the cross

An Inspiring Christian Story.

A young man was at the end of his rope. Seeing no way out, he dropped to his knees in prayer. "Lord, I can't go on," he said, "I have too heavy of a cross to bear." The Lord replied, "My son, if you can't bear its weight, just place your cross inside this room.

Then, open that other door and pick out any cross you wish." The man was filled with relief and said, "Thank you, Lord," and he did as he was told. Upon entering the other door, he saw many crosses, some so large the tops were not visible.

Then, he spotted a tiny cross leaning against a far wall. "I'd like that one, Lord," he whispered. And the Lord replied, "My son, that is the cross you just brought in."

When life's problems seem overwhelming, it helps to look around and see what other people are coping with. You may consider yourself far more fortunate than you imagined.

have a nice day..

beauty sleep..

Gosh this is the worst morning ever..

Firstly, i had to get up at 6 a.m. ..to send my parents to the station..and take the car back for my sis..*dont ask why, its pretty complicated* ..and today..i have to wait a little longer cause my dad had to pump gas..

So came back home..and straight away went back to sleep..the next thing I knew..i started sweating.. i shouted at my sis.."ON THE FAN!!" ..and she replied "there's no electricity!!! ...she was getting ready for college..i was like.."what on earth!!..you gotta to be kidding!!.." ..its was only 7.30am!!..omg..this can't be happening..

Since my room is the hottest place on earth, well..i dont really blame it..it belongs to the hawtest girl..=p ..so i went to my parents room..opened the window..and closed my eyes.. I tossed and turned..and tossed again.. I couldn't sleep.. well..thank God it wasnt that warm..cause I could still the morning breeze.. and it just finished RAINING!! ...pheww..

And just when i started working on my dream land..my sis shouted again.."where's your touch n go card??" ..purposely i said..'inside my nose"...lol..i'm trying to get some sleep.. and right after she left..the phone started ringing.. non-stop!!

so yeah...today i was up at 9 FREAKING AM!! ..with no electricity.. no computer..no telelvisyen..or radio.. no FAN!! ..my dearest sis didnt charge the laptop.. argh..and worsely.. no ONE TO TALK TOOO!! ..so i ended playing the piano..and also cleaned beneath the piano chair.. actually i was finding for some chords..and instead i found something else..lol..some kinda so-called diary i had.. was laughing my head off..didnt know i was that dumb..to believe in such kinda things..hehe..the electricity..came back exactly at 12!!..argh

and today..i missed my beauty sleep..

and i know..my mom cares about me..very much..but that doesnt mean she has to call like 10xs a day!!..how old am i??..9??..aarrgghhh..and im at HOME!! ...not going out..if i am OUT! ..i understand.. but I'm at home..gosh...sigh..

anyway..i just cant wait for tomorow!!..time to rock the world!!..weeeeeeeeeee!!

take care..god bless

he will come and save you

I learned something new today..

hehe...attended charismatic..and unc joseph arul..did the sharing.. you know what i admire the most in him?? its the way he brings his whole family together.. just by hearing him speak..you can already sense his humbleness..hmm..his wife is really lucky to have him..=) wish i had someone like that as well..in the future..=)

anyway..have you ever met someone wearing a mask??.. I mean.. they go to church.. they sing the hyms.. they serve the Lord in many ministries.. but inside.. they are full of lies, hypocrisy.. they use the kinda words..that hurt others.. they get angry for simple things.. they talk behind people's back.. jealousy possess their being..

well, its like the sower who planted the seeds at the pathway..the birds came and ate them!! this is where..you believe in His words..but when the trials come..you fail.. you give in easily to the pleasure's of the world.. why?

well, cause the other path seems easier and more tempting.. for example..if your boyfriend left you..you cut your wrist!! *i didnt know this sh!t still happens till last week..* haha..that's dumbla!!..why wanna die for someone who doesn't want you??.. lol.. or when someone blocks your car, you show them the middle finger.. or someone scolds your child, you turn into some kinda gangster.. or when someone passes away,you turn away from God!!

and no..im not pointing fingers at anyone.. I know I'm a hypocrite myself.. I dont deny it..=) there are somethings in me..that i myself hate that part of me.. hmm.. been trying to make it rite..but nope! it aint working..sigh..

Isn't it during these trial moments.. where one is suppose to be even stronger to face it? Let's say you ask from God to make you courages.. And that is why..He gives you Oppurtunity to be courages.. or else how would you know rite? but instead during the trial moments..is where we fall even more..sigh

anyway..you know what i learned??...that the cross is always there..but the weight isn't.. i mean the problems..and obstacles..always come in our way.. but he carries them on His shoulder..the same way HE did it..on HIS way to Calvary.. WE SINNED..BUT HE SUFFERED..

so yeah..to all those who are in fear or weary..and broken hearted..hear this song..=)

He will come and save you..

Say to those who are fearful hearted
Do not be afraid
The Lord your God will come
And with His mighty arm
When you call on His Name
He will come and save you

He will come and save you
He will come and save you
Say to the weary one
Your God will surely come
He will come and save you
He will come and save you
Lift up your eyes to Him
You will arise again
He will come and save you

Say those who are broken hearted
Do not lose your faith
The Lord your God will come
And with His loving hand
When you call on His Name
He will surely come

He will come and save you
He will come and save you
Say to the weary one
Your God will surely come
He will come and save you
He will come and save you
Lift up your eyes to Him
You will arise again
He will come and save you

He is our refuge in the day of trouble
He is our shelter in the time of storm
He is our tower in the day of sorrow
Our fortress in the time of war

nitez take care..=)

can't stop loving you

Okay i'm now officially in love with bryan adams song..hehe.. so damm cun!!.... actually last night..i intended to only download the song "heaven" by bryan adams.. and then i saw some of other title ..which caught my attention..so i downloaded quite a few..and everything turn out to be awesomest!!....one of it..is this.. "please forgive me".. i can't seem to get it out of my mind..the whole night..

Please Forgive Me lyrics

Still feels like our first night together..
Feels like the first kiss..
it's gettin' better baby..
No one can better this...
Still holdin' on, you're still the one..
First time our eyes met, same feelin' I get..
Only feels much stronger,
Wanna love ya longer..
You still turn the fire on...


So if you're feelin' lonely.. don't..
You're the only one.. I ever want
I only wanna make it good..
So if I love ya.. a little more than I should..

Please forgive me, I know not what I do..
Please forgive me, I can't stop lovin' you..
Don't deny me, this pain I'm going through..
Please forgive me, if I need ya like I do..
Please believe me, every word I say is true..
Please forgive me, i cant stop loving you..

Still feels like our best times are together..
Feels like our first touch..
still gettin' closer baby..
Can't get close enough.
Still holdin' on, still number one..
I remember the smell of your skin..
I remember everything..
I remember all your moves..
I remember you, yeah..
I remember the nights, ya know I still do...

So if you're feelin' lonely.. don't..
You're the only one.. I ever want
I only wanna make it good..
So if I love ya.. a little more than I should..

Please forgive me, I know not what I do..
Please forgive me, I can't stop lovin' you..
Don't deny me, this pain I'm going through..
Please forgive me, if I need ya like I do..
Oh believe me, every word I say is true..
Please forgive me, i cant stop loving you..

One thing I'm sure of.. is the way we make love.
And one thing I depend on.. is for us to stay strong
With every word and every breath I'm prayin..
That's why I'm sayin'..

Please forgive me, I know not what I do..
Please forgive me, I can't stop lovin' you..
Don't deny me, this pain I'm going through..
Please forgive me, if I need ya like I do..
Baby believe me, every word I say is true..
Please forgive me, i cant stop loving you..

Never leave me I don't know what I'd do.
Please forgive me, i cant stop lovin you
Cant stop lovin you..

awesome lyrics..the tune..also cekap!!!..sigh..why do they have to put in such way..that i cant stop listening to it??..aarrghgh..great! now i'm back to posting lyrics..hmmm

hand in hand

hahahahaa...did i mention i have the craziest friends ever??..OMG..!! i laughed like nobody's business just now...but i cant mention it here..they both will run after me..with an axe on their hands hehehehe...

..this is the boringest holiday ever..aarrgghh...no one to go out with!!...now only starting everyone starting college..while im having my holiday!!..crap rite...

anyway..the whole afternoon i've been listening to this song.. and yup..im addicted to it!!..its like a drug..sigh..something missing if i didnt listen to it.. its a simple song.. but holds a very deep meaning.. you have never heard it..cause it was composed by a friend of mine.. its called 'hand in hand'..

I love you for all my life..
Its only just beginning..
I'll cherish you for all of time..
This love will have no ending..

Oh baby..
take my hand..
baby..
take my hand..

Hand in hand..
We'll cross these hurdles..
Step in puddles on the way..
But if we try..
We'll never fail..
He is with us all the way..
Jesus is with us all the way...=)

This journey's just so startling..
Who knows what you'll feel..
But together girl..
We'll unfold this mystery..

Oh baby..
take my hand..
baby..
take my hand..

Hand in hand..
We'll cross these hurdles..
Step in puddles on the way..
But if we try..
We'll never fail..
He is with us all the way..
Jesus is with us all the way...=)

I really love the last part..its the one thing that truly gives a whole new meaning to the song.. it doesn't matter how high the hurdle/fence is..you just have to believe HE IS WITH US ALL THE WAY!!..

You should really hear it..sadly he only gave the audio version to me..or else can post it here..sigh..the tune really fits the lyrics..and the guitar plucking..and the voice..lol..the dude can start his own album..

wish i could compose my own song as well..=(

take care..god bless..=)

i've come to realize

i saw this in manda's profile..and i think its pretty interesting!!..=)

1. I've come to realize that my hair:
looks like dry leaves recently..

2. I've come to realize that when I talk:
sometimes i speak in Japanese language..too fast..and they dont understand..=(

4. I've come to realize that all I really need:
is my GOD!!

5. I've come to realize that I've lost:
someone who didn't need me..as much as i needed them..

6. I've come to realize that I hate it when:
i put on weight!!

7. I've come to realize that if I'm drunk:
i dont know how I'd react..cause i've never been drunk!!..=p

8. I've come to realize that money:
is the root of all evil..but still we need it..

9. I've come to realize that when I get old:
I'm not gonna let my hair turn white..or my teeth fall!!

10. I've come to realize that I'll always be:
who i am..though you seem to have a problem with that..=p

11. I've come to realize that I have a crush on:
...hahahaa...HIM!!

12. I've come to realize that the last time I cried was:
was on last Friday..

13. I've come to realize that my cell phone:
is always misplaced..=(

14. I've come to realize that when I wake up in the mornings:
I wish to go back to sleep!!

15. I've come to realize that before I go to sleep at night I:
toss and turn till i find the right position..=p

16. I've come to realize that right now I am thinking about:
the song joel wrote..amazing!!

17. I've come to realize that my life:
is a gift that i intend to use it wisely..!!

18. I've come to realize that my favourite drink is:
plain water..=)..

19. I've come to realize that today I will:
smile and keep on smiling..

20. I've come to realize that tonight I will:
not sleep!!

21. I've come to realize that tomorrow I will:
be at the edge of boredom!!

22. I've come to realize that I really want to:
walk hand in hand with JESUS!!

23. I've come to realize that the person who is most likely to repost this is:
..anyone who has no life..like me?? =p

24. I've come to realize relationships are:
something that I do not want to go through right now..

25. I've come to realize that love:
should be unconditional and everlasting..sealed with truth..

26. I've come to realize my best guy friend(s):
are the funniest humans ever created!

27. I've come to realize my best girl friend(s):
are the sweetest thing ever existed!!

28. I've come to realize food is:
one of the basic needs in life..=)

29: I've come to realize that this weekend:
is going to be the best ever!!

30. I've come to realize heartbreak:
is something i go through very often..but i dont really mind for it helped shape me..=)

31. I've come to realize that the last person i liked:
can never be the one I love..

32.I've come to realize that my sister(s):
will be my still be my sister..cause i do not have a choice!!

33. I've come to realize that crying:
is something you shouldn't be ashamed off..

34. I've come to realize that death:
is part of life..

35. I've come to realize that if I'm sick:
I feel like chopping of my nose..for sneezing so badly!!

36. I've come to realize when I'm bored:
I blog!!

THE RACE!!

He will come and save you..
He will come and save you..
Say to the weary one..
Your God will surely come..
He will come and save you..

hmmm..I can't seem to get this song out of mind..the awesomest song!!..go hear it...=)

anyway..guess what happen today??..okey, no point guessing also..cause I can't hear you..and neither can you hear me..well actually you can..but not literally..cause I'm not speaking..but since you're reading..so you feel like I'm talking in your mind..
OMYGOSH!!..what the hell am i crapping!!??..

sorry..I'm like extremely tired..so tired..why??hhehe...cause I WAS IN THE RACE!!!...=)..

It all started like this..
I was tagged by low ee hwa to enter THE RACE COMPETITION in facebook..organized by taylors college..well i wasn't interested at all..hehe..me??..entering a race??..lol..it's like superman getting raped ..=p..actually aint that bad..just that its been a long time i 'sported'..the last was NETBALL in GOODWILL GAMES..that also..got dehydrated..and almost lost my life..

NO JOKE!!...it's like something sucking out your soul..especially the vomiting part.. i vomited about 10 times till i had nothing left to throw..that my bile, some greenish liquid from my gall bladder started to come out as well..WOW!..I still know my BIO!! ..hehe..lol..seriously IT WAS so GROSS!! ..it tasted damn bitter..i was so close to telling..'CAN SOMEONE JUST KILL ME??!!' i wouldn't wanna go through it again...even of you give me a million bucks...NOPE..i wouldn't...sigh..

And then..here comes the embarrassing part..err..my stories are not official if there's no embarrassment huh?...argh..anyway, THEY BROUGHT ME ON A FREAKING WHEEL CHAIR!! ..and its not the ordinary wheel chair you know..some kinda funny looking wheel chair.. and my dearest sis started snapping my pic...not to mention..the part of her asking me.."HOW MANY MONTHS..AND WHO'S THE DAD??!!"..i wanted to throw up right on her face..but didn't have the strength!!..lol..

wait..the best part..haven't arrive yet.. so they brought me to the st john ambulance..when the laid me.. i opened one eye..and saw the most gorgeous thing on earth!! ..THE GUY WAS SOOOOO unexpectedly DROP DEAD CUTE!! ..and right that moment..GOD will show HIS unending LOVE to me that ..HE had to make me puke there...I PUKED RIGHT IN FRONT ON THE CUTE GUY WHO HAPPEN TO BE THE AMBULANCE GUY!!! ...and that moment..i really said..'CAN SOMEONE really KILL ME??!!" ..argh..

then it was the prize giving ceremony..i was still st john's tent..lying on a mattress...with my team..and jon n mel..and the moment the announced..THIRD PLACE GOES TO HOLY FAMILY CHURCH KAJANG...bluekkkkk....i vomited again..heheehehe...i quote my sis.."THAT'S HER WAY OF CHEERING" lol..i still remember..after that..everyone was going round the whole stadium..to look for my bag..and i had a special ride home..hhehehe..yup.. that's so me.."the weird blur girl who just cant stop embarrassing herself.."..sigh...

Neway back to my story.. one fine afternoon..while having lunch with the troop.. helena said..whoever enter the race..have to pay 50bucks..and GET A SUNWAY LAGOON TICKET!!!..i was like.."what??..you serious??" ...cause the last i went to the lagoon..which is around last year September..the ticket was like 90 BUCKS FOR ALL PARK!!..and we're getting it like damn cheap..NO WAY I'M GONNA MISS IT!!..plus it's right after my exam!!..

so since it was a couple entry..i needed a partner..since rina was single..and so was i..so we filled in the blanks..hehe..tracy and helena was a pair..while my sis and saha..

but i'm telling you..we were only done with the first obstacle..and could feel every inch of our bone breaking..first its the kaki tiga.. then the wheelbarrow.. then the piggyback.. then the traybottle..theh run.. then water balloon.. then CRAWLING!! ..*i hurt my knees here* ..imagine crawling up and the down..on a rough tiled stairs..i got up..and my knees started to bleed..sigh..and then had the maze.. and the up 3 stairs..and down again!!..it's like ...gosh i can't explain it..after that.. we DROPPED DEAD!! ...i was having the dehydration feeling again..lol..and was praying..and hoping.."please take it away, lord'"...and it went away..lol..and we manage to complete the 2nd obstacle..which was pretty fun..but screwed up the last part..hmm..

anyway..had lotsa fun..and met some new people.. and I'm on a mission..TO BUILD MY STAMINA back AND LOOSE A COUPLE OF POunds..hmmm..and "THE BIGGEST LOSER ASIA" is gonna start!!..can i just enter for like 2 weeks??...i wanna loose at least 10 POuNDS!! i already have a personal trainer..=p ..hehe..just my food intake..hmm..

but nevermind!!..YOU CAN DO IT GIRL!! ..10 pounds!! ..in 3 week!! ..IN THE GYM!! ..weeeeee!!..

and not to mention..SUNWAY LAGOON ON THE 3RD OF OCTOBER 2009!! ..hehehe..and btw.. next week right..all the contestants are invited to bring their friends..to the theme park..and the ticket is only 35BUCKS!!..FOR ALL PARK..*WET,DRY,SCREAM,EXTREME..and wild life* ..so if anyone is interested..can send me a message..i can get the tickets!!..=)..but its only on the 3rd..hehe

woohhhhooo.. watch out lagoon..your gonna have the craziest bunch of visitors ever!!..=D

nitez!!..sweet dreams..=)

Sometimes in life

ok..i just realized..no matter how dark the sky seemed to be..the moon and the stars never left it..hmmm..hehe..just thought of it..cause the moon is in a perfect C shape today..not really my type..but its still amazing..=) and i can't help wondering..how come the moon and the sun doesn't come together?? hmm..weird me!!

Neway I went out for dinner just now..with nick (he's back!!..but will be going back again 2mro!!..sigh..), saha and sis in KENNY ROGERS!!..hehe..and NO!! my CHICKEN DIDN'T FLY THIS TIME!! lol....

and I heard quite a much of shocking stories!!..and after that i can't stop thanking God..
for getting me out from this mess...
for healing me..without me realizing it..day by day..through everyone i meet!!
for giving me the oppurtunity to be courageous and except everything HE has in store..
for making me LOVE HIM more more..
for never leaving me behind..
and mostly..for trusting in me..THAT I CAN DO IT!!..

I wrote this..since i got nothing better to do..not to mention i'm addicted to DINER DASH!!..hehe
neway it's called "SOMETIMES IN LIFE"..the ending is a bit messy though..

Sometimes in life..
I wonder if it will last forever..
But in a second it's gone..
Lifeless..with no explanation..

Sometimes in life..
I hurt countless times..
I waited to be healed..
Only to hurt again..

Sometimes in life..
I cry..
Till there's no more tears..
Hoping i'll drown in my tears..

Sometimes in life..
Everything falls apart..
And I'm left all alone
In the dark..

Sometimes in life..
I put the blame..
on everyone else..
but me..

Sometimes in life..
I forget the little things..
that means a lot..
to me..

Sometimes in life..
I neglect the people..
who painted a smile..
on my face..

and sometimes in life..
it may not seem to go..
the way I want it..

But still...in this life..
why..all my life..
He stood by MY side..
Taking me through it..
Though I didnt want to..

I've never seen HIM..or heard HIM..
But I know..
HE was there..He is there..He will be there..
for me..

And I've realize the true meaning in life..
For I've felt what real LOVE is..

and NOPE!!..I do not intend to keep it for myself.. for they say SHARING IS CARING!!..
so yeah..SPREAD THE LOVE PEOPLE=D

take care god bless!!..
p/s..bye bye exams!!..and hello holidays!!=)

questions

Just this last one..and i'm off studying marketing!!...the final paper..and then say HELL TO HEAVEN!!..wooohhoooo!!


1. How many family members do you have?
ermm..4 including me.

2. What status are you now?
single and starting to love it!!..=)..

3.How many times do you been in a relationship?
sadly twice..only wanted one though..that could last forever..guess it's not my time yet..hehe

4.Your nickname by your family and friends?
thats like a lot..erm..jobabe, pork, margArita..pig..babi..JU-ON!!..sigh..i like my name..crazy ppl!!

5.The best line of yours?
err...line??..maybe word..CILAKA!!..=p

6. Best friend?
cyn and stal..=)

7.Best song for you?
hmmm...that's a whole lot of it..but if it was a song FOR ME...guess it will be HEART WITHOUT HOME by westlife...

8. Favourite colour of yours?
purple,pink,black...

9.any pets?
christine maryanna..hehehe

10.any argument with your best friends that you stated above?
not as in argument argument..more like debating..lol..we end up sratching each other..and pulling hairs..lol..nahhh..we're BFF!!

11. Who is the perfect stranger for you?
wow...this is tough..hmm..the perfect stranger..will tell you when the time comes..=)

12.what is your best snacks?
hmmm...love jack n jill potato chips!!

13. Do you ever miss someone?
yes...

14.most crazy thing you did ever?
a lot...but for now...chicken flying over my plate..or it could be falling in love..lol

15.Have you ever sleep with your parents?
of cause...=)

16.Have you ever kiss anyone same sex as you?
uh huh....=) i kissed a whole bunch yesterday..

17.Are you pure?
whatever that means...guess i should be..lol

18.Have you ever did something illegal?
hmmm...i guess..lol

19.wish to kiss someone right now?
haha..if you can find me one..that's willing to kiss me as well..=p

20.sleep with any opposite sex before?
...errr...my dad??..lol

21.What T size are you?
m or l...depends..but never fitted in S...lol...

22.Any represent in sport?
NETBALL!!..goshh missing it sooo much..

23.Your dreamland?
....err...all around the world..!!

24.Have you achieve your dream?
nooooooooo...im barely even out of kajang and pj!!..

25.List down 3 most influence and the one you need the most!
errrr....blogging, music, friends.....the one i need the most??!!!...hehehe..someone to love =)

26. what make you most excited?
in beach with the crazy bunch of humans!!...cousinz..and friends...=)

27.Do you feel yourself important?
....why wouldn't i??..i was created in the most unique way..=p

28.The song with your love one? (if you do have)
blueeekkk...anti love songs d...hmm..but it should be..breathless...hehe

29.Aim for now?
MARKETING BABY!!1

30.How you spend your weekend most of the time?
CHURCH!! ...

31.Do you own any property?
....if i had a guy..he would be mine..lol..other than that...the craps i bought with my own money..

32.How many kids you wish to have in future?
....lets just find the dude first k??..lol

33. Any secret talker now? who?
haha..its sercetla doink!!..got the guts to ask somemore..lol

34. List 5 best mates beside the 2 above.
errr...i need the whole page..

35.The one you most respect?
errr...everyone deserves the same respect...=)


k done!!...cant wait for tomorow!!..weeeeee
take care..god bless..

delusional

Absolutely ..Completely..Delusional..

Sigh..why does my family have to plan the holiday during my exam..??

Cause now..I'm already in my holiday-ing mood!!..

And I still have my two final paper this week..

Miss playing all the kid's games..

Miss laughing endless-ly..till our tears flow..

Miss those-not-letting-the-adults-sleep-nights..

Miss EATING till we DROP!!..

Miss being the noisy-est bunch where ever we go..

ARGH...

This is so unfair..

Missing those priceless moments..

take care god bless..

btw..i'm back!!=)

damm feeling!!

yiks!!..hate this feeling..why cant you just STOP DOING THIS TOO ME??..arent you tired??..for running on my mind all day long..and tomorrow!!..is surely gonna add to this misery..hmm.. i do not want to go...though deep down i really want..but haiz...

I cant explain this feeling..
I think about it all the time..
And even though we've moved on..
It get so hard walkaway..

bluek!!...
take care..god bless..

EXAMS!

I know i know..i'm not suppose to blog!..hehe but thanks to my mom..=( ..she gave me the flu pills which is making me so drowsy!!..so whenever i open my HTML book..(web page design), somehow my eye lid becomes extremely heavy..so yeah..maybe later i'll try again..and NO its not an excuse k...lol..not to mention i was in college by 7.30am for my 2pm MANAGEMENT exam!!..ehehe...i realize i cant study at home..tooo many distraction..so yeah..was in the library..hehe..yup yup..i do know wheres the library!!..and this is my 3rd time there..to be honest for the first time in these 2 years..i finally had a SOLID TIME TO STUDY!!..and i've found my new motto..hehe

WHATEVER I KNOW..I KNOW..WHATEVER I DON'T KNOW, LORD YOU GOTTA HELP ME..=) ..i mean at least bantai also..make sure it make sense..=p..

but to be honest...i'm not the studying kinda type..i mean who is lar...maybe there is..those NERDS and all.. but come on.. you dont study..cause you like it.. maybe you read cause you enjoy reading..but that's not call STUDYING!!..and i hate studying web page design!!..i like creating it..you know trial and error basis..and you give me a whole day..i so dont mind sitting in front on the computer generating those CODES!!..but you ask me to read..sigh..i rather have my chicken fly ONCE AGAIN! hehehe..ok ok,..i take that back..nothing BEATS THAT EMBARRASSMENT MOMENT!!..=(

and I have got no idea..how in the world I had an A for history in SPM!!..seriously after passing up my paper..i know i was going to FAIL!!..i have got no idea what i crapped..like i said..i aint the reading type..though i love reading NOVELS!!..hehe..i was prepared for the worst..i got my result..and the moment i SAW THAT A2 for SEJARAH!! ..and a B4 for BIBLE KNOWLEDGE!! ..i was like what the hell..this is SOOOO WRONGGG!! ..i cant get a B for bible!..and its B4 some more!! ..i mean i knew the answers to the questions...compared to SEJARAH!!..it was pretty easy..sigh..and that moment i learned my lesson...NEVER TRUST MALAYSIA'S EXAMINATION!! ..bias i don't know..racist, quota system..no idea as well..but I DO KNOW WHERE I STAND!!..

anyway enough of dumb flashback..what is done is done..SCREW SPM wei!..hehe..now lets kutuk UTAR!!...seriously..it's far most dumbest college ever existed..and NO! it's because I'm studying there..hehe but because THEY HAVE EXAMS ON SATURDAYS!!..and worst of all..its FREAKING HARI RAYA HOLIDAYS MAN!! ..H-O-L-I-D-A-Y!! yeah i know!!..extremely dumb wei!!..SIGH...there goes my free holiday flying in the air..bye bye..i'll miss you..=( and right after raya..i have 2 more papers!!..sigh..i'm so far done with..SOCIOLOGY! WRITING FOR BUSINESS! & MANAGEMENT!! ...
whats left...WEB PAGE DESIGN! WRITING FOR MASS COM! & MARKETING!! ..sigh..
part of me wants to get over with it..while another part..wished i was given more time to STUDY!! ...and meanwhile i still have the chick to sit here and blog!!..hehe..

and this Saturday..and don't know how's its gonna turn out..i don't even wanna think of it..but it's always on my mind..=( lol..these damm exams have gotten me over the edge!!..but i wish for the best..

k..back to studying..though now my eye lids are getting heavier..=(
take care..god bless..

p/s..i'll be away for couple of days..
so till we meet again..=)

the nightmare begins..

I must be extremely crazy to actually blog at this critical hour...
anyway..the nightmare starts TOMORROW!!...at 9a.m ..so please..if at all you remember this lifeless gal here...please don't forget to say a prayer..God will bless you abundantly.. I'll say a little prayer for you as well..=)

I can't wait for the 24th at 4pm!!..yup..my nightmares ends then..weeeee!!!..sigh..and it will take me ages till then..no facebooking..no blogging..my ears must be tone deaf..*no more music for time being*..crap!!..yup yup..it's like HELL!!...hmm..

anyway..listen you creepy little exam papers!!..
you are so not gonna give me any hard time tomorrow..and you better do not challenge me questions that I have no any knowledge on!!..*please dont make my life any more miserable than it already is..*sobs..sbos* and PLEASE FOR ONCE,..COME OUT THE PART I REMEMBER THE MOST!!!..sigh...

to you pens and pencils...
make sure i remember to BRING THE ONES WITH INKS!!!..bring enough of you 'guys'.. just incase my lovely friends is having problems with them..

to the AIR-COND!!..
you're not going to freeze me to death!!!..as it is I'll be having brain FREEZE..due to the 'papers' work..so you better not be friends with them...=p

IDs and examination slip!!..
You guys better always remain in my bag...and if it rains..pandai-pandai cover yourselves..love ya!!..=p ..and

PEK ZHI JIE!!..thanks for the lovely message just now..its really sweet of you..muaxxx..love ya as well!!..=)

ohh...last thing..PUBLIC TRANSPORTATION!!...i'm gonna have to depend on you as my sis..wont be here to SENT ME!!..sigh..so yeah..please please..be on time!!..and God will bless you abundantly...

oh my..i forgot the most important thing!!..
LORD, LET ME GIVE THE BEST I HAVE TOMOROW!!..BE THERE NEXT TO ME..INCASE I ACCIDENTALY FORGOTTEN ANYTHING..JUST GIVE ME A HINT!!..IF IT NEVER WORK OUT, THE WAY I WANTED..PLEASE GIVE THE COURAGE TO DEAL WITH IT!!..
AMEN!!..=)

prepared??..sigh..perhaps..

p/s JUAN MARGRITA GABRIEL THOMAS is probabaly out of her mind while posting this..=( except the last part..whereby she got back to her senses..hehe..

anyway take care..god bless..

there's hope

Think your your life is not any better??...take a look at this..
You might wanna turn your speakers on..its a very nice song...and watch it full!!..=)






The guy was indeed carrying his son throughout the race..he wanted his son to taste victory..

It's not about how many cars you own..
It's not about how many A's you pull..
and It's certainly not about how many girls or guys you dated..
It's simply about the size of faith you have in your pretty little heart there..

and you can imagine how much more YOUR FATHER in heaven will do for you!!..

take care gos bless..

200th post!!

I just realized...I'm a freak!!..lol..this is my 200TH POSTTTTTTTTTTT!!!in one year..hehe.. ...goshhh...

anyway..

hmm..lets see if we can make it to 300 by this year!!..lol..=)
take care..have a nice day!!

When God made you

wow..to be honest..this far beyond the most romantic song ever existed!!..simply superb!!..another song added to my "marriage song list!!"...hehe=p...*back to earth gal!!* ...your socio can collapse any moment!!...sigh

When God made you~Newsong feat Natalie Grant

It’s always been a mystery to me
How two hearts can come together
And love can last forever
But now that I have found you, I believe
That a miracle has come
When God sends the perfect one
Now gone are all my questions about why
And I’ve never been so sure of anything in my life

Chorus:
I wonder what God was thinking
When He created you
I wonder if He knew everything I would need
Because He made all my dreams come true
When God made you
He must have been thinking about me

I promise that wherever you may go
Wherever life may lead you
With all my heart I’ll be there too
From this moment on I want you to know
I’ll let nothing come between us
And I will love the ones you love
Now gone are all my questions about why
And I have never been so sure of anything in my life

Chorus:
I wonder what God was thinking
When He created you
I wonder if He knew everything I would need
Because He made all my dreams come true
When God made you
He must have been thinking about me

Bridge:
He made the sun
He made the moon
To harmonize in perfect tune
One can’t move without the other
They just have to be together
And that is why I know it’s true
You’re for me and I’m for you
Cause my world just can’t be right
Without you in my life

Chorus:
I wonder what God was thinking
When He created you
I wonder if He knew everything I would need
Because He made all my dreams come true

Tag chorus:
He must have heard every prayer I’ve been praying
Yes He knew everything I would need
When God made you
When dreams come true
When God made you He must have been thinking about me

I'll carry you till death do us part..

I teared after reading this..

To those who are married, .. Not married ... and soon to be married
MARRIAGE

When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.

Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly.

She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?
I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Dew. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company.

She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Dew so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Dew.

When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce.
She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day.

She requested that everyday for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Dew about my wife's divorce conditions... She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time.. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me.

On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Dew about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.

Suddenly it hit me... she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mum out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy.

I drove to office.... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind... I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I do not want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other any more. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart.

Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away.

At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead.

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank, blah..blah..blah. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves.

This is soo sweet!!

Amazing..simply amazing...read everything!!..YOU'LL LOVE IT!!..=)

What Love means to a

4-8 year old.. .

'When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore.
So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That's love.'

Rebecca- age 8
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'When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different.
You just know that your name is safe in their mouth.'

Billy - age 4
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'Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs.'

Chrissy - age 6
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'Love is what makes you smile when you're tired.'

Terri - age 4
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'Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK.'

Danny - age 7
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'Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more.
My Mommy and Daddy are like that. They look gross when they kiss'

Emily - age 8
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'Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen.'

Bobby - age 7 (Wow!)
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'If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate,'

Nikka - age 6 (WISH THERE WERE MORE PPL LIKE HIM..=)
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'Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday.'

Noelle - age 7
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'During my piano recital, I was on a stage and I was scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling.
He was the only one doing that. I wasn't scared anymore.'

Cindy - age 8
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'My mommy loves me more than anybody
You don't see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night.'

Clare - age 6
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'Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken..'

Elaine-age 5
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'Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Robert Redford.'

Chris - age 7
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LOve is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day.'

Mary Ann - age 4
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'I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old clothes and has to go out and buy new ones.'

Lauren - age 4
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'When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you.' (what an image)

Karen - age 7
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'Love is when Mommy sees Daddy on the toilet and she doesn't think it's gross.'

Mark - age 6
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'You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it.. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget.'

Jessica - age 8
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the final one

The winner was a four year old child whose next door neighbor was an elderly gentleman who had recently lost his wife.

Upon seeing the man cry, the little boy went into the old gentleman's yard, climbed onto his lap, and just sat there.

When his Mother asked what he had said to the neighbor, the little boy said,

'Nothing, I just helped him cry'

NITEZ TAKE CARE!!