Your will be done..

"In my life, Your will be done.."

Ahem..!!.. hehehe.. it's been awhile I suppose..=) and lydia had started complaining that none of her blogger friends are updating their blogs.. hehe I "terasa" a bit eh.. and well, lydia is also probably doing a great job in taking my place.. cause nowadays every time I log in blogger account, I'm always so eager to read her stories.. =)

Anyway, the truth is I've been really really busy!!.. The weekend was filled with dancing, visiting my dear friend rina, partying for Sam's bday, eating, lazying.. arguing, worrying..speeching for public speaking's Mid term, babysitting bernadette,.. crazy I tell you!..hehehe I mean maybe you can tell me, "I always see in you in FB!" But seriously, you may see me but I'm not really there..lol.. Besides FB is getting so so bored!..hmmm

Today was ok i guess..;p ;p ..ok fine fine!! It was soooo unexpected that Sam kept on asking me, "So your heart came out or not??" ....hehehe.. well it did .. seriously I don't understand how it actually works.. A minute ago, everything was chaos!! EVERYTHING!! ...or was it a month.. ..hmm anyway I didn't like that part of me.. I couldn't recognize that reflection I saw.. That girl who was trying to fit in the world, but never felt uncomfortable doing it.. And now suddenly everything is falling into place... not to say, I manage to fit in.. I realize it didn't matter, whetherI fit in..or not..

And well, the thing is everything seem so perfect that I'm too afraid to feel excited..

Sighhh..

Lord,

Its hard..very hard..

When you don't know where the road is taking you.. what is theres a cliff in front?.. or a lion waiting to feast??.. And if I take the wrong road.. without a map in myhand..sigghh.. And you know I'm bad at reading maps..=(

I know it will be hard.. but knowing something and then going through it is too different things..

Everything changes when you face the lions.. who'd ever thought those hairy, handsome, proud animal would have such sharp teeth and claws that could tear you apart..hmm

Ok everyone knew that.. but Lord you get my point rite??.. When you expect things to go your own way.. instead of putting it into Your hands.. I end up torn apart..=(

And telling someone to have faith and learning to trust.. is a hard test, when you yourself are put in that situation.. like I said, its so damm hard.. that sometimes you quit trusting.. which is bad..

And if I fail again.. siggh..

I fell in love with this song.. the moment I heard it.. I think you should take a look at it too..

Oceans will part ~hillsong~

Verse 1

If my heart has grown cold,

There Your love will unfold;

As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand.

When I'm blind to my way,

There Your Spirit will pray;

As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand,

As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand.

Chorus:

Oceans will part; nations come

At the whisper of Your call.

Hope will rise; glory shown.

In my life, Your will be done.

Verse 2

Present suffering may pass,

Lord, Your mercy will last;

As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand.

And my heart will find praise,

I'll delight in Your way,

As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand,

As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand.

Chorus:

Oceans will part; nations come

At the whisper of Your call.

Hope will rise; glory shown.

In my life, Your will be done.

Your will be done Lord.. not mine..