always be my baby..

Sigh..Lord, how long more must I take your testings??... but guess..YOU want it that way huh??..It could have been beautiful..I could have made it beautiful.. but well..It's dumb I know..I'm being very dumb..I shouldn't..but I did, I do and I will...for I can't help it..It's not like I want it..I'll do anything for it to go away.. I don't have a choice..every morning..that's my first thought..before I sleep it's my last..sigh..

Funny, last semester..at this moment..I was enjoying the pleasure of love..but for this semester..I'm suffering the pain of love.. When will it end..or will it ever??.. but i guess for him..its over...for me..lol..just wish the all the best la.. You know what's the hard part in love.. not the breaking up..but the forgetting part..it's like you've eaten a delicious meal..and you try to purge it out..without your own will..it's hard and painful..and when you have thrown up the food.. you turn anorexic.. you know..the eating disorder..whereby you become really thin.. and your body rejects food..same like your heart rejects love again..sigh..make sense??..or perhaps..when you've given one everything..and there's nothing else left to give another.. =(

but hey..that's life..you loose some..you gain some....and meanwhile I really feel like throwing up...=(

But guess..nothing comes packaged in happy endings huh??..Guess it gives me more time to concentrate on my crush..lol..sounds like I'm a playgirl huh??..nolar..just find me a guy who can create a miracle with me..and I can love him forever..lol..

anyway...if it's bound to happen..it will..or else..let it go..and move on..
so yeah..my last song dedication...about that someone..=(

Always be my baby..~Mariah Carey

We were as one baby..
For a moment in time..
And it seemed everlasting..
That you would always be mine..
Now you want to be free..
So I'm letting you fly..
Cause I know in my heart, baby..
Our love will never die..

You'll always be a part of me..
I'm part of you indefinetely..
Boy, don't you know you can't escape me..
Oooh darling, cause you'll always be my baby..
And we'll linger on..
Time can't erase a feeling this strong..
No way you're never gonna shake me..
Oooh darling, cause you'll always be my baby..

I ain't gonna cry no..
And I won't beg you to stay..
If you're determined to leave boy..
I will not stand in your way..
But inevitably..you'll be back again..
Cause you know in your heart baby..
Our love will never end..

You'll always be a part of me..
I'm part of you indefinetely..
Boy, don't you know you can't escape me..
Oooh darling, cause you'll always be my baby..
And we'll linger on..
Time can't erase a feeling this strong..
No way you're never gonna shake me..
Oooh darling, cause you'll always be my baby..

I know that you'll be back boy..
When your days and nights get a little bit colder
I know that, you'll be right back baby..
Oh baby, believe me..it's only a matter of time..

You'll always be a part of me..
I'm part of you indefinetely..
Boy, don't you know you can't escape me..
Oooh darling, cause you'll always be my baby..
And we'll linger on..
Time can't erase a feeling this strong..
No way you're never gonna shake me..
Oooh darling, cause you'll always be my baby..

but something tells me...he wont...=(
I'll be even dumber to believe he will..

take care god bless..