Time to change..

Ok, I didn't know where else to go, so I came here.. ;)

There's a lot on my mind..and a lot more of stuffs that is waiting to be completed. But until I clear my mind, I can't do anything..;(

You know, I always felt a shiver whenever I hear the words, "tanah tumpahnya darahku.." ...yes, a line from Malaysia's National Anthem. And if it did occur that I have to die for this country.. believe me I will..because that's where my loyalty lies..;) It started right after watching JOAN OF ARC.. I was impressed and I admired the courage she had.. but now I'm not so sure anymore...I'm not sure about this country.. because honestly, this is a very beautiful place, but the amount of corrupted leaders, hypocrites, self-centered and racist homo sapiens.. makes it so unworthy.. and then some leader got the guts to say, "Don't ask what your country did for you, ask yourself what you did for  your country..??"  ..how you expect the citizens to do something, when they are being treated like STRANGERS.. in the place where we are born!

Because, now I'm even thinking of migrating to another place.. siighh.. I never really agreed on  migrating because I believe there is always a reason on why am I, where I am..but well, the mind changes depending on the situation..

Firstly, its the damm INTERLOK issue.. I mean it didn't really matter to me, for I never believed in the caste system.. and besides those are just merely words.. what matters is who you are, right now.. but the least one can do is be sensitive to other religion. If something is offending them.. then you as a leader, set-aside all the other voices, and do something!! ..You took an oath, not only to care for your OWN RACE.. but the whole COUNTRY!!.. and its a country of multi-races.. which means you have to cater for all.. we're not asking for gold or money or anything that belongs to you..we just want to be heard! and your not talking about one person.. its offending the whole Indian community..
The newspaper that showed the physical feature of Nabi Muhammad was immediately destroyed. No questions ask.. No demonstration needed. No meetings held. Just like that, the matter is solved. Why? because it offended the muslims.. Weird when other races face the similar situation.. the have to go through hell, and still nothing is done.. sigghhh.. and so where exactly do we stand in this country..??

Fine, its a good book you say, so be it.. why not edit that part a little.. and everybody will be happy again.. =).. but nope, what is politics, without its "politics" ... and the mentality of  most, 'my race deserves the best!!" ..the weird thing is, when you speak up, despite being a so-called democratic country.. they chase you away with tear gases.. and then blame you for causing a havoc/drama.. You may ask, why not send a memorandum and solve it in a rational way? Lol.. how much more memorandum can one send? ..sighhh

And so the one thing that really stirred me up, was when they seized the bibles.. and then they put so many conditions for its release.. No, the bible is not a communist book, its not a dangerous book, it does not hide drugs, alcohols or cigars, it doesn't preach about prostitution, human trafficking, murder, corruption or even lies.. Even if you don't believe that bible is the truth, but goodness...it teaches about all the moral values in the world, about how you treat your fellow neighbours, about loving your enemy, about peace, about forgiveness..about love..sighh .. and yes, of all the books including porn books, harmful items, illegal stuffs in this world.. they choose to seize the bible because of one harmless, yet the most beautiful word that holds a deep meaning..that is able to bring the whole world together.. I don't what you call that.. but I call it total NONSENSE!! ..

Don't we have the same right? 

Didn't we sing the same song..?

Didn't we celebrate the same 31st August 1957?

Didn't our ancestors too poured out their blood for this country..??

Why must there be a damm quota system.. that is always divided into 3, unequally????

Why must we have less privileges in our very own country?

And till when do we have to be treated like a "third party"...like strangers?

Maybe the world is coming to an end.. Japan's trauma is never-ending.. Malaysia is getting from bad to worse..Middle east's "war" is on-going.. hmm

And my sister send me this email... and part of it says..

I asked God to spare me pain.
God said, "No..Suffering draws you apart from worldly cares and brings you closer to me.."

Perhaps, it is time.. Time to pray, Time to heal.. Time to change..