Truth is..I'm dying la k! ...and your not gonna believe me are you?! ..hehhehe.. hmm.. and this post is going be very very emotional. So if you dislike a girl, wetting her pillow with tears..ranting her lungs out, "SOMEBODY SAVE ME, PLEASEEE!!" ...or threatening to run down anyone who questions her, "why are you such a baby?!" with a tractor.. then please do not proceed any further in reading this post!..=) ..and I meant that in the nicest possible way...
Sighhhh...its just one of those days.. where you have this stupid feeling..that says your gonna die alone.. like your surrounded by many... but nobody ever asked you the question, "you dont seem ok, is everything alright?" ... because no one would have ever guessed, "what could possibly trouble a 20 year old girl with that huge smile.." like all you ever wanted was someone who sees the world through your eyes..
And trust me.. there is a lot of things running through a girl's mind.. quiet or noisy..there is a lot! You think she doesnt know..she knows.. You thinks she doesn't care..she cared more than you can ever imagine.. You think you know it all..nope, wrong again! ..She knows it all..;p ;p
And sometimes being a girl..seems like the most hardest thing on earth! ..why?? ...because it kills you when even the slightest thing that seem "ok" to the rest..can slice your heart until it is disfigured. Apparently, being a guy seem to be a lot easier.. they keep their problems to themselves..and have that "I-DONT-CARE" feeling.. God knows, if they really care..or not.. but its a lot easier.. when you choose to not care..
You know what else hurts the most? ..That when the person closest to you..choose to not care..
Sigh..and this time, its her very own mother.
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