. Lately, she aint doing that great. I just want her to know that, sometimes things get rough. But remember, it doesnt rain forever..the sun will have to come up someday ;)

Moving on
Freddie Wee!! ;)
Goodness, have you heard him laugh? He and Amanda? ..its like 45% and another 45% percent..and all the rest are only 10% wait..I forgot Tracy. lol..Anyway, hmm.. The thing about Freddie is that he doesn't wear a mask. If he doesn't like you..or he's angry wit me, you will know! ..That's one thing I admire.  And oh, if you are meeting him, please please go on time. He dislikes not being punctual. The whole committee always kena because of this. And oh, he is also in the music ministry. One hell of a talented guy.. Would be a great help in the choir. But oh well, God has greater plan for in with flowers! ;) hehe..and  Back to his laugh. I tell you, I'm sure about 90% that the laugh was transferred from Freddie and Amanda to me k. That's why my laugh is becoming weirder day by day..;p

Since, I mentioned about Amanda..
Let's move on to Miss Amanda Quah!! ..*the crowd goes weeeeee* ..;p
Hheehehe. So where shall i start? Her laughter? Her randomness? Her dumb blonde moments? Her prone-to-accidents? Her musical soul? or the Amanda whos an addict to One Three Hill? Lol.. trust me, I can go on and on with her. She's like Doraemon. LOL..dont know why..but I know she prefers sponge bob.. but why Doraemon.. its cause she may appear to be simple, smiley face, serene and calm. But trust me, there is a lot of interesting stuffs inside her, that you just cant missed. And that is what makes Amanda, Amanda ;)) She never fails to brighten my day..everything I look at her. just with her smile.. she quietly says, "There's hope..there's always hope!" ...You're missing out something AWESOME! ..if you didnt meet Amanda Quah Yu-LI! ;)

Next is..
Gosh, he is like a little brother I've always wanted. ..;p but then of cause, he always appear to be more adult-ly behaved..unlike me.. who runs around like a 5 year old craving for ice-cream. Lol..but seriously, there;s something about Shaun that makes me go, "SHHHAAAUUNN!!" ..its weird I know. Its not the same effect but different. I have to admit..I don't really know in never really spoken with him eye to eye and ear to ear. But I think I can tell, he's a good guy. And yes, I have a very bad judgement on guys.. but this I can tell you honestly, he's not the type who goes around breaking girls heart. and oh ... he plays guitar! ;)) nothing else beats a guy who plays guitar! ..hehehe..

Next is Pamela Ann! ;)
Hmm.. Honestly, I don't click with many. Like I said, my personality is such, that I;m more introverted. Very shy in a big crowd or to someone I hardly know. But somehow Pam and me, are different. My sister and Pam could go on ages talking and talking non-stop. like NON-STOP! ..and then I found out why. Once Pam and me went for a drink after morning mass. and wow! just wow k! ..We just clicked! Talk and talk for hours. Family, relationships.. everything! ..So I don't blame my sis k/ Pam is like a magnet. You try talking to her and you will know how I feel ;)

And oh vivi!! like Alfred called, VIVI! ;)
Ducky ;) lol.. I didnt realize it at first, but my sis somehow planted it in my mind. Vivian's a replica of a duck! sorry vivi. Anyway, vivian has the same effect on Pam had. ;) She will go like "JUUAUAAANNN!" I remember her voice and her pitch ;) .. We use to play badminton.. and thats how i got closer to vivian. Gosh, she loves to read! ..And so do I!! ..ehehhee.. we made a good team in taking care of the CCC's! ..weeee!! vivian!

Next is Helena!
Hmm.. helena.. She's leaving us in a few days time. siggghh. I've known her for ages. like AGES! school, catechism. I like her most for one reason. Her height of cause. lol..cause you feel like there's an angel..always watching over you kinda thing. But honestly I like her, because she respects other people secrets. You can trust her with yours..and she wouldn't breathe a word. I was like, "wow!" ..its glad to know, this kinda friend still exist. I'm gonna miss her..that she will not bumping into me in KTM already. Sigh,..but oh well, I know she'll do well, where she is. She can survive, not just because she's tall..hehe.. but because she never gives up ;)

Tracccyyy! ;)
Hmmm.. I've never had a real conversation with tracy will like last week. Where everyone ditched us all alone in the car. LOL..;p ;p ..I admire her. For her independence. If I was at her age, with these responsibilities.. sigh.. I would be double crazier than I am now. But she's not. She's a working woman, and a lawyer too be! ..;)) I learnt a lot from her. That when the storm hits, you got to keep on going. That's life ;)

And Lastly, Anne Michelle
Hmm, I don't know her that well, but I remember talking to her endlessly in the car, while going for Sky trek! ..I know her ahemm-ahemm Jeremy. Since, he's there, so I get to see her too! ..The first time I saw her I was like "Annneee!" ..and I hugged her. It was like finding a missing family member. Irreplaceable. ;)

I'm forgetting someone.. lol yes..its Christine Maryanna..;)
Err... she's erm.. she is my sister. I got nothing else to say. Okthxbye! sigh. lol. ok ok.. fine. Erm. Honestly, if you were to ask me, "who's my role model?" ..It is my sister..;) Because I'd don't know what I'd do without her. Somehow, she makes everything seem so easy, so happy, so her. ;) And I'm sure you all are aware of me and my emo-ness. She has been there through it all. She saw me crying like I never had before and the best thing is.. she didn't say anything. She just hugged me. It was more than enough. As much as she is annoying.. and I'm sure you have received random messages from me saying "I love Barney" or "I'm stupid" ..Its all her. Nevertheless, I'm not saying this because she is my sister, but because I think she is partly why we committee are so strong together. Trima Kasih.

Now that I am done, just one thing left.

Dear Lord, please bless all those I've mentioned above. Then mean a lot too me. They are one of the reason, that I am who I am today. Guide them in everything they do and lead them in Your way. May they always remember that it is Your will be done, now and forever. Let them also never forget that You will always be there through it all! ..

Please bless the new and upcoming committee. Show them your way in building your kingdom. Make they work for Your glory and only your glory. Amen
Pheewww.. that was a long post;)
Nite everyone!

Tuesday, September 6, 2011

So-called 50 truths! ;)

Hey there.. errr.. no I'm not really in a mood to blog.. but I found this tags in one of the blogs I visited. So lets get off my mind together-gether k? ;)

Are you ready to answer these questions honestly even if it starts to get hard? 
~Oh year baby! ..Bring it on! ;D
You never know what you got until you lose it? True or false? 
~I doubt you will ever find a person who disagrees with that.. so yeah.. true.
Wallpaper on your phone? 
~Roses! ..Everytime I look at them.. they kinda give me hope ;)
What is the last thing you drank today? 
~Water!! ..the best drink on earth! ;)
Where would I have found you last night at 11pm? 
~That's easy, was at Alfred's, watching "Sleepers"..damm good movie.. and eating honey stars! ;)
Who was the last person to say 'love you' to you? 
~Maureen Alma! ..The sweetest human on earth! ;))
Do you care what people think of you? 
~As much as I would love to disagree.. but yes, sometimes it does bothers me ;(
Do you dislike anyone at this moment in time? 
~I try my best to see the good in everyone. Hating/disliking is not very healthy you know. ;(
Any up coming events you're excited about? 
~Erm. So far nothing to look forward too! ;(
What's your plans for next friday? 
~Friday friday. Erm oh weeeee!! no class! ;)) I'm free for dates.. anyone interested? ..;p

Ever liked someone who was married? 
~Lol, nnaahhh... not my type. ;)
Have you ever eaten a live fish? 
~Wooowwww... I salute those who do. And nope, I dont. Wouldnt love to try it either. ;p
Who is your last text from and what does it say?
~From James.. asking where did we go for car-racing? ..sigh. some people never give up!
Are you texting anybody? 
~Nope. Not in the mood also ;(
Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to? 
~I use too.. but then I ruined it by falling for him ;(
Was it a boy or a girl to text you first today?
~It was my mom! ;)) saying Father Peter will be coming over today, and that we have to be in our best behaviors!
Who was the last person you talked to on the phone & what did you talk about? 
~The last call was actually a miss call from an unknown number. Oh well, on second thought, the last person was Shin Wen. I was asking her about UCSI's scholarship! ;)
Do you curse in front of your parents? 
~err.. nope. They'd probably disowned me! ;(
Who pissed you off yesterday? 
~Yesterday. erm.. I forgot what happen yesterday. ;( Yes Im sad, just like that.
Does anyone hate you?
~I don't know. Does anyone out there hate me? ..Oh well, its mind over matter. I don't mind and you dont matter! ;)

Who was the last person that could tell something was wrong with you? 
~No one noticed. I'm pretty good in hiding! :)
Ever cheated on someone who was cheating on you? 
~I'm not in for games. 
Have you ever felt replaced? 
~Yeap. Most of the time. sigh..
Are you open about your feelings or closed off? 
~Errr.. I think I tend to wear my heart on my sleeves.. if I want the feelings to be out. But if its too painful, I'll just carry it myself ;)
Think a lot before you fall asleep?
~Who doesnt? ;(
What were you doing at 4am? 
~Sleeping ady! ..Had to get up early the next day. 
Are you a jealous person? 
~Yeap. But then I realized its rather immature. So I wash it away. 
Do you like to sleep?
~Used too. Now I'm just..oh well.. too afraid I guess.
How many tattoos do you have?
~Tak ada yo! ..;)
How many piercings do you have? 
~One on each ear. Tried more, but they closed! ..;(

Last movie you saw in theaters? 
~Cars 2! ..Erm.. it was oookkaaayy!
What are you doing right now? 
~This, tweet, FB ;) lifeless.. i know ;(
Do you wish you were somewhere else right now? 
~Erm. I honestly dont know what I want. ;(
What did you do yesterday? 
~Church, meeting, lunch, nap, movie, online sleep.
What are your favorite colour(s)? 
~Purple, black, pink.. yes I think I'm starting to like pink ;)
How tall are you? 
~You dont wanna know. Even I dont wanna know. I think I'm growing shorter day by day.
Are you happy right now? 
~Trying too ;(
Are you ever paranoid when someone doesn't message you back for a while? 
~That depends on who.
Why aren't you dating the last person who you texted? 
~Errrr... that question is not legal la k! .. nonsense!
Do you honestly have feelings for someone at the moment? 
~Errr.. I wish I didn't. But I happen to be human. So I cant help it. 

Is there anything upsetting you? 
~Yeap, like hello.. there are like over a zillion girls in planet earth. Why in the world was I chosen?!
Do you sing in the car? 
~How not too??
Do you wear shoes in your house or take them off?
~Off la.. Malaysian eh! ;)
When you watch movies at home, do you like the lights on or off? 
~OFFFF!! ..awesome! ;))
What do you do when something's wrong? 
~OMG!!! how now?! ..;( ..*yeap the drama starts* ..;p
What did you even do today? 
~Erm. Classes. thats it.
Whαt ruined your dαy todαy? 
~LOL! ..errr.. its a little complicated. Or not. I just dont wanna say it! ..;(
Whαt do you heαr αt this moment? 
~Air-cond and speakers!
Reαdy for winter to come? 
~Yeap, been ready forever. but I dont think its coming anything soon or forever.
What αre you weαring right now? 
~Pj's! ;)

Have you ever liked someone you didn't expect to? 
Are you missing someone right now? 
~I wish I didnt.
Hαve you cried this week αt αll? 
Are there some songs you cαn't listen to becαuse they remind you of someone? 
~Its not that i cant listen too. Infact I listen to it again and again.
Whαt αre you doing tonight? 
~Sleep. Hoping not to dream.
Wαnt someone bαck in your life? 
~Nope. If its fated, then so be it. There's always a reason.
Hαs αnyone disαppointed/upset you recently?
~Yup yup!
Hαs αnyone put their αrms αround you in the pαst 5 days? 
~Yesssshh! ..So many! ;))))))
Where were you αt 7:17 PM lαst night?  
~Trying to upload the youth video with my sis.
Hαve you ever kissed someone that was just α friend? 
~Yup! ;)

If you found out your friend wαs smoking weed, would you be disappointed
~Yes, very very very!
Do you look people in the eye when you tαlk to them? 
~Not if I tend to get lost in their eyes..
Do you get drunk every weekend? 
~Err.. nope! hardly. ;)
Is the last person you texted attractive? 
~Hahahaahaha.. I think everyone is attractive in their own way ;)
What are you most excited for right now?
~err.. honestly nothing.
Do you ever keep arguing when you know you're wrong? 
~All the time. Daammm ego maaann! ;(
How did you get your last bruise? 
What is the latest you've stayed up in the past week? 
~erm.. up till 5.30am! ;)
Last time you went swimming? 
~Like ages ago! ...not into swimming though.
Have you kissed someone who smokes weed? 
~Thank God, no!

Do you listen to your friends when they tell you a boy or girl is bad for you?
~Yes, but I have my own opinion as well ;)
Do you like lightning? 
~No, they make everything seem so scary.
How many people do you know of name Adam? 
~errm.. none that I know off..
Is your current hair colour mostly your natural hair colour? 
~Yup it is! ..All the redness faded. Now its charcoal black!
What’s on your bedroom floor right now? 
~The floor mat. err.. my mom doesnt like things on the floor hehe..
Would you rather be mad or sad? 
~Why would you ask such question? lol.. mad i guess.
Are your parents strict? 
~Ok ok la.. pretty balanced ;)
What’s something that someone can do that really bothers you? 
~Erm. Fakeness! 
Did you ever want to change your name when you were younger? 
~HAHAHA.. all the time. have you seen my name? But once I found out it carries the meaning of "God's gracious pearl.." ..I loved it! ;)

What are you freakishly obsessed with? 
~Errr.. food?
Are you named after a family member? 
~Nope..its original. bet you cant find anyone with my name. ;)
Last restaurant you went to? 
~YIP SHENG! chinese! :)
What does your phone do when it receives a new text? 
~err..the message tone? seriously? you're asking this? lol
Who is the next person you will kiss? 
~I don;t know.. it just happens.
Have you ever passed out on the bathroom floor? 
~I dont think i have ever passed out! hehe
Ever kissed in the rain?  
~sadly no!
This time last year, can you remember who you liked? 
~Yes. very well.

Does anybody have a tattoo with your name on it? 
~Lol..I doubt..
Where will you be 2 hours from now? 
Do you want things to change right now? 
~Yes. so badly!
Do you laugh? 
~so much..that they say my laugh is getting weirder day by day.
Does your latest ex piss you off? 
~Nope, not anymore ;)
Is your life the same as it was a year ago? 
~Oh crap. You just reminded me. Yes it is the same.
Who's in the room with you? 
~The sister and the cousin.
If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you? 
~err.. that they like me and stop messing around?
Have you kissed the same person more than 20 times in 2010? 
Were you happy last October? 
~Nope. not happy. I remember very well.

Was '09 a good year for you? 
~Definitely not. Gosh. I'm a sad child.
Who was your first text message from for the new year? 
~wth.. who remembers?
Do you look decent when you wake up? 
~Erm.. is sexy decent? ..;p
If there were no letters on the keys on your keyboard could you still type? 
~lol.. i dont know.. weird questions.
Does the feeling of christmas time make you happy? 
Do you wear more t-shirts or dressy shirts? 
~errm.. a balance of both i think.
Ever kissed someone whose name starts with a 'T'? 
~err.. nope.
Does it matter if your bf/gf smokes? 
~It kinda does.
Have you ever had your heart broken? 
~What you think? ;)

Do you have any weird inside jokes? 
~More like lame ones. ;)
When was the last time you wanted to punch someone in the face? 
~Err.. I punched my sis once. The feeling never returned since then.
Have you ever had an Oreo with peanut butter?
~They have that? ..awwwhh would love to try! :)
Your ex calls you to tell you they hate you, what would you say? 
~God bless you always! ;)
Would you rather kiss the last person you kissed or the second last? ....
Have you ever kissed someone with braces?
Should gay couples be allowed to adopt? 
~erm. I havent really thought about that.
Should they be allowed to marry? 
~Or this too.
Do you want to get married? 
Do you eat breakfast daily? 

How old do you think you'll be when you have kids? 
~Err.. early 30's or late 20's? ;)
Have you ever liked someone older than you? 
~Yeapp ;)
Can you honestly say that things are running smoothly for you? 
~hahaha..naahh.. but if you ask me to write it out, i can! ;)
Can you sleep without blankets covering you? 
~Can't.. I feel naked .;p
Where's the last place you went besides your house? 
~UCSI University.
Are your eyes the same colour as your dad's? 
~Nope..mine is  dark brown. his is sligthly grey-ish
Do you have to sleep with a television on? 
~Nope..jimat electricity k!
What were you doing 12AM last night? 
~On the way back home.
Has anyone ever sang to you? 
~erm.. not really.. but my date played the guitar for me on stage! ..;)))
Does it make you mad when people stare at you? 
~Err..not really.. why waste energy? Just enjoy the attention ;)

Have you ever had a really big fight with a best friend? 
~Yess.. regretted every second of it.
Do you wear your hood on your hoodie? 
~Err..i wear a hood. whats a hood on your hoodie? ..weird.
Are you the youngest person living in your house? 
~I used to be. Then my cousins arrived.. I got replaced ;)
Gummy bears or gummy worms? 
~Gummy bears!!! ;))
Is there someone who meant a lot to you at one point, and isn't around now? 
~Yesh. ;((
Has anyone ever told you that they wanted to be with you forever? 
~Yes. it was magical. but then they took it back..and im back to square one.
Would you rather get rid of autumn or spring? 
~Errr.. I kinda have something for autumn. I dont know why. But I wouldnt get rid of any.. ;)

OMG! ..I don't know why I started this. I'm just glad its over. I salute, if you finish reading it till the end. And please dont mind my emo-ness. It happens. Just give me some time. I'll be back to rock your world!

P/S Freddie and Amanda.. please be patient for the committee post ya.. I have to be in the right state of mind! :) heheh