because I can't say what I wanna say..

Weird, I still have my connections.. and yes thank God..I still do..;)

Firstly, yes my exams are finally over today.. I couldn't be bothered about it though.. I didn't know what I studied.. I mean yes, I say that all the time.. but honestly, this time, I mean it.. I was even thinking of sitting for supplimentary paper.. sighh.. but I sat for it anyway..

 I looked through the examination hall.. filled with students eagerly sitting for their paper.. I looked at mine.. with all the strength I had in me.. I opened it, stared at the questions.. some looked familiar.. the others, I know I should have studied it.. but really its probably the first time in my life, I was honestly not prepared at all.. and it didnt bug me any bit..;((

The pass few days has been darn weird to me.. Something bothered me so much.. something was so wrong somewhere.. something was clearly messing me up.. and you know something, for once in my life time.. I knew why..;)

And if I myself feel like this.. how much more will they feel??

Sighh..

Really, I cant say much to entertain you guys now or any so-called words of wisdom.. but I do have so many things to say.. and John Mayer's lyrics pierced right through..

"Even if your hands are shaking..

And your faith is broken..

Even if your eyes are closing..

Do it with a heart wide open..

Just say what you need to say.."

Nope, I still can't.. ;(

But when I have found myself again.. and when I have removed this uneasy feeling within me, ..I will come back and say what I want to say alright..

Lord,
I'm not quite sure how to say it here.. but you know my unconfessed secrets.. you know my unspoken prayesr..you know my heart and everything that dwells within it.. I lift it up to you Lord..

to alex

I don't know why I still have my connection.. anyway if you can't find me in FB its because I deactivated my account.. but I thank God I still have my conenction now to post this up..;)

And this is the second most shocking news I've received in the two weeks.. sighh.. I'm not sure if you know my friend, Alexzander Johnson.. oh well, if you don't, you really should get to know him.. ;)

He lost his dad today.. ;( ;(  when I heard it, i felt a lump in my throat.. a lump that is still there till now.. the food tasted like paper.. I couldn't get my self to smile or talk to anyone.. My mind was all over the place..

I didn't even dare call him.. ;( I wouldn't know what to say..

Just incase, you didn't know alex..
He's the kinda person who would go out the world to help you..
He's like the pillar of strength that keeps you going, when you're down..
He's the friend that will walk with you through the storm, if he finds you there alone..
He puts a smile on you face even if you're facing the worst moments of your life..
He makes you forget your problems..and brings back your faith to God..
He whispers words that you never knew existed.. and there, your alive again..;)
He's probably the most sweetest friend anyone could have..

But then now, the pillar itself is hit! ..siggghhh

Hmm.. I'm bad at dealing with death! but this is for you my friend..

Dear Alex,
I feel like I've known you all my life.. and yes you taught me a lot of life.. Indirectly you played a big role in my life for the past 4 years that I've known you.. I just want you to know, that you shine up my life like the brightest star ever existed.. and it hurts me bad enough to know that, that star is currently losing its brightness..

If I had the chance to meet your dad, I would have thanked for bringing you into this world. He fought a good fight.. but God loves him more that he couldn't bare to see him suffering.. Your dad, is with Jesus now.. where else could be a better place? Physically he has left this earth.. but spiritually, he is always with you.. He doesn't wanna see his only son losing its brightness now.. He has a lot of faith in you.. and just because his not here with you to finish the race.. doesn't mean you have to stop.. He wants to you carry on, just like he did.. and he is very much proud of you, just as we all are..;)

Yes its hard, and I have no idea how it feels.. but like I've told every other person in this world.. You are never alone in this world alrite? God is always by your side.. and so are we.. Keep on going and stay strong!!
We are here with you..always..

Love ya! ..hugsss!!

And this is what God is telling you..

And I'll be by your side

Wherever you fall

In the dead of night

Whenever you call

And please don't fight

These hands that are holding you

My hands are holding you

Lifeless..;p

Ok I know my previous post suppose to be the last..but I'm feeling so bored and lifeless..and not in my studying mood yet for my last paper next week.. will start tonite k! ..I promise..;) and I still can go online till tonite.. so since this is my so-called last post.. allow me to enlighten you about my life,,,at this moment..;p ;p

Ok ok..i found this on my friends blog.. and why not rite?

A - AVAILABLE:..technically yes..but the heart isn't ..lol once I clear it, I'll let you know aite! ..;p
B - BIRTHDAY: ...15th June.. presents pleaseee!! ..;p ;p
C - CRUSHING ON : errmm..for now its CHANNING TATUM! ..;p ;p
D - DRINK YOU LAST HAD:..water...;)
E - EASIEST PERSON TO TALK TO:  hmm..ok this is tough.. but it should be my sister.. lol
F - FAVORITE SONG: ...oh please dont get there.. i have a whole book of it! ..;p
G - GUMMY BEARS OR GUMMY WORMS: Gummy bears!!!
H - HOMETOWN:   KAJANGGGG!! ..XD
I - IN LOVE WITH: woot woott!! ..sensitive question.. ;p ;p
J - JUGGLE: oh well, i should probably stop acting like a clown..and yes i juggle with 2 balls...;)
K - KILLED SOMEONE: if you include ants and mosquitoes..then yes..;p
L - LONGEST CAR RIDE: erm to grandma's place, johore! ..;)
M- MILKSHAKE FLAVOR: Oreo with chocolates!! ..;)
N - NUMBER OF SIBLINGS: 2...wish i had MOREE..
O - ONE WISH: ......to live a life according to Jesus! ..
P - PERSON YOU CALLED LAST: the sister...
R- REASON TO SMILE: ...that I'm breathing and all alive..;)
S - SONG YOU LAST HEARD: what the hell ~avril lavigne~
T - TIME YOU WOKE UP:11am!! ..heheh slept late last nite k!
V - VEGETABLE(S): Broccoli, tomatoes*if its a vege*, the red spinach..
W - WORST HABIT: carried away with crapping..;p ;p
X - X-RAYS YOU'VE HAD: chest..
Y – YOYOS ARE: attached with a long string that somehow doesnt seem like a yo-yo when I play it! ..;(
Z - ZODIAC SIGN: GEMINI!!

Random Questions About You:
Spell your name without vowels: JN MRGRT...wakakakaaka..hehehe
What color do you wear most? : Black, pink, white.. lol
What are you listening to? : Kissing you..miranda consgrove
Are you happy with your life right now? : I should be...;(
What is your favorite class in school/college? : I love Expository Writing..in my first sem! ;)
Are you outgoing? : when im in the mood, with the right company! ..;)
Favorite pair of shoes? :wedges..but since i sprained my ankle ..so its flats now..;(
Where do you wish you were right now? :  hmmm...above the sky, touching the stars..;p ;p

THE CANS:
Can you dance? : hahaaha..erm.. occasionally..;p
Can you tie a cherry stem with your mouth? : whhhattt?? lol.. i doubt! ..
Can you whistle? :..nooo!! somethiing that im sure to learn before i leave this earth..
Write with both hands? :I tried.. but its not really working..grrr
Walk with your toes curled: nope again.. gee, i dislike the questions here..lol

THE DO'S:
Do you believe there is life on other planets?:  errrmm.. i guess
Do you believe in miracles?: YESSS!!
Do you believe in magic?: Not really.. its actually tricks you've never thought about that others did! ..XD
Love at first sight?:...erm not love, maybe its crushes at first sight..hehe
Do you think there's a Satan: yeapp..
Do you believe in Santa?:..i believe in st nicholas!
Do you know how to swim?:I just flap my hands and legs.. and i tend to move forward.. lol i swin a lil i guess! ..XD
Do you think you could handle the stuff they eat on those reality shows :...I might..but then again, it depends on the reward..;p

THE HAVES:
Have you ever been on a plane?: yeapp..
Have you ever asked someone out?:lol...i guess..;p ;p
Have you ever been asked out by someone?:haha..yess..;p ;p
Have you ever been to the ocean?: erm..to the sea and beach..not oceans..
Have you ever painted your nails? : yup, i have!

THE WHATS:
What is the temperature outside? : what, you think i carry a thermometer with me all the time? ..;p
What radio station do you listen to? : FLY, MIX, RED
What was the last restaurant you ate at?: Ben's in pavilllion..;)
What was the last thing you bought?:erm.. chicken rice for lunch! hehe
Who was the last person you took a picture of?: erm..myself! ..XD

CRYING SECTION:
Ever really cried your heart out? : i didn't know what else to do..hehe
Ever cried yourself to sleep?:....it has medicational treatment k..;p
Ever cried on your friend's shoulder? : yeaaapp sighhh
Ever cried over the opposite sex?:hahahaha.. i hate to admit.. but yeah..
Do you cry when you get an injury? :I try not to.. gee i cry a lot! ..grrr

HAPPY SECTION.
Are you a happy person? :I try to be..
What can make you happy? : God, family, friends, movies, swings, musics, blogging...;)
Do you wish you were happier? : Yes..
Can music make you happy? : yeappp...

LOVE SECTION.
How many times have you had your heart broken? : oh you don't wanna know! ..lost count ady! ..;p ;p
Have you ever loved someone so much that you'd die for them? : well i would have..but they missed it! ..hehe

LOOK AT ME.
What is your current hair color?: black.like charcoal black! ..;p ;p
Current piercings?:ears...
Have any tattoos?:..nope, would love to get one though..lol
Eye color?: errr..dark brown, close to black..;)

IN A GIRL/GUY
Favorite eye color:  hmm..doesn't really matter, as long as it has that magnetic effect! ..hehehe
Short or long hair: Short...erm..
Height: Taller than me..XD
Best clothing: errr..if you really want me to answer, its black suit, tux, tie..lol.. but it doesnt really matter i guess..;p

HAVE YOU EVER.
Been to jail:..nope..
Mooned someone: lol...err no..
Thrown up in a store:errmm.. almost..;p
Done something really stupid that you still laugh at today : like A LOT!!

THIS OR THAT.
Pepsi or Coke: Coke...
McDonald's or Burger King: McD..
Single or Group Dates: errr..ok tough one.. but i should go with.. single dates..more romantic..;p ;p
Chocolate or Vanilla: if you combine both..they taste better!! ..;p
Strawberries or Blueberries: strawberries!! ..hehe
Meat or Veggies: MEAT!! !
TV or Movie: Movie!!
Guitar or Drums?:ohh crapp.. hmmm both!! surely both.. sigh.. maybe guitar slightly higher..lol
Adidas or Nike: Nike!!
Chinese or Mexican: mexican baby! ..see the name?? ..;p ;p
Cheerios or Corn Flakes: Corn Flakes...;)
Pie or Cake: both!...lol its food man, how can you resist?..;p

hehehe..yes lifeless..;p ;p

But before I leave..
"I guess I'd rather hurt than feel nothing at all.." ok thats pure bullshit k! ..lol.. who in the world likes to get hurt?? hehehe

one more..
"And I wonder if I ever crossed your mind.. for me it happens all the time!" ...hhehhe..ok this is true..

Ok last one, i promise!
"Cause its you and me..and all other people..and I don't know why.. i can't keep my eyes off you.."

Have a nice day then!

She needs a break

Ok, this is probably gonna be my last post ..why?? lol, cause I wont having my connection for the next one month!! =(

And yes I lost my blogging mood again.. dont ask why.. I never bothered finding the answer too.;p

Anyway..

Have a great day people! ..yes such a lame post I know.. but i cant do anything..;( My inspiration is gone.. yes literally gone.. I cant go after it.. I'm not allowed to anyway.. err ok, i'm crapping something..

Its just that aaiikkss.. nevermind

Truth is..

I want a hug. But not just a normal hug.. No!! I want one of those.. pick-me-up-off-my-feet..squeez-me-tight..spin-me-around..hurts-my-tummy..but-still-makes-me-smile..leaves-me-breathless..gives-me-butterflies..makes-me-giglge-stupidly-all-day-long..kinda hug!! ;p ;p

Ok that's from tumblr.. yes, daymm cute right??? ..hehehe.. i know i know! ..so you got me.. give me my hug, some chocolates, and we have deal! ..;p;p

err..yes im crapping again..

Gosh, I need a break from life..;p

To Sukbir

And so I spoke about losing someone dear to me..

But it sure hell feels almost the same, when you hear your friends dad passed away..;(

Yes, my dear friend Sukhbir's dad passed away today. When I received that message from Sam, I teared.. I teared because I couldn't believe it, because I remember him talking about his dad just the day before.. and because today he patted my head, like I was a puppy, and like a big brother he told me, "I wish I had a sister like you.." ;(

Sigh.. weird, we never know why does these things happen.. but we do know that there is always a reason.. whether you believe or not, there is always a reason.. and yes, we're never alone in this.. have never been alone.. will never be alone! God is always on our side! ..=)

Dear Sukhbir,
You're a great guy, a good friend..definitely the perfect brother.. Yes not all things go according to plan..but that is where your strength lies.. Your dad, must have been very proud of you, and he wants to see you go further in life..He wants you to be someone, and face life, just like he did! It is never easy, but that is what life is about.. to take courage and finish the race, no matter how strong the storm is or how high the mountain is.... Be strong! We are here for you!

Hugssss

A fragile heart

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!! One done, two more to go!!! ..can she do it??? ..she has too!! .she walked 22m above ground on a thin rope for 3 hours! ..oh yes anything is possible! ..lol

Ok, I'm sorry I'm so hyped-up today..adrenaline rush I guess, after all the brain excercising! hehehhe..

But then this song keep on running on my mind all day.. hmm

A fragile heart was broken before

I don't think it could endure another pain

But there's a voice from deep inside of you

That's calling out to make you realize

.....

And if I could, choose the world around me..

The world I'd choose would all revolve around you..

So help me complete the game inside me..

And help to mend my fragile heart..

Hmm.. weird, but well till tomorrow!

Nitez!

She's not in her right mind..;(

Hello,

Yes I would love to greet you with something else other than "hello"...but I'm not really in a good mood..;(

My granpa is throwing up everything he eats.. he does not have strength to walk hence he had a fall and got his nose bleeding.. My grandma couldn't get him to go to the car, so they had to call the ambulance..;((..He's alright now..but well, I've never really lost anyone that close to me.. I've never knew how it felt.. I've never even thought about it.. and I'm not planning too..anytime soon..

But I've been thinking, should I go back to Johore this April?? ..hmm..

And can someone please, inspire me to study? I mean yes the book is in front, opened at the right page.. but I can't get myself to read it.. I've already drew a flower,2 suns and a cloud on my slides.. I always loved drawing the sun.. Somehow it makes everything happy and bright.;). It getS a lot more exciting when you draw a smiley on the sun..;) The flower looked like a hexagon, so I decided not to continue with it.. I also drew this square grid.. then I coloured it like a chess board.. perhaps its to say, that life can't be all white..or all black.. it has to be black and white.. then its beautiful.. both ups and downs, happiness and sadness.. for without the sun or rain..there cant be a rainbow....;p

Oh myyy.. something is wrong with me right?? sigghh..but I can't help it..;((

 And on top of that... sighhh.. it got hit again.. grrr.. it damm well broke all logic, it damm well broke every wall ever built...

What?? lol.. don't ask me.. I just gave you an explanation about my drawing..and when that happens.. boy, you better not believe what ever I say.. I'm not in my right mind..;p ;p

"Don't ask why.. let's just feel what we feel.. cause sometimes, its the secret.. that keeps it alive.. "

The story about the cockroach

Ok the previous post was just to inform.. and now its time to blog..;)

and gosh whats with tumblr.. suddenly, titanic, the notebook and p/s I love you, is on the roll! ..lol.. weird..

Anyway,  I was studying marketing a while ago..when this huge, I repeat H.U.G.E hiddeous looking cockroach..appeared right at my side.. and yes, I screamed.. and screamed.. till my dad came running with a newspaper on his hands to hit it! ..my dad, my hero!! ..=)) ..

but seriously, I realized I'm almost 21 and please please tell me some of you still do scream your lungs out when you see cockroaches!!! ..;((( ...I mean come on, its a natural instinct!! ...its so eeehhwww-ish..so gross ok with that long moustache, and legs!!! ..and if its flyingg.. I tell you its war! ..lol.. how can you not scream..??;p ;p

And yes I do realize, that someday my dad is not going to be there when I scream.. He's not gonna be able to save his "little" girl from the EVIL cockroach.. and you got to learn to stand on your feet, face your fears by yourself...;(

But I remember my memorable day while I was staying in Sunway.. when this cockroach appeared while I was showering.. I obviously can't call my dad to come all the way from Kajang to kill it.. neither can I scream and ask help from my housemate who happens to be this cute russian dude..when I'm halfway shampoo-ing..  my hair..  I assure you, I could have died out of embarrassement.. lol.. but yes, I gathered all the courage I had and killed it with a broom! ..and when it was dead, gosh I was sooo daymm proud of myself..weeeeeee!! I called my mom and told her..;) lol..don't you think we ought to celebrate this joyous occasion? ..hehehe ;p ;p

But then when you're back home.. the fact that your dad will come running for your rescue.. and will always be there for you.. the fear of the cockroach crawls in back.. you take things for granted.. you refuse to stand on your own feet and face the gross little bug!!

So I finally grasped the meaning.. of why is it we loose our dear ones.. why do they leave this earth..  why do they leave us alone! .. Because we learn.. we learn to be independent, to be confident, to be stronger.. to face your fears..;) We learn that nothing is forever.. changes will happen.. that doesn't mean the race is over.. you just have to prepared for the next battle..;)))

So will I kill the next cockroach I see??! ..lol... I doubt.. not as long as my sister is with me.. she influence me alrite.. and yes, believe it or not she's an even scarier-pot than I am.. and shhhhh please don;t tell her I told you! ;p ;p ;p

And ohh, bella's lullaby/River's flow in you is breathtaking.. it can really put you to sleep..;)

Have a great day peeps!

Haggai 2:6

Dear Lord, another earthquake in Japan?? Why of why?! I never understood why..=(( but you got to take a look at this.. coincedence or whatever you wanna call it..

I received this mail sometime back..

"26" similar to Friday the 13th??
Superstition or coincidence?
Scary, isn't it?

The Hebraic numerical value of the Hebrew letters of God's Holy name: YHVH is 26! Something to think about! This matches your Haggai 2:6 reference perfectly! He is shaking the nations especially nations where pagan worship or worship of falsep gods is prevalent! In His mercy and grace He'll shake some to save many! Blessed be His Name! Shalom Aleychem!

Now take a look at this list.
Gujarat India earthquake 26 Jan 2001
The Rhodes earthquake 26 June 1926
Taiwan earthquake 26 April 2010
Japan earthquake 26 Feb 2010
NE Japan earthquake 26 May 2003
NE Japan earthquake 26 July 2003
North America earthquake 26 Jan 1700
Yugoslav earthquake 26 July 1963

Just got the following from Indonesia and I have translated them for you :

Aceh Tsunami 26 Dec 2004
Jogjakarta earthquake 26 May 2006
Tasik earthquake 26 June 2010
Mentawai Tsunami 26 Oct 2010
Merapi volcanic eruption 26 Oct 2010

OTHER HISTORICAL disasters:

Krakatau volcanic eruption 26 Aug 1883 ( 36,000 dead )
China earthquake 26 July 1976 ( 255,000 dead )
Portugal earthquake 26 Jan 1951 ( 30,000 dead )
Kansu , China earthquake 26 Dec 1932 ( 70,000 dead)
Turkey earthquake 26 Dec 1939 ( 41,000 dead )
Sabah Tidal waves 26 Dec 1996 ( 1,000 dead )
Bam , Iran earthquake 26 Dec 2003 ( 60,000 dead )


Why is it always " 26 " ?
Read Haggai 2:6 --- For thus says the Lord of hosts: "Once more (it is a little while) I will shake heaven and earth, the sea and dry land"

Shalom

Yes weird, What are you trying to tell us Lord?
Uh huh.. start praying.. who knows what country or disaster is next??

So maybe some shun away the existent of God..but well, it surely feels good to know that someone has your back..than to be in it alone..huh?

She's blind!! ..;p

Ok God knows what I studied.. but I studied! ..like for real.. ok yes, the headphone was plugged in, but I had no choice.. the house was wayyyy too noisy..=(

Anyway, incase you have nothing better to do, let me tell you my story..=) I shall warn you, if you have something important to do.. please do it first.. hehe.. yes, this post is not really worth your time.. its another dramatic day of mine..=)

It all started this morning..when I wore my contact lenses.. Then I went to the porch to dry the clothes, I was pretty amazed at how the human minds work, to sew the clothes perfectly as it fits every shapes and sizes.. or else, gosh we would be still stuck with coconut shells and leaves.. lol.. yes I know my brains are extra weird in the mornings..

So anyway, I felt a sudden sting in my eyes.. Usually this means I wore my lenses upside down.. So I went back in, and corrected it.. and NOPE, the sting was still there.. what else could go wrong?? ..grrr.. so I took it out again, sterile it with my solution and wore it back.. but yes. you guessed it, the damm sting was still there..;( ..

Frustrated, I took it out again.. but but.. THERE WAS ONLY HALF OF IT!! ... I swear, my eye balls almost came out.. I should have cut my nails cause my lenses tore!! =( but where was the other half of my lenses?? ...I searched all over my hands, body, clothes, the floor, the sink.. and nope.. NOTHING! ..I looked back at the mirror.. at these gorgeous eyes of mine with dark circles! ..lol..it can't be stuck in there, can it?!! .. but yes, I rolled my eyes in a 360 degree, took up my eye lid, searched down the eyes.. and nope.. it aint in there.. So i guessed it mush have dropped.. and so I opened a new lenses and wore it..

And this time, it was slightly better.. but something was soooo wrong somewhere.. like seriously.. But i had no choice.. I had to leave already..if KTM betrays me again.. sighhhh.. I hope to conduct a demonstration someday..;p ;p ..hehe

But yes, went for class...and on the way back.. hehehe.. you prepared for this? ..lol alrite! I didn't have lunch, didnt have the orange kancil, it was raining, had to walk to church to settle some stuffs for my sis, walked back to KTM, the umbrella decided to not open, bus took an hour to arrive.. and there I was, with my eyes still stinging.. hehehe..

Arrived home and grabbed a bowl of coco-crunch with milk.. and watched BIG BANG THEORY.. the damm eyes was still stinging.. so I took off  my lenses.. and it was still stinging.. =(( ..why oh why I wondered? ..then I decided to cry.. lol.. ok fine I thought of something.. and I cried.. well I wanted to cry to take away to sting too.. and nope, it didnt work..

And while bathing.. I was so very irritated, I rubbed my eyes.. and bloop.. something fell off! ..hehehe.. yes, the other half on my lenses.. and goodness! ..You know how dangerous is that? ..The sharp end of that lense could cut my cornea or pupil, and leave me blind!! ...sighhhhh

And after all the adventures today, I thank God that I CAN SEEE!! and that I didn't GO blind!! ... lol.. well somethings its the little things is life, that shows the biggest meaning! =)

So the moral of the story is... there is always a way to solve problems! ..no matter how hard it is, or how complicated, there is always a way.. and the secret is perseverance! ..and you can hold the world in your hands..

And yes, never forget to thank God, though its the most silliest thing on earth! ..

Walk on the water

Ok, I'm having the writer's block again.. its weird, you don't know when it comes.. or when its planing to leave.. sigh.. anyway, incase you're having a bad day.. listen to this song! ..you will be inspired..=)

Walk on the water ~Britt Nicole~

You look around and staring back at you

Another wave of doubt

Will it pull you under

You wonder

What if I'm overtaken

What if I never make it

What if no one's there

Will you hear my prayer?

When you take that first step

Into the unknown

You know that he won't let you go

So what are you waiting for

What do you have to lose

Your insecurities

They try to hold to you

But you know you're made for more

So don't be afraid to move

Your faith is all it takes

And you can walk on the water too

So get out and let your fear fall to the ground

No time to waste, don't wait

And don't you turn around, and miss out on

Everything you were made for

Gotta be, I know you're not sure, more

So you play it safe, you try to run away

If you take that first step

Into the unknown

He won't let you go

So what are you waiting for

What do you have to lose

Your insecurities

They try to hold to you

But you know you're made for more

So don't be afraid to move

Your faith is all it takes

And you can walk on the water too

Step out, even when it's storming

Step out, even when you're broken

Step out, even when your heart is telling you,

Telling you to give up

Step out, when your hope is stolen

Step out, you can't see where you're going

You don't have to be afraid

So what are waiting, what are you waiting for

So what are you waiting for

What do you have to lose

Your insecurities

They try to hold to you

But you know you're made for more

So don't be afraid to move

Your faith is all it takes

And you can walk on the water,

Walk on the water too

Assignment tension!!

Oh I'm sorry.. I just need to let it out..=)

Weird how some people live their lives.. they have all the time to go out roaming.. but when it comes to assignments.. nope, doesn't really interest them much!! ..I mean yes, who am I to say what you should do, where you should go, what you are doing with your life.. but hey, make sure your work is done!! Not just done done alright..yes I admit I do not settle for a B as a result..I don't think anyone will..Everyone wants the best!! ..And how will you get it, if you send half pass work?? ..if its an individual assignment..then alrite.. but its a group assignment.. You're not in it alone.. You other 4 or 3 members depending on you.. siggghhh.. and yes, I went out today.. I had a great time! ..why? to reward myself, cause I'm satisfied with whatever I have done.. Honestly, I don't dare step out of my house.. if I don't get anything done at times.. because I know my priorities..

I'm so sorry.. I just had to let it out.. I didn't mean to offend anyone or what-so-ever.. But when it comes to assignments.. I get paranoid!! Like really tensed and PMS giler-giler ..sighh ..really, I'm not usually like this.. perhaps why I haven't been smiling the whole week! but then it could be applied to all us.. What you can do today, don't keep for tomorrow.. and yeah I admit, I'm the definition of last minute..oh well, all of us are in one way or another.. except for my mom! ..lol.. it can be annoying, but it helps!! it sure does!

Ok, I've talked enough...I come in peace!

Have a great day!

My love will get home..

And if you think YOU'RE awesome... put your hands up and say, "BEZENGGA!!" ...hehehe..Yes, I'm lame just like that.. err.. You can't blame the poor child.. SHE COMPLETED MARKETING ASSIGNMENT!! ..now you tell me, who's AWESOME??! ..=)))

and well, "Bezengga" ..is a word used by SHELDON COOPER or well, JIM PARSONS from BIG BANG THEORY! ...hehe.. yes if you wanna know my secret to all my stresses besides the MAN above, its surely BIG BANG THEORY! ..twenty minutes per episode per day.. is like a self-made medicine..that just takes your worries away..takes you to a world of your of  your own..and you laugh yourself out! ..=)

And all is left is Business Communication assignment.. and Written Discourse Assignment .. and after..i wish I could shout and say "I'm FREEEEE!!" ..oh well, then comes the most excruciating part of the semester.. the daymm finals! ..sighh.. and here's the best part, my sister is graduating on April 10th, and I have MARKETING exam on the 11th!!! ..=(( ..where is this fair?? ..and its Marketing.. a totally reading subject, practically have to memorize the whole notes and text book, word to word.. siighh.. yes Lord, I'm really enjoying this moment.. thank you! ..;p ;p

And guess what else I've been doing??! ..TUMBLR-ING!! ...and gosh... It's so addictive..that I'm afraid to log in again.. I think I posted 50 posts  today!! ..sighhh.. but really, they're so daymm true.. you just have to post it!

Anyway, there's this one incident that happened yesterday that got me thinking.. and so I say this to you, just some wise words of mind..speaking from experience..XD ...lol ok ok ..I stole some from Bible also! ..;p

• In whatever you do, don't let the words of others get into your mind and mess it! ..
• If someone says, "you can't!" ..the only way to shut them up..is prove them that they're wrong! ..=)
• Just because a fool decides to act immature, you don't need to bring yourself down to their level and continue arguing... Just stand high and smile..
• Yes, its hard to control your temper..but before you act, remember how would have Jesus reacted? What would He say? =)
• Don't talk about others, unless its something good! ..and yes, gossiping is poisonous.. kills others and you too! 
• If you feel like crying, go ahead.. it may not solve anything.. but God it makes you feel better..=)
• Ever heard of the word humility?? ..It's one of the most beautiful gift one could own.. ~~Humility does not mean thinking less of yourself than of other people.. nor does it mean having a low opinion of your own gifts.. It means freedom.. from thinking about yourself at all. ~William Temple~ hehe.. beautiful huh? ..I mean after all, if there is something you wanna boast about.. Boast about God!! ..who else deserves it more? ..=)
• Don't ever let anyone tell you that you are NOT beautiful.. Remember you were created in God's own light and image.. I think you are the most beautiful creature ever existed! ..
• And if you feel so lonely in this world.. that no one understand you at all.. that you feel like running away.. there is someone waiting for you.. and is ever ready.. to sweet you off your feet.. hehe.. yes Go say a prayer today, and you will know!

And well, if you still don't get it.. here listen to this..or well you can read it.. My love will get you home=God's love.. imagine God singing this to you! ..XD

My love will get you home~Christine glass

If you wander off too far, my love will get you home.

If you follow the wrong star, my love will get you home.

If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,

get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.

 my love will get you home.

If the bright lights blinds your eyes, my love will get you home.

If your troubles break your stride, my love will get you home.

If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,

get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.

 my love will get you home.

If you ever feel ashamed, my love will get you home.

When there's only you to blame, my love will get you home.

If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,

get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.

 my love will get you home.

If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,

get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.

 my love will get you home,

 my love will get you home.